#rambling?

[s-i-m-o-m-o]

some transparency

I've seen some lists going around with creators that use ai and because of the amount of people in the community having an issue with ai and because I'm not a person that wants to hide anything and I'm starting through with cc again slowly now, I'm gonna give you some explanation.

first of all, I DO NOT use ai during the process of creating cc. everything's made by hand, meshes are done by me from the first polygon to the last, textures are either completely drawn by my hands or partly with free textures I find on the internet (which I still try to avoid, because I just enjoy drawing textures, tattoos etc. myself)

now the BUT

I do stumble over ai pics on pinterest and use them as inspiration. I have a big folder with pictures, most of them are photos from idols (because I'm back in my K-pop era apparently) but when I see pics with hairs, accessories, jewelry, etc. that I like, I just save them, wether it's ai or not, because I want to create these things for my sims

so what happens is simply, I see a picture, save it on my computer and throw it in the image viewer and keep it open while working in blender.

if that's too much ai usage for you and goes against your standards, feel free to unfollow and block. that's why I make this post, so you can decide for yourself.

[urlocalbedhead]

Need the Malevolent fandom to like see the vision real quick but the weird dream section with Frank and the King in yellow where John was all muffled and Arthur was being thrown around in his past (??)

That gives off Achilles come down vibes right??

Like the specific section where the two voices overlap, I would draw it but art fight is kicking my ass

[natsuki208]

Sebastian: Why can't any of you ever clean up after yourselves?

Ciel: I have a person who does that for me.

Sebastian: Yes, ME!

Ciel: I'm glad you agree.

[autumns-arrival]

i dont watch a lot of markiplier nowadays (though occasionally I'll tune into whatever he's up to) but something I've always really appreciated about him is his respect for indies. The fact that this Massively Popular Man has a long-running series where he plays a few games which are so small-scale and clearly just Made By One Person that they couldn't fill a video on their own, and he takes the time to talk about them and offer appreciation and critique of them, is kinda touching and motivating to me, as someone who wants to create games but fears what I make isn't worth the space it takes up.

[cowboy-anon]

Okay, I know I’ve been MIA for a while lol, but does anyone have any good whumpy book recs? I need something for a roadtrip and I thoroughly enjoyed Stephen King’s Misery, soooo if anyone has read any like, majority whump novels, let me know!

[hinmotion]

maybe it's the lunar new year or the deep conversation with my friends last night but i'm in my feels right now. about a lot of things. but also, about diamond and lego.

it's all over the places at the moment so i will (try to) write a more cohesive post later (if i have time admist all these new year house cleaning).

i want to put something out there right now.

so.

you are a male idol. you told your fans in live stream that you thought he were cute, unprompted, when you were asked about his bandmate. and then later you guys were in the same event, your fans teased you if you met him yet, you said no and then he quote tweeted that video saying if you wanted to meet then come say hi. and then you guys met. and then you did tiktok challenges with him. and then he gave you a birthday present and you posted on twitter about it. and then more tiktok challenges. and then you guys collaborated on a dance video of your romantic song about being attractive to someone and wanting to dance with them, as a gift for fans celebrating your mv got 1m views. and then you always tell everyone that he is cute when being asked.

and then you waited 5 hours to catch his group's performance because you guys happened to be at the same job, just different time slots. and then you posted the photo at that same event where he interacted with you on ig with a romantic song. and then in an interview 'this vs that' style, when being asked who was the person you like the most in this building (that you were working in and have multiple long-time, close friends and co-workers of yours) you choose him over and over again and even promoted his socials and his group's latest song. and then in another game, just by seeing his shadow for a brief second, you successfully recognized his photo and won points. and then you always tell everyone that he is cute when being asked.

and then you guys went out to fix his in-ear monitors, eating, shopping, taking photobooth photos and filming another tiktok challenge. and then at a friend's birthday party, you guys took photos together and you posted it on ig. and then you guys went to the same year end party, when he danced on the table, you were afraid he would fall so you hold it with your hands and feet and even sat on it. and then when he wanted to get down from the table, you reached out, hold his hands and helped him landing (?) with a hug.

not to mention all the flirtatious, joking replies at each other all over social media or when interacting with fans, both online and in real life.

publicly having affection for someone with the same gender. but like you guys are both asian celebrities. as a k-pop fan, it's just so different than what i have experienced before, where dating or even mentioning other idols as your type is a sin. any hints of affection is either treated with obsession or toxicity. not to mention the reactions to gay idols or possible gay celebrities relationship.

it's also different in a culture where bl and real people shipping are prevalent. they both were teased continuously by fans, bandmates, friends, co-workers. reporters also joked and pestered them in many ways, that sometimes i got uncomfortable, but seeing even their hardcore solo fans didn't seem to mind make me think it's more of a cultural thing.

and yet diamond still doesn't shy away from it. from anything he was asked about lego. about their relationship. sure, there are things he ignored or declined to answer. he always tell everyone that lego is cute when being asked. he consistently tells everyone, through words and actions, that he adores lego so much.

he could just be more lowkey to avoid all the hassles and the inappropriate shippers. but he didn't. and i don't think he ever will. same with lego. and that's beautiful. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy. like they got to live true to their feelings and themselves. they got to build the personal relationship and bond that they want. they got to publicly show that they like each other. they feel safe enough to do it.

and that's is soooooooo.

good for them.

i don't know how to end this. i don't know if it's the right thing to write all of this.

i want to live more as myself like them. to be a little bit more honest and in tune with my feelings and thoughts.

i want to live in a world where people can express themselves safely and like who they like and love who they love.

[lolliismypop]

a girl from the river — naruto og

You've always been a dreamer.

‘Cause what other thing could you do other than that with such a weak body.

Somehow you continued to push through anyway. Day after day. Step after step. Breath after breath.

.

.

And then came that Tuesday.

One moment you were walking, thinking, existing.

The next… something inside you just stopped cooperating.

A sharp silence, a hollow pause, a weight pressing down from the inside.

No slow-motion fall. No grand epiphany.

Just a sudden, quiet end.

The world didn’t care.

It kept moving, like always.

Schedules. Screen lights. Traffic. People. All indifferent.

.

.

And yet — somehow — you opened your eyes again.

You don’t know if you should be glad or terrified.

Will you slip back into the endless routine, the boring cycle?

Or can you finally reclaim a life that feels like it’s yours?

CHAPTERS !!

000 — an addicted to thoughts

001 — a flower in the rain

002 — life moves on, but will you?

003 — dance to live

004 — if this is dying, then at least it’s beautiful

005 — drifting souls in the rain

006 — swan teaching the duckling

[more chapters to be added]

also. disclaimer !!

I did plan on writing a naruto reader insert but it might lean into a self/oc insert.

This MC will be given a name as I'm not too big of a fan of using y/n !!

I will give the character a similar personality to myself [maybe] and may try to describe the appearance as little as possible. But know that I will go of that this MC will have long hair, quite short and fragile looking [skinny]. I will not point out the colors, except for some of the clothes !!

I might switch between first and second pov !!

hope you enjoy life !!!!

:p