On the road to the Seventh Hell, it was good to have a healer on hand. That, at least, was the reason given to Rah when he'd been asked to join the Ilsabard Contingent.
In reality, he knew it was not just because he knew his way around both an astrometer and a medical kit. His rank in the Immortal Flames joined with his connection to House Durendaire made him an excellent candidate to bring the different city-states' healers together.
Perhaps most importantly, though, he thought to himself, rubbing his hands together to generate some semblance of warmth, is the fact that I have a primus medicus for a husband.
He glanced up at Tacitus. The Garlean man seemed unbothered by the frigid wind, though the way he was chewing on his lip indicated he was fretting over something else. Rah had grown accustomed to Ishgard in all its frozen seasons, but there was something more bitter in the cold of the Empire that Tacitus had once called home.
"What's on your mind?" Rah asked. Tacitus blinked a few times before letting out a heavy sigh. The way his shoulders sagged beneath the weight of his greatsword told Rah everything he needed to know.
"We are here to help, not harm," Rah reminded him, though he spoke those words loud enough that the other people in their caravan could hear them. No small number of the other members flinched at his words, though they did not speak up.
Tacitus nodded a little, but couldn't seem to stop chewing on his lip. Rah lowered his voice again so that Tacitus knew his words were for him alone.
"It's a means of self-defense, nothing more. Besides, Seoc built your sword specifically so that you could incapacitate enemies without... killing them." Rah slowed as he spoke, as if he realized that his words were only making Tacitus more anxious. "I'm sorry."
Tacitus shook his head, finally looking down at his Miqo'te husband. Rah's brow was furrowed and his violet eyes silently voiced his concern.
"It's... not even that, necessarily," Tacitus said slowly, doing his best to straighten his shoulders to make Rah worry less. "I don't know how I imagined my homecoming would be, if I ever had it at all, but it wasn't like this." He gestured toward the horizon, where the Tower of Babil jutted forth from the earth like a bloody stalagmite. "It wasn't with my home burned, or with my parents tempered, or with Junie missing." His voice cracked when he said his sister's name and he swallowed hard to suppress whatever else may have spilled from his mouth.
"We'll find her, Tac." The earnestness in Rah's voice calmed Tacitus, if only a little. He reached out and took Tacitus's hand in his own. They both wore gloves, but Rah laced his fingers through his husband's anyway. "We have to. Otherwise, how will she get to hand your ass to you for defecting?"
Tacitus grimaced a little at that, but it turned into a smile as Rah squeezed his hand.
"She is so going to try. And definitely succeed."
"And I'll be there to patch you up, don't you worry," Rah teased. Tacitus gave his hand a small squeeze back.
"I wouldn't have had it any other way."