hear ye, hear ye!
an intro post for thee!
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i’m aevan and i go by it/he/they pronouns:)
i’m transmasc and agender. for me my body is a vessel that’s cool, customizable, and entirely unique to me and i find that beautiful, weird, and fun. i don’t really feel any connection to gender at all and never really felt like i fit in a gendered box. i’m just me, im just some guy, a thing even (/pos). i love it/its pronouns because they just feel like me, they feel weird and unique, and strange, and that feels fitting. i also enjoy he/him pronouns as they feel strangely affirming, cause it’s not necessarily right nor is it necessarily wrong. they/them im honestly entirely neutral on because like, yeah, technically i fit in that box but like, really? out of all the options? she/her im neutral on because i honestly still feel a strange and difficult bittersweet connection to my femininity and how people perceive me when gendering me as she/her. i don’t hate it or dislike it, i just try not to think about it at this point in my life because of how complex it will be to unpack. im queer asf and honestly it feels like the right label for me sexuality and even a bit gender wise
with that all being said, i also have many interests and have a lot of autism stored in this vessel of a body.
i’m a big fan of philosophy, nature, art, music, and many other things.
i’ve spent a lot of time hiking and writing music in my life and i love to yap so so much. i spend a lot of time thinking and pondering while shmorkin shmeed.
i’ve been through a lot and i like to write about it as well as vent on here, which i will always tag and warn should it be a triggering subject. i try my best to be mindful of others and im endlessly curious of everything and always have been. if i ever word things wrong or speak improperly im always up for corrections and learning:)
i call myself the stary-eyed cynic because i believe myself to be hopelessly hopeless and naively optimistic, while also being jaded and scared all at once.
i try to enjoy the bittersweet in life because grey emotions and experiences are so hard for me to grasp due to my bpd (which i actively am working on through therapy and meds as well as other medical stuff yadda yadda). so feeling bittersweetness is a way of enjoying a version of greyscale experiences. i also got some crazy adhd and my fiancé can testify to this, especially when i forgot to take the anti-forgetting meds.
i love poetry and the artistry of humanity and the complexity of it never ceases to amaze me.
that all being said, i look forward to learning more about those of you who care to join me on my journey through this weird side to the internet.
smooches darlings ( ˘ ³˘)♥︎
p.s. here have some fob that i used to relate to
