Small Secrets Part 1 (Dorian’s POV)
AN: Hey! This is a new au I’ve been working on, be sure to check the ask blog @smallsecrets-sanderssidesau for new updates!
TW: tagged for not spoilers!
Dorian walked through the hallway of the building, heading to his boyfriend's apartment, this was only their first month anniversary, he played nervously with the bow tie around his neck, Patton said it wasn't anything formal but he had put it on just to contrast with what he thought was his way too casual outfit, which was just a pale yellow t-shirt with black jeans.
He was nervous to say the least, most of his relationship didn't end well, and he has become too attached to Patton in the las month, but he was sure Patton had too.
He arrived to Patton’s apartment and knocked on the door, adjusting his bow tie once more before his boyfriend opened, he looked at him with a smile “Dee” he said leaning to give Dorian a quick kiss in the lips “You’re here early”
“Yeah, I didn’t want to arrive late, is that a problem?”
“Of course not hun, come in” Said Patton as he moved to let his boyfriend into the apartment.
Dorian entered looking around as Patton closed the door behind them “what’s with all the boxes?” He asked, as the living room was practically full with them.
“Oh, that’s actually part of what I wanted to talk about” answered Patton “Can you help me to put the table?”
“Of course” Dee followed Patton to the kitchen, it was in the same state as the living room, Patton handed him two plates and some silverware and he accommodated them in the table on the dining room, Patton took the lasagna out of the oven and placed it in the center of the table, serving a portion for both of them, Dorian pulled the chair so his boyfriend could sit.
Patton giggled and sat “Thanks hun” he said smiling.
Dorian returned the smile did and sat in front of him and started eating “so, are you going to explain the cardboard box invasion in your house?” He said smirking.
“Yep” Patton managed to answer while he finished chewing his food “I’m going to move”
Dorian’s eyes went wide “move? To another apartment?”
Patton shook his head “I’m moving to Florida”
The shock almost made the food to get stuck on Dorian's throat, he coughed a couple of times before speaking again ”F-Florida? Isn't that like 6 hours away?”
Patton sighed and nodded ”Since I got fired from my work here, I've been having troubles with the rent, it was the best option if I didn't want to be kicked out”
”You could always stay with me hun”
”Oh, no no, I don't want to be a nuisance, besides I have family there, they're going to help me find a job and that”
”You know you'll never be a nuisance” Dorian said, he had stopped eating and reached to grab his boyfriend's hands while looking at him ”But if that's what you've decided, what does that mean to us?”
Patton looked down at his hands and smiled, intertwining his fingers with Dorian's ”nothing has to change between us” he said, looking up at the other's eyes ”we'll make it work, but there's another thing I have to tell you”
The way Patton rubbed Dorian's hands indicated he was nervous, he rubbed them back and nodded to affirm it was fine.
Patton took a deep breath and finally spoke ”I'm polyamorous”
If Dee's eyes weren't opened as much as they could be already, they definitely were now, he was clearly not expecting that and the news left him speechless for a couple of seconds.
Only his boyfriend's voice got him out of his thoughts ”Dee?” he said, Dorian looked at his eyes once more ”I-I know that this can be a lot to process, a-and if you want to leave me i-it’s okay I-I unde-“
“Patton” said Dorian, cutting the other’s rambling, Patton was never this nervous and he could see that this is something that made him a lot worried, scared even, Dorian knew a lot of people where bothered or even disgusted by polyamorous people, and he could only assume not all of Patton’s boyfriends have reacted well to it, but Dorian didn’t mind it at all “I’m not going to break up with you, this is a part of who you are and it shouldn’t be a reason for me to leave you”
Patton smiled slightly “you really mean that?”
Dorian returned the smile and nodded “I do”
His boyfriend’s smile grew wide, he stood up and leaned across the table to reach Dorian’s lips, kissing him passionately for a couple of seconds before pulling apart “I’m so thankful you’re my boyfriend” he said while still smiling.
“I could say the same” said Dorian, leaning and pulling Patton into other short kiss.
Patton was a bout to sit down again once they stopped kissing but he noticed their glasses were empty “How forgetful of mine, I didn’t even gave you some water, what can I get you?” He asked, picking up the glasses.
