#rantttttt

[recklesssensation]

If every word I speak could change the world, I wonder, would anyone listen?

-recklesssensation

[blorbofied]

* crushes my soul with my bare hands *

[sleepbby]

i keep seeing articles and posts about gay and lesbian ppl expressing their attraction to the opposite gender but somehow refusing to acknowledge bi and pansexuality. like I do not wanna deny them the right to assess their own identity but there are some weird issues that make many ppl consider sexuality as an on-and-off switch rather than a spectrum.

its a certain pressure from both straight and lgbt communities that eliminates being bi or pan as a possibility for many young ppl and they make rough decisions. it leads to ppl who have identified as a lesbian for years to say ‘hey Im attracted to men too but I’m a lesbian’.

its a certain embarrassment and hatred towards admitting you like the opposite gender and im gonna say this is mostly driven by a fear of being judged by lgbt peers. its a fear to be considered ‘not gay enough’, which is caused by biphobia and related issues from the lesbian and gay community.

bi and pan erasure and phobia leads to people “wrongly” identify as gay and lesbian. again, I don’t wanna judge for ppl, but these cases exist plenty enough to make the connection. bisexuals and pansexuals are just as much part of the lgbt community as gay and lesbian ppl is all im sayin and this needs to be said more often

[emerald-crow]

WOOOOOOOOOW

My teacher just did THAT uh? She just decided to fuck me over like,,,,,I mean why not???? What does my future mean to her? Why should she attempt to even be a somewhat decent person?? Being a cruel bitch is much more fun afterall

[bok-joo-shil]

I freakin hate people for judging people even if they don't even know those people

i freaking cant stand it when people judge other people out of the blue

LIKE B, you aint w them when they were there last year

you dunno what happened so nooooowww dont judge them just bc they were just

being the way they were last year

Uhm, stop

Not me, ha

Not me

[gleivy]

I cry like extremely rarely but right now I’m crying torrents out Absolute White-Hot Anger to a point where I don’t think I’d be able to aptly describe it with my own vocabulary Like I’m honestly completely wordlessly livid right now not just at one person or one thing but just about Everything like goddddd I’ve really gone and done it now but I’m just 110% out of control like I am Pissed as all hell

I know it’s an attempt to be supportive but I Literally Cannot Stand It whenever someone says “I understand how you feel” to this one particular sensitive spot because No Karen you don’t and you never will like you cannot and will not ever understand what it feels like to have ZERO agency and autonomy over yourself and you will Never understand how precious it is to have agency and even think of yourself as a person instead of an object for someone else’s use Like…. no, you don’t know, you don’t know how I grew up or who and what I dealt like I’m sorry I know you have good intentions but LEAVE ME ALONE I don’t want any half-baked fake pity or anything, I want to learn how to like things without feeling awful even when I keep it to myself and I really want to unlearn the mentality of “"not being a person”“ but lolol I guess I’m just a dumb kid at the end of the day right and you’re just waiting for this episode to end so I can go back to waiting on you hand foot and soul

[sadult]

Honestly why are the Ancestors such dicks jfc you’re dead stop caring so much and being so controlling ahhhhhhhh

[dai-li-sergeant]

i don't feel thai/asian. i don't feel "english". ive got an asian face but i speak better english than thai. each group at school won't accept me as one of their own a lot of people like to ask me if it bothers me to be like this idk what i feel being like this has always been a part of me. // everything that i thought was "wrong" about me, ive dealt with and accepted over time. even the numbness in my head, and the worrying symptoms of mental illnesses. my family said i was ok. doctors said i was ok. so i think im fine i should be fine i believe i am fine i have always survived but the thing is that i think i say im fine too often now. people dismiss me a lot. and that's why i don't speak up but it's weird idk where im going with this. because if i do get myself checked out i don't want to be on meds and stuff i guess one part of me wants to be truly "ok" the other part says mental illness is weakness, and it'll bring my family "dishonour". and that i can live it through like this on my own