#rambming

[drifterknight]

its time to sip sum water

[irithiadourden]

Si no me deja de doler la cabeza en los próximos 10 minutos, voy a hacer llorar a alguien en un fic. Porque? Porque puedo.

[irithiadourden]

Once again, I'm here drafting a fic because I want to read it and it doesn't exist 😮‍💨 but oh god I'm fighting that inner voice telling me that my writing sucks.

Im not going to let you win you little fucker. (I'm the little fucker. My perfectionism actually)

[stars---thunderbird]

I’m complaining. You can skip this.

I’m getting really tired of constantly feeling like shit. Still dizzy and lightheaded today.

I’ve had food, water and even some extra sugar in case it’s my blood sugar. Still feel like shit.

Thankfully it’s only an hour to Elric’s nap and when he wakes up, John is getting up too.

I have shit I need to get done before Sorin is born. I need to wash all of his diapers, I need to paint his plaques for the nursery (I had Elric’s done before he was born and I’m going to fucking finish these ones) there’s cleaning and I’m just, wiped.

John goes back to days in two weeks, right before Sorin is due, so that’s awesome. I’m just, so done and burnt out. I know John didn’t/can’t pick his schedule. It’s not fair, a lot of people have kids and in this field, they don’t get priority (the Airforce is really good about trying to be as accommodating as possible for service members with families and such) but it was really tiring and stressful with him on nights at the end of my pregnancy.

I’m not even going to the wedding and I still have things to do for it. I mean, it’s more of a scrapbook present thing and I need to write a letter and Kenz has been super nice about it, but like, dude I’m having a baby soon, it’s not a priority for me.

I hate feeling like shit. I hate feeling weak. I hate not getting things done. I’m just done.

Sorin, my little one, I love you, but you’re getting kicked out at 40 weeks.

[samwise-ember]

I want to write a novel so bad, and I have for quite some time now, but I just... I can't find it in myself to create a world. I try, but nothing comes to my mind. I can feel it on the edges, ideas blooming in a part of my mind I can't access. I need to break this wall and begin on one of my long term goals.