I genuinely despise when people will go “I don’t ship TomTord / TordTom because it’s toxic.” and then they ship something else INVOLVING TORD. don’t get me wrong, you can dislike a ship for any number of reasons, or non at all. You can have whatever feelings about any ship ever and that’s OKAYYY because ITS YOUR OPINION!! But like can we be SO FOR REAL. “It’s toxic” hunny everything involving Tord is incredibly toxic. Literally every relationship he has in the show he has manipulated them or has a huge power imbalance. Tord’s whole personality IS TOXIC. I’m so tired of hearing this it annoys me so bad.
I just KNOW that one of Peeta’s favorite ways to be comforted by Katniss once they’ve grown back together is to embrace her by her waist with his arms engulfing her middle, and bending over so he can nuzzle where her neck meets her shoulder and can breathe in the scent of her hair and skin, almost burrowing himself there. Definitely a must post flashbacks for him. But I can also see Katniss doing the same in times of need.
Random yap about Kamala cause I’m insane about her like always!!
The term no normal and it being intertwined into her character constantly is so important to me. Cause the way I interpret it, even before she gets her powers, she never was normal. Not just cause she was weird or anything, but because of her spot and where she sat socially (if that’s the right words to use.). She is a brown Muslim girl who’s seen to be “too brown” for “normal” society and “too American” for her “own” society. I’m using quotations because it’s obvious,y not true please don’t string me alive. So there truly never was or never will be normal for her, before and after her powers. That want and yearn for ordinary can’t exactly ever be satisfied. Idk this I something I just wanted to point out, it may have been obvious or not, maybe a hot take or a cold take. I’m kinda just projecting slightly onto Kamala from my similar experiences too lol
Anyways take this doodle of Kamala being a dubious dweller
I love listening to metal records that were released decades ago. I'm not a fan of edgy metal sound like Bring Me The Horizon, The Black Dahlia Murder or 3 Inches of Blood. My taste for Death Metal or Extreme Metal has faded, too.
After listening to Hangman's Chair's Saddiction and Pantera's albums so many times, my interest of metal regained me a bit of interest in this year.
Metal albums I dig that were released years ago:
Hangman's Chair - Saddiction
Hangman's Chair - A Loner
King Woman - Celestial Blues
Emma Ruth Rundle / Thou - May Our Chambers be Full
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Alcest - Les voyages de l'ame (2012)
Ghost - Meliora (2015)
Ghost - Prequelle (2018)
Hangman's Chair - Banlieue triste (2018)
Hangman's Chair - This is Not Supposed to be Positive (2015)
Mastodon - The Hunter (2011)
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Atreyu - Lead Sails Paper Anchor (2007)
Bullet For My Valentine - The Poison (2005)
Disturbed - Ten Thousand Fists (2005)
Evanescence - Fallen (2003)
Killswitch Engage - Alive or Just Breathing (2002)
Killswitch Engage - As Daylight Dies (2006)
Killswitch Engage - The End of Heartache (2004)
Mastodon - Leviathan (2004)
Nadja - Touched (2003)
Opeth - Blackwater Park (2001)
Pulse Ultra - Headspace (2002)
Rob Zombie - The Sinister Urge (2001)
The Angelic Process - Weighing Souls with Sand (2007)
The Angelic Process - Coma Waering (2003)
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Burzum - Hvis Lyset Tar Oss (1994)
Metallica - Metallica (1991)
Opeth - My Arms, Your Hearse (1997)
Pantera - Vulgar of Display Power (1992)
Pantera - Cowboys from Hell (1990)
Pantera - Far Beyond Driven (1994)
Theatre of Tragedy - Aegis (1998)
Type O Negative - October Rust (1996)
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Candlemass - Epicus Doomicus Metallicus (1986)
Candlemass - Nightfall (1987)
Def Leppard - Hysteria (1987)
Dokken - Under Lock and Key (1985)
Guns N' Roses - Appetite For Destruction (1987)
Judas Priest - Defenders of the Faith (1984)
Judas Priest - Screaming For Vengeance (1982)
Judas Priest - Turbo (1986)
Metallica - Master of Puppets (1986)
Motorhead - Another Perfect Day (1983)
Motley Crue - Shout At the Devil (1983)
Ozzy Osbourne - Blizzard of Ozz (1980)
Ozzy Osbourne - Diary of a Madman (1981)
Ozzy Osbourne - The Ultimate Sin (1986)
Ratt - Invasion of Your Privacy (1985)
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Black Sabbath - Sabotage (1975)
You think he would try to handle it himself (Like how he usually prefers to handle most situations), even going as far as to try and avoid worrying his li'l dragons on his scarf (Kuro & Shiro) or would he be subconsciously trying to reach out for help?
Like, I know this sounds pretty silly, but hear me out for a moment: Venoct, with all due honesty…doesn’t seem like the kind of per—YOKAI to typically ask for help from others and tends to feel humiliated when he’s helped by another person/yokai (Like in Wakuwaku Nyanderful days (Vol. 1, Ch.6 more specifically), when he was less than happy about being helped out by Katie after he had overworked himself to the point of passing out)). Plus, Venoct also looks like the kind of yokai who’d scoff at first at the idea of anxiety, let alone panic attacks.
(Below is gonna be a LONG ASS infodumping, so get comfortable)
Well…until he’s the one having a panic attack, that is, but even then, he’d probably be in a bit of denial at first and try to convince himself it was something else…only to end up making it worse cause if you know how panic attacks work, you know that trying to think of it as something else is only gonna lead one to thinking of every worst case scenario in that moment, and end up only making said panic attack worse.
Now, let’s just assume that Venoct did understand what a panic attack was, as well as a panic attack's symptoms. Naturally, his first instinct (probably) would be to try and control said symptoms…which you should NEVER do, as you’re not only going end up thinking you’re having a heart attack, but you’re also just going to end up making yourself freak the hell out even more, which in turn, makes said panic attack worser than it need to be.
And if, despite ALL that, Venoct still ends up refusing help and thinks that he can handle it, then…well…it’s only gonna get worse from there cause spoiler alert: While panic attacks usually tend to only last for about 5–30 minutes, in the worst case scenarios, they can last for up to an hour
Which, to the person having said panic attack, can feel like a SHORT ASS time due to how one's perception of time speeds up a bit when there’s adrenaline coursing through one's veins, due to how the brain has less time to process shit when anxiety is in the damn control room, which can give off the perception of time speeding up. It’s like turning up the speed on a YouTube video, and giving the subtitles less time to display what the people in said video are saying.
Now, with all this said, this is basically the turning point where Venoct eventually takes off his scarf, both to give himself more space to [try to] breathe and to also not get Kuro & Shiro all worried up over him, but in the end, he’s either going to end up eventually passing out from hyperventilating or he’s gonna cave in and called shadow Venoct for help (Illuminoct looks like the kinda guy to also get scared if his older brothers get scared, I’m not sorry)
My final thoughts? Venoct needs some therapy. What are you guys’s thoughts?
