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TT: ...!!
MOM: hey bb
TT: Mom!
TT: *Starts walking toward her, at an increasingly quick pace.*
MOM: hey rosey posey
TT: *Hugs her immediately.* I - I thought -
MOM: i am baby
MOM: but im here
TT: *Releases her grip and backs away, with tears in her eyes.* What are you saying, mom?
MOM: that there is an afterlife basically
TT: ...Right.
TT: I'm asleep, then.
TT: I'm glad you're here.
TT: There were a lot of things I wished I had said, before you died.
MOM: i hav all the tiem in the word
MOM: go rite ahead
TT: Right, I guess you do.
TT: To begin with, I'm sorry I was always such a handful.
TT: I've been made aware that a lot of my behavior in the past was petulant.
TT: *Laughs.* Do you remember that time, when you wanted to tell me a bed time story, and I said I was too old for it?
MOM: yes
MOM: i do
MOM: its ok rose. u were just bein urself
MOM: [strokes her hair gently]
TT: *Sniff.*
TT: Every night, I think about that night. I probably passed up on the best story I'd ever hear.
MOM: nah
MOM: tbh i probably would have just made one up on the spot
MOM: about wizards
TT: *Sniff.* Heheh.
TT: I would have liked that.
MOM: me 2
MOM: but i didnt want 2 force u 2 spend time w me
MOM: i didnt want u 2 resent me more than u already did
TT: *Hugs her.* I'm so sorry. I guess I never knew how valuable you were until you were gone.
MOM: bb dont b so down on urself
MOM: i love u no matter wat
MOM: i grew up alone and i never knew my mother... so it was rly nice 2 be a mom 4 some1. even if u didnt want me 2 b
TT: *Sniff.* I love you too.
MOM: i dont see everything but i hav seen a lot of it and i am so proud of u
TT: *Tears start falling off her cheeks.* You were the best, and I miss you so much.
TT: *Sniff.* Really?
MOM: u r so brave and strong and independent
MOM: and plus ur girlfriend is a total babe
TT: *Sniff. She laughs.* She IS pretty great.
MOM: [smooths her hair] i just wish u wouldnt drink so much
TT: *Shuts her eyes.* I know! It's hurting Kanaya, and I can't count the number of bruises I've gotten.
MOM: i kno u have the strength 2 quit rosey
MOM: ur the strongest person i have ever known
TT: *Sniff.* I haven't been feeling that strong lately.
TT: I've been slinking around in the dark, drinking shit I brewed in a bathtub. *Sniff.*
TT: *Hugs her tighter.* I want to quit, I really do!
MOM: u r strong rose
MOM: i know that more than anyone
TT: I hope so. It doesn't feel like it.
TT: *Sniff.* I do appreciate the vote of confidence.
MOM: im always here 4 u
MOM: even tho u cant see me
MOM: plus u hav a vampire girlfriend who doesnt want 2 suck ur blood bcuz of alcohol
TT: *Laughs.* Right. I guess that's one benefit.
TT: I always hoped you'd be watching over me.
MOM: i am
MOM: i even see things i dont want 2 see
TT: I... Yeah, I'm not exactly proud of some of the things I've done.
MOM: y not baby
TT: Well, do you really want to watch me drinking moonshine out of a coffee mug, or falling down the stairs again?
MOM: of course not
MOM: but i know its part of ur lessons
MOM: ur learnin from it
MOM: and i know that its my fault in the first place
MOM: u dont need 2 b ashamed u just need 2 move on
TT: *Sniff.*
TT: Thanks.
MOM: is that all ur ashamed of
TT: *Glares.* Mother, I was hoping we could gloss over the implications of you "always" watching me.
MOM: [giggles]
MOM: giiiirl
MOM: i did say i didnt see everythin
MOM: but im not disappointed in anything i did see ok
MOM: ur more mature than i will ever be
MOM: u make decisions very well
TT: *Snorts.* Well, I was the one whose mind went there first. I don't know how much more "mature" I am than you.
MOM: and i trust most of ur decisions
TT: ...
TT: Thanks.
MOM: wat i mean is ur in good hands
MOM: which is 2 mean ur own hands
MOM: i wouldnt have raised u as well as u raised u
TT: *Sniff.* Somehow, I doubt that, but it means a lot nonetheless.
