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So I want to be a therapist and imagine someone telling me they have a fatass kink too. What do I do then. What do I do when literally anything about weight come up.

For context like i wanna comfort my friend about the fact that he's fat because it's beautiful but I've been watching too many people get fat on purpose on my phone and I have been gooning too much to it what do I do in this situation (he wants to lose weight for context)

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I rant about fat people again:

So why is it when I want to be fat, it's so wrong?

I know, I know, I feel like I'm weird for just being casual about wanting to be fat it's not like my only dream or anything. Idk why I've just always wanted to devour a bunch of food as a coping mechanism because I can't have a GOOD TRAUMA RESPONSE like what my friend has (he has friendly people in his head!). What i really want is that honestly. But instead I just want to be fat because sugar makes my pea brain happy. And it makes me more like him. Can you tell I'm weird about wanting to be Carlos.

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Reek looking elderly and having white hair after being abused by Ramsay. Ramsay literally stole his youth from him. This of course reminds me of my life, I was a teenager but i still acted immature and Edward just completely stole it from me. I still acted like a kid when he did that to me.

Ramsay stole his youth from him and that is such good writing.

Also him being named Reek also hits hard because when you're abused you don't like to be naked so you don't even shower.

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Having an air conditioner is so nice. I finally got it after the longest time. This air conditioner is a beast let me tell ya. My room is fucking freezing I need to get fatter to feel warm again. Now I can wear more than just a skirt with my bare ass hanging out to sleep. I always move around but whenever I wake up my ass is always on full display. Which sucks when you want to have a person at your house.

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Haha I have air conditioning and Carlos fatass doesn't.

"what did Carlos even do though?" Liking inc est and then be surprised when I say me trauma turned me mean when his trauma literally made him have multiple people in his head. Trauma affects people differently brochacho.

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You know how I said I wanted a healthy coping mechanism maybe I could eat a bunch of food and become a fatass myself ^^

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I used to fake having illnesses before and I am recovering from doing it. I mean I stopped because it just you know got too much effort but I did like the attention when I did. It made me feel smart and important.

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How vain do you have to be to screenshot your own post. Anyways I don't agree with my past self now.

Anyways I need a good healthy coping mechanism that isn't just faking a trauma response (like what I was about to do when I made the original post that I deleted) or something that will end up making myself worse.