#ranting ranting

[sodomy-and-the-boyscouts]

Does anyone else with autism literally not know what sensory things are bothering them unless they somehow find out or make a sustained effort to know what it is?

Like, I see all these posts that will be like “i can’t x because the light is too loud” or “my scalp hurts” or something, and that’s fine because those are the reasons that these feelings are happening, but oftentimes when I’m in a situation I have just mentally unconsciously blocked out whatever it is, like say it’s a repetitive buzzing from a light, i’ll just be PISSED and I won’t know why, and then i’ll realize i’m pissed, and then maybe I’ll step too close and hear the light buzzing and be like “OH”.

Like I feel like I’m never right away conscious of what’s bothering me, or even that something IS bothering me, I just start acting out for what feels like no reason.

Like, it genuinely took me YEARS to realize that why i’m so uncomfortable in certain places is because of how loud fluorescent lights are. (like, I know they light a space well, but I can’t be the only one that is bothered by such loud appliances, I feel like a know many neurotypical people who should also be upset over a buzzing light. why did we, as a society, decide to install vibrating lights everywhere?)

[kebriones]

There's a hidden character/moral growth in Alcibiades if we combine multiple sources together, and if we accept that he most likely was in support of the destruction of melos.

What I mean: in regards to melos, athenians decided that they should make an example out of them, because they refused to join their league, by besieging it and then killing all the men and selling the children and women. They wiped out the entire island. Alcibiades may or may not have played a very big part in this.

But we see him later, after he has rejoined the athenians and they're besieging cities and taking back the islands they had lost, and his tactics are completely different. He takes cities mostly by short sieges and negotiations. Of course, now he can afford to do it because his military prowess is known and people don't want to fight him. But he also deliberately doesn't let parts of the army that he knows are prone to pillaging to even enter the cities they're besieging. If he has to take them by force he uses tricks to avoid big battles. He asks the cities to pay tax and he mostly leaves them alone beyond that. There's also the anecdotal accusation that he had a child with a slave woman from melos, after they killed everyone there, and that he raised that child as if it was a legitimate son.

I like to think of him as a young general eager to show off his power and lacking much empathy, potentially going to melos in person to oversee the operation, and having to face the mass slaughter and enslavement he helped bring about.

Which then makes me think about Sicily, and how him asking the spartans to send over army to stop the Athenians was merely to sabotage the expedition and force them to return to athens, not to get the entire fleet and army wiped out (that happened because nicias was too religious and superstitious and waited for the moon to be right before they set off, and the decisions made in general by the people left in charge were horrible).

[softxsuki]

Customers reallllllly get on my nerves sometimes. This one guy just completely ruined my mood today bc of his impatience. “Wow, really it takes that long? How do you guys expect to compete with Amazon like this” like sir okay then go order your book from Amazon and pay all that money for shipping. Idc 😒then he says thanks but I ignore him bc I’m done with him now and my manager is like “he’s saying thanks” so I have no choice but to acknowledge him. And he’s like “someone get this girl a coffee”. I’m so annoyed 🤩 his whole aura was irritating

[looigee]

The problem with minecraft is that I can't make a cute ass little orchard where I grow all my fruit and I can't have all these vegetables growing in my garden and I can't make all these recipes and I can't experience all the seasons in one place and I can't live in a cutie cottage with a kitchen and all my animals and I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE 🥺🥺🥺🥺

[kikis-inheritance]

Weve had a storm almost every day for the last three weeks... this isnt normal Michigan weather...

Yet people are really still denying global climate change...

[iridiscent-me]

Today on: why am I still on the closet?

My parents are being homophobic and I know the lovely couple (not straight) in the next table can hear them and I!!! Wanna!!! Die!!! Of course I'm changing the subject, telling them to shush it out, asking them to stop, you know doing everything in my power to shut this nonsense down, like any sensible person would BUT THEN my mom, out of the fucking blue, says "It's like our daughter, what if she tells us she likes girls. I've already told her than she can be anything except a [Spanish slur for wlws]" and I'm??? BC THEY DRAGGED ME INTO THAT CONVERSATION LIKE THEY KNEW SOMETHING BUT WHAT WAS THEIR GOAL? THEIR POINT? THEIR AIM? WAS THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO STOP ME BEING ATTRACTED TO GIRLS OR LIKE ??? MEXICO EXPLAIN

[aloy-sobek]

Re/ylo literally makes me sick to my stomach and I wish this stupid filter thing in Tumblr worked so I could to into the last Jedi tag and reblog happy resistance post.