*Possible trigger warning* So I'm going to get REAL for a second here. What many people don't know about me is back in my early high school years (est. 2011-2013) I struggled with Anorexia without even realizing it. It's coming up on the 9 year anniversary of my sister's passing (April 19th, 2011) and I figured it was a good time to share one of my stories. Losing a loved one is NEVER easy, especially when you lose a child. I didn't realize it at the time (and neither did anyone else) but I started to spiral after that. I pretty much stopped eating, only really eating anything when I finally felt hungry. That resulted in me sleeping a lot and skipping meals. I didn't really notice my weight loss because I was a teenager and I would have always seen myself as overweight anyway. I was a size 6-8 at this time and was so happy with that, even though I figured I could be thinner. My prom dress in the first picture is from 6 years ago and it's a size 8. Obviously from the second picture, I'm no longer that size (which is kind of a good thing). At that time I had already been getting regular therapy and was no longer considered anorexic. Although my body still showed the effects. That was almost 3 years after I had been diagnosed. The second picture shows me back in 2011-2012. I still look at that picture with me and my sister and think "wow I wish I was still that skinny", even though I know that the way I got that way wasn't healthy. I look back at the second picture (yes it looks like I have demon eyes) and think "WOW how did no one notice I had a problem?!". The last picture is me today. Sure, I'm still a bit self conscious of myself but to be honest, I'm much happier with how I look in that picture than how I look in the former ones. However, the difference between me now and me 9 years ago is that I'm not beating myself up over my size anymore. I'm sharing this because right now, everyone is down about Covid-19 and everything seems to be up in the air. I figured this might be a good time to air out my dirty laundry and let anyone dealing with similar issues know YOU ARE NOT ALONE, and this too shall pass 💜 #mentalhealth #quarentinethoughts #akf https://www.instagram.com/p/B-yJdJnnqIF/?igshid=m7ui5buoh5lm
