#protestantbitch

[blood-coated-monstru]

[i-n-s-i-d-i-o-s-u-s]

The child looked down at the tired man and began to pet his head. He was a little heavy, but Mina didn't mind at all, just curious as to why the man was there and why he was using her lap as a pillow. "It's okay mister...you just take a nap, okay? Everything's always better with a nap." She just gently smoothed his hair back and hummed disjointedly, a familiar tune perhaps, sung to her by her mother now to him.

((Gonna make this hurt- Au where Walter didn't betray Hellsing but became young again in another fashion, and Integra died in childbirth (maybe to a second child, just recently and Mina doesn't know it yet) like Mina's grandmother did. So Walter and presumably Fiona ended up raising her))

   Sorrow. Absolute aching sorrow had filled the mans bones. For a third time, he had to witness such a travesty in the midst of such miracle. His daughter, Integra Hellsing, gone, along with her would-be son, little Mina's brother. The strain had been too much on them both and he should have realized that such conditions could be hereditary. He knew, months ago, when the signs began. He and Integra planned in secret for Mina's future with the thought of little Arthur in mind, just in case...

     But it would not be necessary. Of course, now, as he could barely hold him self up much less tell the child, the song she hummed was immediately recognized. It almost tore a sob from him, but he had not even cried when he saw the light leave Integra's eyes. Oh her smile. Never before had it been so placid, so sure knowing that Walter was there to rear her girl and keep Fiona in check. Never before had they looked ever so loving as they gazed upon him, before suddenly turning blank.

      And it was all too familiar. Her innocence, her ignorance. Would she too believe her mother walked among the stars now? With her baby brother in arm, chatting with the moon and stars and celebrating? 

     Now was not the time to commiserate. He had to be strong for her now, as he had been for Integra moments later whom now lay with a still babe in her arms, sheets covering them reverently.

      When he lifted his head, there were no tears in his eyes but the redness remained. He smiled his best smile for her, then. She was so like her, he thought. 

     A nap would not fix this but oh he cherished the innocence of the idea. Innocence that would be shattered in weeks as she came to realize what had happened. He said not a word to her, gathering her into his arms as he held her close. Such sweet compassion. It was what made her mother such a dauntless leader... He hoped it would serve Mina well.

[deadlyxgentleman-archive-blog]

.3. (Best I can do mobile. Do it for my Walter if you prefer)

[nah I don't mind. I'm just using a general playlist since it didn't specify]

The biggest mistake was to let you near me

You're so gorgeous I'll do anything

Another dark night with the fullest moon

It doesn't hurt me

she's dressed in black again

Songs:

Every Day's a Good Day-KMFDM

Why Can't I be You?-The Cure

Hitlist-Koffin Kats   I really like this band can you tell?

Running up that Hill-Kate Bush

Dressed in Black-Depeche Mode heh sorry

[i-n-s-i-d-i-o-s-u-s]

Notice

Finally quitting shit hotel job, moving on to better things.

I'll have more time on here, even working 40 hrs/week at starbucks.

Ill be back.

[milleniumscaptain]

tumblr crushes?

//I have to good fortune of being Engaged in real life, but my favourite tumblr people are protestant-b-i-t-c-h, blood-coated-monster and of course all-nuns-go-to-martyrdom//

[consectatiox]

So, just because someone isn't your standards of Friendly it means they HAVE to be holding back, right? That they're totally scared of all of you and want to just hide in their cautious corner, Right? Cause they are so mysterious, there must be someone like you under there. Totally outgoing and widely chatty, right?

Wrong.

I've been seeing these anons telling a friend of mine to 'let go' and seriously he's having a blast here...He doesn't feel the need to hold back. and yeah he answered to that himself, but honestly it annoys me that people feel they can just assume "Oh this guy seems so careful and not as crazy as the rest of my tumblr friends. We gotta make him comfortable!! We should show him that he can TRUST us! He must have a horrible experience in his past, poor guy."

And while this friend is cautious

He's not that cautious. and assuming he would want the help of complete strangers to help him feel un-cautious if he were cautious is kind of redundant. If he wanted to be that careful and reclusive, he has every damn right to. Fuck.

And this goes for every person who wants space on tumblr...Every person that behaves a certain way. If they wanted your help I'm sure they'd act out a bit more.

Ok rant over ilu friend

[consectatiox]

[consectatiox]

Small PSA now that I've had the energy to do so.

So, as some of you may know I have now 2 jobs. One at the hotel on weekends, and then at Starbucks.

I havn't gotten used to the schedule yet, switching from sleeping all day sat-sun, then getting to the Starbucks early in the morning. So I've been drained of energy to brain and will be till I get used to it.

Furthermore, the schedule at Starbucks changes constantly. All last week I worked from 7am-2:30pm, but next week I close two times and open once I think..So it's a bit wonky.

I'm hoping to take in enough revenue from both jobs in a couple of weeks to quit one of them. The hotel job pays infinitely better but it is also the most draining and time consuming for me.

So, replies will be intensely delayed...As if they weren't already.

On top of that, Ii'm starting school in a week or so. Full time.