when I think we had all this... he was all this.. free to show himself the way he wanted
and he still is all this cause there's no way you can erase what you really are.. nothing has the power to do that... but that guy was now pushed down to the bottom where it's forbidden to go up outside.
and we're no longer allowed to have him like that.. what we can have now is just someone who has nothing to do with that precious guy...
.. all we can have right now is just a faded, frustrated and perpetually turned off photocopy of the happy human who until not long ago shamelessly shone everywhere just being brazenly himself...
and I can’t think of anything more fuckin senseless and so sad... and nothing more destructive to him.
#random night thoughts







