#quick vent

[imjunebitch]

not to be like too super whiny but I do think that I was kinda irreparably damaged as a child by my dads insistent, absurd, and in retrospect super fucking depressing need to constantly feel like he was "totally owning" his depressed, suicidal teenage child who loved him with facts and logic

[cultofeth0s]

as if life didn't fucking suck enough,

octocon is fucking shutting down too

[that1nkyone]

can the universe slow its roll for five fucking minutes

[loves-to-lose]

Fingers crossed one of my clients with a suicide safety plan picks up his phoneeeeee today because I really don’t want to call the cops for a wellness check just to go there and knock on his door for no reason. But I’m also not gonna play around with nobodies life like that. I’ve seen far too many people die especially by suicide, just handling this in general is triggering tbh. I got it though. I always do!

[midnights-wish]

i've been talking to a guy the past week who keeps making huge plans with me regarding the future & that he'll take care of me both emotionally & financially & that just makes me feel so odd. 'cause for one, i barely know him a week. secondly, we barely know each other, 'cause when we spend time together instead of talking about each other, he just reverts to what he wants in the future with me. thirdly, what in hell does he want to base that future on if he, after a week, probably hasn't even memorized my surname, & we aren't even in dating (at least not to my knowledge, lol) so why is he already thinking so far ahead.

but also, it just makes me feel lonelier somehow. 'cause you know, here i have a guy who apparently wants a future with me, & not even he seems to want to get to know me properly & just seems to hold onto this idea he has. i don't even know what Impression he has of me. i mean all this will probably lead nowhere, 'cause as much as i don't want to be alone anymore, just as much i don't want someone who only cares about this idealized future he has in mind. but it just bums me out; i know i'm not the most interesting out there, but the least he can do is try to get to know me a little. but the way he speaks only of that makes me feel like he's only spending time with me until someone better comes along. i have such an odd feeling from him.

[beadigitaldiary]

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Anyone else finds comfort in food? Not in a bad/unhealthy kind of way, just a way where you get happy at the thought of eating something delicious! Or treating yourself to dessert, going out food shopping, idk those small joys in my life I never take for granted~♡😊

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[glesbianupland]

im experiencing my first disappointment in a pokemon game since ive been playing legends za. the emptiness feeling is real and ive gotten to the point where im gaslighting myself into thinking because of the emptiness that just makes it even more special when you finally find some npcs and the pokemon themselves. first time im actually considering returning it; will play it some more but man not even 'its so bad it can be good' mentality can save this game. also because everything looks the same while running around and getting lost despite quick travel points im genuinely loosing my mind.

they sure put the mega evolutions in mega disappointment

[zeenahasarrived]

My sister keeps on calling me a lesbian. Keep in mind, I AM NOT a lesbian. I am bisexual with a preference for men and I know that for sure, I might even just be straight.

It's honestly so irritating because I'm just existing and I'm telling her something and she says "your so lesbian." And I'm just sitting here, and I realize

I'm not lesbian, but she is and she has come out of the closet. She just doesn't want to be the only one. And how she shows it is toxic as hell, because it feels like she's pressuring me to be something I'm not.

It all started when I went to a outdoor pride thing with her and her friends, and they ended up gathered around me trying to decide what my sexuality would be when I'm older.

They all said I'd be lesbian. She just went with it.

I am most definitely not lesbian. I 💞 men.