#reflectsun

[andonthewhitemage]

And Here It Is...

Well... let's face it. I'm anxious and excited. Tomorrow, I leave for Florida. For a WHOLE WEEK.

I'll admit, I've been trying to prep and prep and get everything sorted out - but I still feel so underprepared, like I'm actually getting it all done the last minute... But, I think that I'll be okay. The whole point of vacation is NOT to stress over stuff, right? So... I gotta stop worrying.

I don't' think the reality has really hit that I AM leaving for a whole week. let alone that this week may determine my fate for the rest of the year... I think that's partially why it HASN'T hit me. I'm trying to stop myself from admitting that... I want to try to go into it with an open mind before I make my final decision - and if I start thinking that way, it's almost like I've already made up my mind. And I can't do that.

I started watching Heartstrings again. Almost done with the series - though looks like I'll have to finish it when I get back. Oh well. It's pretty good. I still think that Flower Boy Ramen Shop has been my favorite KDrama. And You Are Beautiful is still topping Heartstrings. I think I liked Jung Yong-hwa better as Shin Woo over Lee Shin. Shin Woo was just much more cute... maybe because he was the underdog? I dunno.

What else....

All that I have on my mind is how crazy next week is going to be. I'm just NOT mentally prepared for it. Haha. Everyone keeps asking me if I'm nervous to travel alone - but honestly, right now, I don't even feel like I really am even going... so I'm not nervous in the slightest. Maybe I will be once we start driving towards the airport?

I got my hair cut on Thursday at Paul Mitchell School. It was cool - the girl was nice. She seemed like one of the students who I thought was probably one of the more dedicated students, but maybe not the most popular or talented. Not saying that she didnt' do a good job or anything - she was just pretty quiet. Again, not a bad thing - just different from my norm. I was pretty excited though, I had told her that I was pretty open minded with my hair cut and color, I didn't normally have any big picture in my head of what I wanted - just to let her do her own thing (I was only getting a cut this time), so she just kinda trimmed it. Which, okay. Cool. But then we started talking color, and she said that she thought that I could pull of a ginger color - and that was before I had even mentioned that I liked that color. So, I got kinda excited. I know my mom will hate it... but I'm thinking I might try it when I get back - if I get some extra money. Maybe? What do you think?

I had a HELL of a time trying to find Flip Flops for my trip... I went to like seven different stores trying to find a nice, comfortable pair of colored flip flops... and had no luck. My problem is that I wanted a yellow or a blue (NOT navy) pair... and I couldn't find any good options. There were a couple pairs of cute ones in the women's section - and don't get me wrong, I have NO problem wearing women's shoes - but the padding they had were shaped and textured really awkwardly... so I didn't' like them. And then there was a pair of really comfortable shoes for the men's sizes... but they were boring and just solid black - and I wasn't going to spend the money for such a simple pair I wasn't happy with... My aunt did send me a link to check out when I get back home for flip flops with more support than the Old Navy pairs, and they are Men's and they come in a better array of colors than usual. So... I'm definitely gonig to check that out! I mean... if I move to Florida, I'm going to want to wear flip flops pretty much all the time~! ^_^

Oh... Aaron and Paul had their Final Night in Their Apartment Party on Friday night.... It was pretty fun - a lot of people I didn't know playing drinking games, that I wasn't playing because I was driving... - but, really bitter sweet. That was the last time that I'll see Aaron before his move to Chicago. I think he was glad that I stayed so late, even though I wasn't drinking along with the rest of everyone. But... It was still really hard to leave. We gave each other a big hug, and he reassured me that ANYTIME I wanted to go to Six Flags, I just had to give him notice - and he'd be willing to go... if I gave him a ride. Haha. He also told me to NEVER get a hotel in Chicago, because I always have a place to stay with him. I told him to keep me informed on his acting debuts, and even if I moved to Chicago, I wouldn't miss his first show. I don't think that I have any doubts... but I think that a part of me is scared that this is kind of the end. We have a big group outing to Six Flags planned in May, but I guess I've just seen how much friends can and do drift when they move on with their own lives and goals.... It's sad to think that this is happening and has already happened with the Center Family.... But, I guess such is life...

