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ddba s2 episode 5 ramblings

Spoilers!

- Have I mentioned before how I love ddba’s intro theme so much? I know it’s like a reprise of the original main theme from netflix but this just sounds so heavenly. I do wish the view on the reverse-crumble animation of the daredevil statue would twist/turn around so we get the back view of the silhouette like in the og intro, anyways—

I'm in the mood of sharing something, so I'll do it.

I have a story idea that's almost two years old, and that's really important to me for the feelings it holds.

Another thing that's really important to me is it's main character, Adele.

I already posted a drawing of her, if I remember correctly.

Anyway, the story isn't of the happiest, it's actually a story about mental illness, so, as expected, it should be at least a bit dramatic or sad.

Returning to the main topic, I gave her a childhood that is full of judgement and miscommunication form others, and, because of that, she always feels misunderstood and "a waste of air", to say it in simple words.

And her future isn't of the simplest either, because she gets pulled into situations in which she is forced to interact with other characters as flawed and broken as her.

Or at least that's the objective, but it's still under processing.

Anyway, I was worried that her character was too happy, sweet and innocent for her past experience and theme of the story, and thought of replacing her with a completely different character.

Thing that hurted me, because I'm really fond of Adele.

But, luckily, my old teacher (the one that told me to write more happy or romantic stories, yes, that one) convinced me to keep her.

He just told me to not immediately show her past, and to reveal how she got where she is now later, once I'll draw the comic (if I'll do it, I really hope I do). And that he also gets attached to his characters, so, the message I got from that is that it's something totally normal.

Said that, I'll continue the story like I've been doing till now, with a sweet and cheerful main character.

And honestly, I'm glad. I really wasn't feeling like abandoning one of my favourite babies.

Yeah, my OCs are my babies, problems? 🤨

Thanks for anyone that stayed and got at the end of this ramble.

And to everyone who's having any type of doubt about their favourite OCs, believe in them, and, more importantly, in yourself.

(not me encouraging others to believe in their OCs while I'm the first one to get rid of them after I grow bored of them)

(I'm awful, I know)

End of ramble, bye! 👋🏻

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Hey so I need to get something off my chest here

So my parents and I have been arguing about my school’s administration and such, and an argument that they keep using is “You need to let the adults handle this. It’s bigger than you.”

Hell if it is. I’m the next generation, I’m the future. I need to learn RIGHT NOW how to handle these sorts of things because if I don’t, I’m going to seriously mess some really important shit up. I can’t just ‘let the adults handle it’ because I’VE TRIED LETTING THEM HANDLE IT. THEY FUCK SHIT UP. I asked them specifically to “not do it this way, try doing it this way, or better yet just let me handle it.”

They did it they way I asked them not to. I almost lost my best friend because of it.

Maybe it’s bigger than me. I’m a small person, there’s a lot that’s bigger than me. But you know what’s bigger than almost everything? MY IMAGINATION. I can imagine the biggest picture, how different scenarios will pay out, how people will react, how things will (mostly) end up. I advise against certain paths; they ignore me and do shit anyways. It ended badly.

Thing of it is, they can’t even see how badly they’ve fucked up because they only listen to “other adults.” They tell us to tell adults, and when we do, things get fucked up or ignored. If we do things how we think are right, and the thing ends well, we get screamed at because we didn’t tell the adults.

My parents tell me to learn who to rely on, because they won’t always be here for me. I’ve already learned what to tell them and what not to. I know who to tell the important things to; my friends at that school who understand what the fuck is actually going on, as opposed to my parents, who are only listening to what my principal has told them.

They try to fix problems that they don’t understand. They try to read only half the story and write the perfect ending. It just doesn’t work.

I’ve tried telling them this, but they shot me down, so here I am, telling my feelings to the Internet, because that’s who I’ve learned to count on.

Thoughts/private messages always welcome.

XOXO,

Ria :)

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some final p4 thoughts under the cut (and pro's and con's compared to p3p)

so like I said earlier, in the end I really did like persona 4, but I think I like persona 3 (portable) better.

and here is my rambles on why

persona 3 pro's:

are you a boy, or a girl?

if the ability to choose your gender was just something small, (like in pokemon) and didn't change how characters interacted and stuff, it wouldn't matter as much to me. but with the changes that come with choosing your gender, I really really love that I was able to choose to be a girl (so I could fangirl in akihiko's room) and I haven't done it yet, but I can then go through the new game + as a boy too.

character's mature, regardless of if you complete your social link or not.

