Hi! this is a heavier post than I would've liked, and not how I expected to first be talking about this, but I feel like it has to be said.
starting with a bit of backstory/explanation, I have a crossover AU between Pressure and ROTTMNT (R.U.P) that's still in progress, which is why I wanted to post something about it later, but because of things in the pressure community, I feel like I have to say this now.
I was just shown the document recently. as in about an hour ago as of typing this post. It's...bad. Really bad. and I haven't even finished reading it yet. I was (and still am) really attached to Pressure. The game has kind of became a hyperfixation for me. But I CANNOT support Zeal after what I've already read in the document saying what he did.
I will continue working on R.U.P for the love of the game and for my AU, but I don't support zeal. I don't understand who would, honestly. But I've always loved the game and the characters over the creators, and those characters are still standing strong in my heart despite the awful thing that the creator has done. I'll link the document under the read more, if you haven't seen it and want to take a look.
Update: I was scared to post this without reading more of the doc, so I stored this in drafts and kept reading. I feel disgusted, genuinely ill, and don't know if I can stomach more after what I've read through so far tonight. I want to keep creator and game separate, but right now the lines are blurry, so I don't know if R.U.P will actually continue.
Hopefully, it will, and I'll get over this, as I had a lot of fun creating and writing for that AU and don't want it to go to waste. on the bright side, my fear of showing the public means you're not attached to the AU as much as I am, so it'll be easier for you to accept it.
To the people that do care about this AU: I'm sorry if I do end up stopping it. even thought it hurts, I might not be able to continue with all that I've just learned. I kind of wish that I was never told, and never knew about what happened. but it's better that I know than to stay in the dark. even if it disgusts me
edit: sibling sent me 2 videos covering this topic - I'm only watching one of them right now. I'm... conflicted on how to feel. what Zeal did isn't good, but miscommunication was definitely a factor. It'll probably take me a while to (mentally) recover and figure out how I feel about all of this, so I probably won't be posting and/or making any R.U.P content for a while. (not like you'll care though, I didn't really tell the public about it-) But just know I'm trying to understand now and what the community did in response is bad. The doc literally says to not harass, and people harassed anyways. I'm disappointed in anyone who did that. Harassment isn't a good thing, even if you're doing it to a bad person.
I won't be editing any of my previous text, just for the sake of keeping it up. Some of my opinion might've changed, but I'm not editing the text for the sake of having it there. Even if it's just for myself. and as an added note - I'm not on social media a lot. I keep to my little bubble, rewatching the same YT videos and talking to my friends on discord. I only know about this stuff from people telling me about it. If I ever don't know something you think I should? that's why.
