#ranting;

[spadebait]

I’M PISSED OFF. HERE’S WHY.

LET’S CUT TO THE CHASE. 

EVERYTIME I REBLOG SOMETHING VAGUELY HORNY OR POST A SELFIE THAT SHOWS SOME SKIN, PEOPLE COMPLAIN.

OTHER PEOPLE MAKE HORNY POSTS ALL THE TIME, NO ONE BITCHES ABOUT THAT. WHEN I DO IT IT’S WEIRD, BUT WHEN ANYONE ELSE DOES IT IT’S FUN AND ENTERTAINING? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? THE MAJORITY OF YOU HAVE HORNY BLOGS BUT NO ONE GOES “DON’T YOU HAVE A SIDEBLOG FOR THAT?” AT Y’ALL, BUT IT’S FINE TO DO IT TO ME?

REAL TALK, I’M FRUSTRATED THAT I GET TREATED ONE WAY, BUT OTHER PEOPLE DOING THE EXACT SAME THING I DO DON’T GET THE SAME RESPONSE OR TREATMENT. I’M NOT MAD AT OTHER PEOPLE FOR HORNYPOSTING OR THEIR NUDES, I REALLY DON’T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE POST. IT’S THE DOUBLE STANDARDS THAT’S GOT ME FEELING SHITTY. 

IF IT’S NOT OKAY FOR ME TO DO, WHY IS IT OKAY FOR EVERYONE ELSE? THE POKING FUN AT ME FOR DOING THE SAME SHIT EVERYONE ELSE DOES ISN'T FUN FOR ME AND IS ACTUALLY HURTFUL, I’M TIRED OF BEING QUIET ABOUT THE FACT THAT IT’S HURTFUL. REPEATEDLY BEING CALLED A TWINK AND A CATBOY IS FUCKING TIRESOME AND I’M SICK OF IT. IT’S DIFFERENT IF SOMEONE I LIKE DOES IT, BUT THE CATBOY JOKES ARE OLD. THE TWINK JOKES ARE OLD. THEY’RE NOT FUNNY, I DON’T ENJOY THEM, DON’T MAKE THEM AT ME. 

JUST IN CASE ANYONE THINKS I’M VAGUING THEM. IN BIG BOLD LETTERS: I AM NOT VAGUING ABOUT ANYONE. I DON’T CARE THAT YOU HORNY POST OR POST NUDES. I’M NOT MAD AT YOU OR ABOUT YOUR POSTS. I’M TIRED OF BEING MADE FUN OF. DON’T READ THIS LIKE A VAGUE POST. THIS ISN’T ABOUT ANY SINGLE PERSON. THE ONLY REASON I’M NOT MESSAGING INDIVIDUALS THAT HAVE MADE FUN OF ME IS BECAUSE TOO GODDAMN MANY OF YOU HAVE DONE IT TO ADDRESS PRIVATELY.

TLDR: STOP PICKING ON ME FOR HORNYPOSTING OR POSTING SELFIES/CENSORED NUDES. OTHER PEOPLE DO IT TO AND YOU’RE NOT GOING TO GET ON THEM FOR IT. SO DON’T DO IT TO ME. THIS IS NOT A VAGUE POST.

[maledicti-oculi]

//It’s bad enough that pron bots follow me. But, for fuck sake leave my PMs out of this.

[spadebait]

I WISH I DIDN’T LIKE THE INTERNET SO MUCH, BECAUSE IT’D GET SHUT THE FUCK OFF AND NEVER TURNED BACK ON. IF THERE WASN’T SO MUCH SHIT TO DO ONLINE, I WOULDN’T WEATHER THE STORM OF ASSHOLES WHO DON’T THINK BEFORE THEY TYPE. IT’S FUCKING CHILDISH, KIDS HAVE HAD NICER WAYS OF CALLING MY MUTATIONS WEIRD AND THAT’S SAYING SOMETHING. IT’S PATHETIC THAT CHILDREN CAN HAVE MORE EMPATHY THAN ADULTS, ESPECIALLY WHEN THOSE LITTLE BASTARDS CAN BE ABSOLUTELY VICIOUS TO ONE ANOTHER.

[hiredassault]

If they think killing a character will end an era, they are wrong. Also it is very heartbreaking that a most crucial character of the fandom is getting eliminated "officially" without any proper arrangement. I really hate how it is turning out when the character is actually showing up with its true colors, they decide to kill it in an unprecedented way. I don't know but I am sick of this killing and again repeated resurrection of the character. And when he is turning out to be the hero in his own story, they are removing him. -flips table-

[keas-paradise-blog]

in addition to my response to that ask, if you have a problem with me or my boyfriend and our decisions. Don't hide behind anonymous messages. Because I don't answer most of them. and I won't be as sassy if you say it to my face instead of hiding.

[caydex6-blog]

I'm so fucking done with my grandmother it’s ridiculous. I cannot take her verbal abuse any longer. Sorry grangry but you're not manipulating me like you do your damn mother. Just because I said a 'probably not' meaning there's still a chance in there that there’s a yes, you don't have to throw a hissy fit and say that I hate you just because you have to pick me up because you're my last resort most of the time. Most grandmothers would go out of their way at least once in their lives even if their as selfish as my grandmother. I told her she's acting just like how my grandpa did and then she tries to go and say "Oh, so you hated your papaw, okay."

 Pulled up to try and feed the cats and wouldn't let me because she said she'd do it and "hopefully fall over and die" and tried to tell me it would make me happy???. Then she shoved her pocketbook on me and violently shoved papers in it, hurting my legs to make herself even more mad to try and have a heart attack or something. Then she pulled out in front of a truck on purpose. And that truck was on the right side, my side. I can't take this any damn longer. And the only people I have on my side are my mother and my cousin because there the only ones that believe me and have witnessed shit. 

[mountaindewcookie]

I need to rant a bit, sorry.

Why do I always owe people apologies? Why do I always owe people things in general?

I do a lot of shit for people and never, EVER expect ANYTHING in return. Hell I never even expect people to be nice to me even when I’M nice to them.

I accidentally take people around me for granted sometimes, it has been pointed out to me a few times and yeah I noticed it, and I know why it’s happened.  But people take ME and my KINDNESS for granted a lot too.

I’m pissed. Stressed. VERY unhappy and wishing I was dead but there’s too many people who love me and want me to stick around. 

I need a break from life. From the internet. From EVERYTHING fuck.