Grief is an absolute bitch. She comes out of nowhere and hits you.
I don't always see random things, but damn, some things just hit different.
I'm playing Planet Zoo. I paused it and am checking stats, doing my thing. I look at the date as I tend to do. It's the day before Miah passed.
Holy fuck.
If I could go back to that day. Just text him one last time. Tell him he's the best oldest brother and how much I love and admire him. The last day he got to experience alive.
Fuck that.
Then I look up at built year, and it's my birthday. Man, I miss my brother. I'm forever thankful for his signs and still showing up after almost nine years. But also, damn, it still hurts all over again.
Listening to the voicemail on repeat.
Screaming in the car.
It's not real.
Please don't be real.
I hate this. I miss you. I love you. Thank you for being you. I really hope I can do right by you.
Fuck.
All over a video game.
