#reality hit

[chewer-of-chargers-and-luffas]

The investment of my time, is not worth my goal at this point... [education]

when you relise how hard it is to change yourself, then you'll realise you should not force yourself to change anybody. [people are unchangeable]

[fallen-allien]

it got too real too fast, ouch

[messy-little-soul]

June 14 2018  11:31 PM 

Well wanted to do something fun but reality hit me hard. Wanted to go walk the dogs and hang with the whole family but as I hooked my dog to his leash and walked to the back of the truck to get him on the bed my unsteady balance and his pulling were a terrible combination. I am accustomed to his pulling of excitement and know how to maneuver around it but this night I just don't know what happened my left leg dropped, dragged and just completely went out falling on my right knee followed by my right hip and shoulder. I was helped in getting up and decided to stay. My mother attended my wound. There is a tear in my pants with a bit of blood. She helped me walk in and helped me change into some legging which had to be cut so that the fabric would not rub or put pressure to where my wound is. Life is a struggle. But my mother always tells me to look at things in a positive way. I have an excuse to buy new pants and legging.

[grgschesca]

DELUSIONAL

The sad fact that you don't wanna admit to yourself that you became delusional from the idea you once created on your mind based from hearsays and past stories, and you started living in that illusion hoping the same affection would happen to you.

When in reality, it was just someone from the past, a stranger, someone that is not real, but just an image, a mental creation, a person that was no longer existing or never existed at all...just a dream.

When life really hits you…very hard.

But can't blame anyone, to be honest, you have to know where you stand coz you may not know it, you might be standing in a wrong position. That’s where the drama starts.

And all these hopes are actually just part of being delusional.

Different life, different stories, different approach, different treatment, and someone like me who's only there to watch it.

Sometimes the truth hurts so we lie to ourselves.

[grgschesca]

Seeing people change isn't what hurts, what hurts is remembering who they used to be.

Nung Love pa nya ko, hahaha!

[these-overwhelming-feels]

I'm (: over (: it (:

[thequeerosexual]

I actually want to rip out my hair, heart, and rip my self to pieces over one person. I honestly want to sit and cry for days. I don't want to move and I defiantly don't want to put effort into things I don't care about. I honestly would never thought I would have gotten this way over one person. I never thought one person would hurt me this badly.