MOM: y do u doubt it
TT: It's not as if any of us are really that well-adjusted.
MOM: well i cant blame u
TT: This whole damned game is hardly a cheerful education tool.
MOM: exactly
MOM: and u r doin so well
MOM: considering
TT: I hope so.
TT: I don't even know if this thing is possible to win.
MOM: i wish i could tell u
MOM: bein dead doesnt make u any smarter
MOM: it just means u get to see ur daughter fondling her alien girlfriend sometimes
TT: *Blushes.*
TT: I wish I could have introduced you to her.
MOM: i wuld like that a lot
TT: Maybe I'll try to - get her to fall asleep with me...! *The tears start running again. Rose hugs her hard.*
MOM: [she smiles]
MOM: [hugs back]
MOM: no tears rosey
MOM: after all these years... dont start goin soft on me now
TT: *Sniff.* All right.
MOM: i love u rose
MOM: i love u so much
MOM: and i always did and i always will
TT: *Hugs her tighter.*
TT: You too, Mom.
TT: I wish I better appreciated our scant time together on the mortal plane.
MOM: i wish i forced u 2 spend time with me
MOM: i saw so scared 2
MOM: i was scared 2 lose u completely
TT: *Hugs her tighter.* You did fine.
MOM: [sighs] i rly didnt
TT: *Glances away.* Well... Ok, you could have tapered off the drinking.
TT: But I know how hard that is now, so I don't blame you.
MOM: there r so many things i would have done differently
MOM: i woud have made u feel loved
TT: *Sniff.* So would I, Mom.
TT: I felt loved every day. I didn't even realize it, until I saw how much it hurt when you were gone.
TT: Mom?
MOM: yes?
TT: *Sniff.* You know Dave is your son, right?
MOM: yes
MOM: i do
TT: Do you want me to pass along a message, or anything?
MOM: that i think dirk did a great job with him
MOM: and i wish we could have met
TT: Dirk?
MOM: yes
MOM: his father
MOM: brother thing
TT: You and Dave's father were on first-name basis, then?
MOM: yes
MOM: hes ur father 2 bb
TT: Well, I guess that explains a lot.
TT: *Hollow laugh.* You know, I wish we could have all had a barbecue or something when this was all over.
MOM: that would b amazin
MOM: i miss pulled pork despeately
TT: I'll see if I can sneak some into the afterlife.
TT: Though, I'm not sure how Kanaya would feel if I fell asleep hugging a sandwich.
MOM: confused most likely
TT: Yes, I'm sure that would elicit some Delicious Surprise Noodles from her as a side dish.
MOM: do u love her
TT: More than you know.
TT: Actually, I suppose you probably do know.
MOM: i never know what ur emotions are
MOM: but u like it that way
TT: For the most part.
TT: I've been keeping that up for so long, it's as if I don't really know how to turn it off.
MOM: [sighs]
MOM: time
TT: Right.
TT: Maybe I'll figure it out soon.
MOM: i hope so
TT: I think I'm starting to feel the waking world tugging at the periphery of my vision.
TT: It's dark out there. Let's hope it doesn't stay that way.
MOM: lol but ur light
MOM: get it
TT: *Grins.*
TT: I hope that means I can make things better. I haven't been so sure lately.
MOM: i believe in u baby
TT: Thank you. *Hugs her again.* Thank you so much.
MOM: always
TT: In case I don't see you again, I love you.
TT: I wish I could have been better.
MOM: we both could
MOM: im sorry
TT: If I ever got a chance to try this again, I'd make sure not to screw it up.
TT: I just wish you were around, so we had that chance.
MOM: me too... [starts to cry]
TT: *Holds her, tears streaming down her own face.*
MOM: i love u rose
MOM: more than anything
TT: I love you too, Mom!
TT: *Rose starts feeling "blurry".*
TT: Please don't go!
MOM: i wont rosey
MOM: im always here
TT: Promise?
MOM: i do
TT: *Hugs her especially tightly. Tears stream down her face. Rose is dragged away into wakefulness, and is soon gone.*
MOM: :(
TT: *Elsewhere, Rose wakes up in bed, tears streaming down her face. She grasps frantically at thin air, before realizing where she is.*