I was really bad about completing my friend's social links in p3p ;n; I think I finished fuuka, ken, and akihiko, I don't think I even started mitsuru's, or if I did I only met with her a few times. but while I would have learned more about them by going through their links, they still matured as characters without me. in p4, you only saw a friend come to accept themselves if you completed their social link (if I hadn't completed yosuke, I'd assume he remain unchanged the whole time... because he kinda acted like the same pain in the ass the whole time)

minor arcana cards are godsend

seriously, I missed those so much in p4. I love dungeon crawling and everything, but I hate endlessly grinding. p3 made it easier to get experience and money. I couldn't afford to get everyone the best weapons and armor, or to try to fill my compendium more, because I just didn't have the money to do that. and I only made it to level 88, because I got bored of grinding.

weapons were way easier to get too. part of the problem was that I didn't realize you had to sell shadow drops in p4 to get new weapons.

p4 gameplay might have won out if I played persona 3, not persona 3 portable, because not being able to freely control my party members would have made me cry.

the fall > the midnight channel

I don't know why nyx bringing the end of the world seems less far fetched than a god wanting to cover the world in fog through tv's, but I do prefer the plot of persona 3 as well. but both plots have their pro's and con's, but I'll just talk about them here instead of going back and forth on them. persona 4 had a more clear reason on why we fought shadows (thanks to a incredibly slow start), yosuke was mad about saki, and chie wanted to save yukiko because she was her best friend. MC wants to help his friends, plus he's the one that got his head stuck in the TV in the first place. in persona 3, MC is literally just kinda thrown into the whole mess, and most people just feel like they were recruited into the efforts. this misdirection of why are we fighting does basically lead to the rise of nyx, because they believed that they should kill the full moon shadows. but in the end I would take misled kids fighting over a bunch of kids going on a wild goose chase to figure out what the hell is going on with a weird tv world.

con's:

new game + is too easy if you don't play on the hardest setting

I think I went from normal up to hard or whatever the 4th setting is, and I haven't finished it ng+ yet, but when you keep your level, plus that one place that leads to margaret, you can take a party in there and level everyone up as much as you want before you you even get to the first full moon. I know I said I hated grinding, but I like a little bit of a challenge ;n;

social links are interesting, but....

half of them end really sadly? I guess I just got really tired of "forming this unbreakable bond" with people, just to never see them again. Akinari dying (was predictable I know) made me cry like a baby. a ton of them just leave after you become best friends, Saori, Maiko, the Monk. They weren't all necessary sad endings (the monk goes and finds his family if I recall correctly) but it just makes me sad that you make these bonds and then they all leave you.

and then there's the ending

I still kinda have mixed feelings on whether of not I like the ending, I just know it made me cry and cry and cry, so I list it as a con. we randomly got put into this whole thing, and yeah we become great friends and shit, but then we have to sacrifice ourselves to save everyone? the world goes on, I guess that's a happy ending, but from our point of view it's pretty sad.

that's most of my rambles but I have a few pro's and con's for 4 as well.

persona 4 pro's

dungeons are more fun

I really liked going through everyone's dungeon! and I liked how it didn't feel as tedious, as they were only 9-11 floors high, rather than the tartarus, where each block gave you a ton of levels to climb and climb and climb ;n;

cute characterssss

I like characters from both games, and I hate characters from both games. but I really really like kanji and naoto. nanako is a cute, and I love dojima. I think I'm just attached to more characters in this game (which leads to a con in a bit)

happy ending yay

music

I like the soundtracks of both, but I liked p4's more

con's

why do quests feel 500x more tedious

no but seriously, whyyyy. I guess in p3 you could accept theo's quests that required getting drops before you were in that block. where in p4 you had to clear a dungeon, then go get the quest for drops in that area. I liked theo's quests, I hated the quests in p4.

adachiiiiiiiiiii

this one is dumb, but I really liked adachi when he was a goof ball ;n; it makes me really sad that he was actually some psychopath that just threw whoever pissed him off into a tv.

if I hadn't been playing an emulator, I would have been frustrated a LOT

dungeons were easier to leave in p3, there were those things that took you back to the place where you could save and heal. in p4 you do have the ability to go back down floors, but when I'm about to fight a boss on the 6th floor, I don't want to climb back down 6 floors to heal sp and save, and then go fight him. I want to be able to go back and save with that teleporter thing ;n;

luckily with an emulator I could just save whenever, rather than using save points, and I used that shamelessly. (I would have died so many times otherwise ;n;) I died plenty of times in p3 too, but then it was usually a shorter fall back to my last save point. here I would seriously lose ALL my work in a dungeon if I died before I got to the save point on the highest floor, and I don't know if I can put up with that. granted this would have only been a problem until you got a persona with the skill traesto

I had some more I think, but I've already rambled on too long and have forgotten the others. so I'll leave it at that for now.

#alex plays persona 4 #REALLY LONG RAMBLES