I miss my old twitter
When I only had a few followers from hs and uni
And when they were only my closest friends or non-kpop fans schoolmates
When I am not afraid to be judged by them bc of my crazy tweets
I used to be very free to spazz whenever and wherever I am
I used to be able to express my love for all of my idols
I used to be able to tweet my idols whatever I wanna tell them
BUT NOW I CANT
BC MOST NON-KFANS SCHOOLMATES ARE KPOP FANS NOW
They are also fans of bangtan
So I am really discreet with my love for bangtan bc I'm afraid they'll judge me
Wtf I even tweet back to yoongi with just hearts and or in korean that I can barely speak
I can't say "i love youuuuuu", "stay healthy", "take a lot of rest", "i love you so much please sleep a lot, eat a lot", etc. bc I'm afraid they'll judge me with whatever crazy shit that I say bc it might sound/look 'immature' to them bc I'm getting older, I'm in my 20's and I should not act like a 14 or 15 year old fangirl
I know it's just all in my mind but I don't feel comfortable now to spazz with my twitter acct
It used to be my safest place, my safe haven (aside from tumblr- w/c is not very safe now as well bc I obviously made this side acct to express more of myself)
I never made a fangirl twitter acct bc my personal acct used to be my fangirl acct as well
I don't want to make it now bc I feel like it's too late already
I just have to continue doing this
Continue expressing more of my spazzing on tumblr
And ranting with this side account
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