“Water’s fine hun”
Patton nodded and went to the kitchen, leaving Dee alone with his thoughts, he started wondering if Patton had other boyfriends already, he knew he had moved a lot so maybe he had mates al over the country, and now he was exaggerating, but Patton could find another boyfriend while he was in Florida, would he forget about him? What if that’s what happened with his other boyfriends? Maybe he promised to keep contact with them but eventually met someone and stopped replying, exaggerating again Dorian.
He took a deep breath, he could ask everything to Patton after dinner, they would most likely cuddle with a movie in the background like on every date on Dorian’s house.
“I’m back” said Patton cheerfully as he sat back on his place, he left the glasses full of water on the table.
Dorian smiled and took a sip from his glass.
They finished dinner half an hour or so after their conversation, Patton gathered the empty plates and glasses and left them in the sink, Dorian stood up while Patton returned, both of them were ready to cuddle, Patton gave his boyfriend a smile and extended his hand for him to take it, Dorian returned the smile and reached to grab the offered hand, just to fall straight gay into Patton’s arms.
“B-babe are you okay?” He asked trying to keep his balance, he walked to the sofa carrying Dee with him.
“I-I don’t know, I just... felt dizzy all of sudden” Dorian said while he grabbed the couch behind him and leaned on it to avoid tripping again or make either of them fall.
“Do you need something? I can bring you another cup of water or-“
“No no” interrupted Dorian “I’m fine... I-I just need to lay down for a...” he tried to say, but the whole room started spinning around him “f-for a bit” he said, before fainting on the couch.
Dorian opened his eyes, his head hurt a bit and his mind was fuzzy from before, but at least the room was not moving anymore, he sat on the bed he was on and looked around, he could only assume it was Patton’s room, but it didn’t matched him, it was decorated in shades of yellow and black, there was an almost empty bookshelf except for a couple of books that Dorian recognised because he had recommended them to Patton, the rest of the room was empty.
He stood up and walked to the door, he wanted to let Patton know he was awake, he tried to open it but he couldn’t, he tried again with more strength but it seemed it was locked, weird.
He was about to scream his boyfriend’s name when the room started moving again, but this time it wasn’t spinning, it felt more like an earthquake, multiple little earthquakes that seemed to get stronger every time, then they stopped, Dorian headed to the window to see what had happened on the street, instead there was a giant eye looking back at him from outside, then the room started moving again and the wall with the window opened to reveal a giant smiling face, Patton’s giant smiling face.
“I’m glad you’re awake, I brought you food” he said giggling and leaving a small (gigantic to Dee) plate on the room’s floor “I know it seems like you just had dinner, but you were asleep for almost three days, you need to eat something hun”
Dorian was petrified, he almost fainted again, he leaned on the opposite wall starring at Patton with eyes full of fear, despite this he managed to talk “P-Patton why w-what what is going on?” Or something like that.
His giant boyfriend giggled a bit more “You’re going to Florida with me hun” he reached into the small room to pick Dorian up who ran to the other side of the room at the sight of the giant hand, which was useless because Patton caught him either way “But I couldn’t take you at your normal size, I had to be practical and this way is much easier to be together” he said bringing his shrunken boyfriend close to his face and giving him a kiss on his forehead.
Dee tried to lean away from the touch and Patton’s lips, again without success, he was trapped in Patton’s hand, completely helpless “w-why did you do this?” He asked, trying to hold back the tears.
“Well” Patton petted Dorian’s head “I was afraid you will run away like the others just as you heard my biggest secret, but you didn’t, which means you really love me, and I wasn’t going to let distance separate us”
Dorian was pressed against Patton’s chest, he leaned on it, it felt like a hug, but Dee didn’t know if he wanted a hug from Patton, he had somehow shrunk him and planned to keep him on what appeared to be a dollhouse, and now just acted like they could still have a normal relationship, he fought against the tears, he didn’t want Patton to see him cry now.
Patton’s phone started to ring and he picked it up “sorry hun I have to leave you, but I’ll leave the door unlocked so you can walk around your new home” Patton got his hand into he dollhouse and did something to the door, now Dee could see the dollhouse, it was very big and it seemed like each room had a door to open them and play with the dolls inside, because only the room where he was before was exposed, the rest was closed “there, and promise me you’ll eat something” he said leaving Dorian back in the room “I’ll be back shortly” he finally said, closing the room and leaving his shrunken boyfriend alone, who could finally let himself cry.