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Organization for Transformative Works
here it is - a fic that's been an emotional roller coaster to write for me!
So if you're in for a little fluff Seblos having a sleepover in Seb's treehouse (I literally don't accept that Nini is the only one with a tree house) after the final BatB performance, go read it and tell me how you feel after! I'd like to add a cheesiness trigger warning because I don't know my limits when it comes to Seblos :)
This is also where I tried to make sense of Carlos' struggles in EP11 because, as always, our wonderful show writers failed to adress that!
enjoy xx
ps: if you wanna know what I did with this post where I asked about spooning, here is the fic I was planning then!
Rhae Rhae Rhae please tell me about "i'll show you the world (shining, shimmering, splendid)" 👀💕
mia mia mia this is the soulmate au angst that you all enabled me to write: soulmates can see color only after they touch each other's hands. carlos doesn't believe in soulmates but seb dreams of finding his soulmate -- when carlos touches seb's hand, carlos' world bursts into color but seb's world stays grey. they try to figure out how to deal with that
there's a long snippet for you under the cut 💙:
When they pull up in the muddy driveway of the farmhouse, Carlos pulls the handbrake but keeps the car on, his hand lingering in the space between them, and Seb looks up at him to say good night, to thank him for the date, but Carlos is already looking at him, with so much of everything that Seb finds himself unable to say anything.
Carlos’ hand twitches between them, like he wanted to reach out, but then it clutches so tight around the handbrake that even in the dim light from the porch, even in Seb’s greyscale vision, Seb can see the paleness of Carlos’ knuckles.
“Seb,” Carlos breathes out, a whisper, a prayer, “can I take you out again?”
And Seb – Seb knows why Carlos doesn’t believe in soulmates. He’s heard the entire talk about why Carlos doesn’t want him, doesn’t want a soulmate.
But it’s Carlos who can see all the colors now, and it’s Seb who’s still stuck seeing all the grey skies, their soulbond imperfect and proving all of Carlos’ doubts right.
“Aren’t you – ” Seb thinks of their date, of him dancing and stepping on Carlos’ foot more times than once, “aren’t you disappointed?”
“Disappointed?” Carlos frowns. “Why would I be disappointed?”
Seb shrugs. “I don’t know, I – I can’t love you the way you love me.”
With Seb’s grey vision, the bond not quite right on Seb’s side, he can’t ever share a world of color with Carlos. Can’t give Carlos that explosive, that bursting soulbond that Seb himself dreams of having.
This first date had been about figuring out whether they could work as partners. As something more than friends, more than soulmates with a broken soulbond –
“Blue,” Carlos blurts out.
“What?”
“Your eyes. They’re blue.”
“Oh.”
This time, Carlos’ hand does reach out, hovering just above Seb’s knee – waiting for permission. When Seb gives him the smallest nod, Carlos’ hand settles warm over the thin fabric of his old jeans.
“You’re the kindest person I know,” Carlos tells him, “I’m luckier than lucky that the universe gave me you.” Swallowing, Carlos traces a heart with his thumb over Seb’s knee. “And if I have to share you – if I have to share your love, then – your heart’s the biggest heart I know. We’ll make it work, we’ll make it fit, if – if that’s what you want.”
Somewhere out there, maybe Seb had another soulmate. Another person who might give him the colors that Carlos hadn’t been able to bring into his world.
Seb couldleave the car, could throw away his chance on Carlos and find whoever else was out there for him.
But it was unfair to Carlos if Seb always had one foot out the door. He isn’t cruel enough to keep stringing Carlos along – and he’s there, teetering between all the possibilities, between the chance at seeing colors and between the dark greys of Carlos’ eyes, greys that Seb might never get the chance to put a name to.
Were they black or dark brown? More russet or more umber?
When he looks closer at them, though, he finds a steadiness, a courage in the way Carlos held his gaze.
He doesn’t need to know the colors of Carlos’ eyes – he already knows the warmth of Carlos’ hand in his –
“Just – is this,” Seb stares at Carlos’ hand on his knee. “Is this what you want?”
Am I what you want?
The question lingers unspoken, but not unheard.
Carlos shakes his head. “Seb, you’re – I know things haven’t been simple or easy between us, but you – when you play the piano, you make me want to sing. And when you sing, you make me want to dance. You’re grumpy when one of your cows isn’t feeling well, and you show me how to not lose sight of what’s important. You make me feel like I’m important, like I’m worth listening to.” Glancing out the windshield to the lights spilling out of the house’s window, Carlos closes his eyes for a second. “And I – I want to listen to you.”
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
Seblos Corner, ready for a Winter fic in the middle of August?
It's finally finished!!!
The story of the (deleted scene) sledding date that totally happened after 203.
Mixed with and told by future married Seblos in the warmth and cozyness of the Matthew-Smith farm :)
I hope you enjoy it and let me know what you think!!! (also if you just wanna have a joined married seblos breakdown, I got you, I've had one since I started writing this and I won't finish any time soon!)
I guess the cheesiness warning still fits ;)
@youranxiousnerd @starklysteve I hope the hype was worth it ;)
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