ugh I want my fic ideas to be done but I can't write
I have requests to finish, that I have to write again for at some point
the nice comments on my old fics make me feel like I might even want to write again
but then every time I start to feel like I can &/or should, I'll recall The Incident & suddenly can't stand how ridiculous a notion it is. there's just no point to producing anything that awful! & the fact that my old crap is out there in the world where ppl can read it makes me feel humiliated!
and then I feel bad for being so affected by others when I only started writing fic in the first place for a bit of fun, but hell I just can't help it?
Hey anyone wanna look over a short samfro ficlet? I don't wanna spoil it to very many ppl bc it'll probably end up being for an event, but a second opinion before I decide it's finished would be helpful. & I have a question or two.
It's p angsty & bittersweet, dealing with post-quest trauma nightmares. So, only if you'd wanna read something like that ofc.
Ugh how do you write dialogue for any character? Any Tolkien character??? I've considered dialogue a strong suit of mine in the past, but dangit. Tolkien is so involved with his characters' unique backgrounds and individual speech patterns. He wrote whole languages, and gave them realistic nuance, heck.
But me? Every time I try to write any dialogue, I feel like I've just typed out the most hideous, stereotyped thing. Without even having enough context to comprehend what exactly I'm stereotyping???
I talk weird irl. Like. I think I used the words "y'all" and "bravi" in the same sentence once & that,, is genuinely how I am ok lmao. I've picked up phrases from a myriad of places I hardly even realize sometimes. I like words, I talk weird.
Trying to get into a character's mind and talk like they would? Terribly fun challenge. But I'm terrible at it with any given Tolkien character, even the ones I'm hyperfixated on. Helppp.
So Frodo is a linguist, right? Ok I just googled up the denotation & now Idk if he's technically a linguist if he's not completely fluent in some form of Elvish or something, but he's like,, at the very least the closest thing to a linguist as the Hobbits have, save Bilbo.
I keep keeping that in mind, and I think I need to let go of it bc it's making his dialogue sound stilted? Like if I try to talk/type like someone with an interest in lamguage, I try too hard. And that's ooc bc he's canonically v graceful about how he speaks & takes into account who he's speaking to & just,, skilled at all the crap I am SO BAD at.
How do you write a character with more linguistic intelligence AND more emotional intelligence than yourself? & yeah, it is quite imperative that I write about Frodo no matter what the struggle, bc I 💜 him.
Just a reminder that consuming fanfic ≠ getting off to fanfic. Even if it's smut!
Making sweeping statements that hinge entirely on the assumption that everyone interacts with sex in media in the exact same way is actually pretty erasive of and harmful to aces and other queer folks.
