Quick fixes
(I keep coming back to this one, it’s getting “truer” with time)
I love quick fixes.
To be more accurate – I love the idea of quick fixes. That there’s something that will instantly fix whatever the problem is.
The reason that I say that I love the idea of quick fixes? I have never actually experienced a quick fix in real life.
Not that I haven’t bought into a lot of products, candidates, ideas, etc., that were marketed as quick fixes. It’s just that the ones that were actually fixes, the ones that worked? None of them were quick.
The ones that were quick? Weren’t really fixes. They didn’t really change anything.
One of the scarier things that’s happened to me, happened the morning after I was ordained.
I woke up, and I was still me.
I didn’t wake up feeling holier. Or at peace with God and life.
The same jumble of worries, liabilities, projects, to-do lists, and anxiety that had bum-rushed me the morning before was still all over me.
Getting ordained wasn’t on the to-do list anymore. But otherwise, it was pretty much the same thing.
Ordination wasn’t a quick fix.
I mean, I knew that it wouldn’t be. That’s not how it works. But there was still part of me that kind of hoped it would be.
What was different? In the middle of the same old jumble of worries, liabilities, projects, etc., there was a clear, unmistakable call. Something down deep that was drawing me past all of that other stuff, and calling me to God.
Not that it wasn’t there before. Just like every other baptized Christian, there was something there, something calling me to God.
It’s just that now, it was like it had been turned up to 11.
This was what I was supposed to do. It wasn’t going to be a quick fix. Nothing was going to be suddenly different. And yet, something was very different.
The thing that was most needful was not to be a different me. But to be with God. To spend time with God. To let God work in me on a deeper level than even before.
Sort of the opposite of a quick fix.
To take the time to become who I had been ordained to be. In God’s way. In God’s good time. Until I was living the truth of the ancient understanding of the reference to the chair of Moses in today’s Gospel,
“The chair does not make the priest, but the priest the chair. The place does not sanctify the man, but the man, the place.”
Something tells me that God is just getting started with me.
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