#quest4firemydesire

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quest4firemydesire replied to your post:I got my first hate comment on a post of mine. ...

Don’t sweat it it means you’ve made it. Lololollollololloll

haha, I suppose I've made it through Tumblr's rite of passage.

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This is story is so good, I have no words.

Thanks!!! :-D

[gangxbang]

Yes all of this makes a lot of sense to me, I agree I definitely had to adjust my idea of what he would be like to have sex with to my new concept of his appearance. In fact, going to that concert is what inspired me to start on tumblr because I realized that photos of him make me feel better about how tiny he is (because in pictures he looks healthier mostly compared to RL). Keep in mind that I saw him in RL in April when he was pretty sick.

He's actually much skinnier now than he was since this summer. He lost some weight again this month. And I expected him to be skinny. But he wasn't. I mean, he was skinny, but not too skinny in a sickly way like he appeared on some of the pics from the recent shows. Especially in Poland. For some reason he looked there like he lost 10kgs over night. His boobs were gone and shit. They were definitely there in Vienna. lol I had a pretty good look at his side porn when he was standing on the upper part of the runway, and it looked like he gained back some of the muscle mass there again. The boobs were perky and lively... you know, when he's moving his arms and stuff. lol What am I saying? His body moves in a such a delicious way. Seriously. Thank God no one took pics of my face. I think I looked like a fucking retard with my mouth open for 90 mins.

Apart from him appearing even tinier than I expected tho, everything else was exactly how I imagined it. Which is unreal. How often a celebrity (or anyone) looks in RL exactly like they do on pictures? He looks EXACTLY the same. From whichever angle he's just as beautiful in RL as he is on the pictures, if not even more. I think that's also what makes him so familiar. Seeing him on the pics is exactly like seeing him in RL and the other way around. There is no awkward gap of expectation vs. reality.

His tininess is just one of the things to accept about him, you know. It gave me thoughts while I was there looking at him, but I already don't think about it at all anymore. And I think I also didn't feel sexual 'cause I was so observing. I couldn't stop staring at him, I was mesmerized. His familiarity, all those little things you know about him suddenly right there in front of you. And he just looks so precious, you don't feel like violating him, but rather just look at him, like a piece of art. His body commands some kind of respect. It's truly a wonder to behold.

[gangxbang]

Did the fact that Jared seems so tiny in general (I totally agree by the way) in RL make you think differently about his sex appeal? I hate to admit it, but when I saw them in concert the whole time I was concerned for his health and thought he was so tiny and thin that it made me not want to jump his bones too much. I was really sad about it actually.

INTERESTING QUESTION.

I said once in my blog already since I got back that at the show I didn't feel sexual AT ALL. But tbh, I think it has more to do with the fact I was just emotionally completely numb, and sexuality went through the window with that, too. I did feel - how shall I put this? - the fact that he appeared so tiny in RL, not that I don't want to fuck him anymore, but as if my image of fucking him changed in a way that I have to adjust it to the image of that size. DOES THAT MAKE SENSE? I am a tall girl and I hate it that I'm this tall, so I would always fall for taller guys who would make me feel smaller. So I think of the sex in that way, too. (I hope I'm making sense.) And now you've got Jared, who is a man, but practically my size, that I feel insanely sexually attracted to. And up until seeing him in RL I didn't know my mental image of sexing him needs to be adjusted in a certain way. Since who he is as a person is the most important to me and that's what I love about him, him being even tinier than I expected doesn't change the fact I'm attracted to him. But the best way to put it is that he looked in RL like I would break him. LOL And I'm pretty skinny right now, too. But his tininess almost doesn't make sense. 'Cause he does have solid height. But the frame is a mindfuck.

And btw, I said it in my blog already that I didn't think he was too skinny at all. A bit of an unpopular opinion, I guess. That's what surprised me and then mindfucked me about his frame even more. He was tiny, and yes skinny, but didn't appear TOO skinny to me. It's almost as it fits him to be that skinny. I can't explain. He didn't look unhealthy to me at all.