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And.... I just now realized that I am doing my ReflectSun post on SATURDAY... Which means, I did my Saturday Story Time post on Friday....... Oh wow. I'm slow. Hahaha. Sorry guys.... Looks like I'll be "Friday Night Gaming" tomorrow. Hahaha. Wow... I'm a ditz. Haha. Whoops!

And on that note.....

[andonthewhitemage]

Well, I seem to be having a hard time finding motivation and responsibility this week... This weekEND especially. I made a little check list of things I need to accomplish this weekend - and that has really helped. I've gotten 8 done and have 6 left to do...

What scares me, is that my trip to Florida is almost literally a week away and I still have stuff to plan for it... I'm not 100% sure what luggage I am using to pack in... I want something large-ish, because I'm going for a whole week and plan on buying souvenirs but at this current moment, I don't really have anything that will work for it. But, I'm also a bit scared because I have yet to actually purchase my Universal Studios passes or my rental car... which is probably going to deplete quite a bit of the funds I've been trying to save... And on top of that, I have to plan out my outfits! Modernized Cinderella boy version at Magic Kingdom; representing my house (Hufflepuff) for Harry Potter world; something professional-ish, yet still gaymer for my Full Sail tour... And I've still yet to do laundry so I can sort it all out. Oh, and since I plan on relying on my clear Converse for most of the trip, I wanted to get a couple pairs of awesomely colored or patterned socks to wear, since you'll actually be able to see them.... Still gotta do that. Oh, and then there's the whole, I need to get my unofficial transcript from my community college, write up any questions that I have right now in regards to Full Sail, jot down some apartment complexes to drive by while I'm down there and possibly some banks as well? Don't get me wrong, I'm super excited to be going - and I honestly can't wait to get down there for a WHOLE WEEK, but... I'm starting to feel the pressure that my procrastination is bringing upon me.... and I'm starting to get a little nervous I won't get it all done...

For the most part, I blame my lack of energy. It's not because I'm not getting enough sleep or because I'm over-exerting myself or anything. I just think that I've been pretty run down mentally lately. There's so much monotony in my life right now, that I just keep looking forward to my vacations and spend the rest of my days on autopilot. I know that this is NOT the right way to go about things... but everything seems so dull when Florida and France are in your rapidly approaching future. Maybe next week will kind of be my eye opener to get back on track to making the most of my time before my France trip x getting a bunch of stuff done before I go. Doubtful, but here's to hoping. If not, I'll just have to keep making check lists. They seem to work pretty well for me.

I've been thinking a lot about trying to consolidate a lot of my possessions. Just, getting rid of a lot of stuff that I don't want or need anymore... But, I find myself having a really hard time with that. I refuse to let myself become a hoarder... but I tend to find stupid reasons as to why to keep things... Maybe I'll have to 'invest' in some friend's time to help me sort the 'Wants,' 'Needs,' and 'Trash' piles of my stuff...

We had a cast reunion party for the Spring Awakening cast last night. About half of us were able to make it, watch the recording, and reminisce on our time spent one year ago. It's really hard to believe that it has actually been a year. I feel like there are certain cast members in the show that I really bonded with much more AFTERWARD, but others who I had grown to love through the show still have that same level of 'family status' to me. Our director talked about how this production has been his absolute favorite that he has done, and he's never been so moved by another production that he's put up... and as much as I wanted to smile and nod and agree... I couldn't. Don't get me wrong - I loved that cast, I liked the show, and I do think that we did a beautiful job with it... but I guess I just wasn't all that attached to it? Afterward, I was a bit misty-eyed about everyone leaving and our time together drawing to a close... but I was never upset that that would be the last time I would "jerk off" on stage or sing that song or do that scene... I never had that. I realize that Bare probably hit me on a much more personal level than it did for other people due to my orientation... but I honestly think that THAT is a show that I will never forget. Not that I will forget Spring Awakening... but even a year later, I can't remember all of the words to the songs, let alone the lines outside of the music that I had. Where as, I don't think I will ever be able to forget the role of Peter. I worked so hard on putting my all into that show, because it was such a special honor for me... I guess it just seems weird to me to think that other shows could surpass it to other people because of how high on the pedestal  it is for me. But, I mean... I guess to each his or her own, right?

Hmm... This is a really long ReflectSun post! Yay.

In other news... The weather has been awful considering it is 'Spring.' I'm looking out my bedroom window right now at the snow covered grass and the light flurries of the evil white stuff continuing to fall from the gloomy gray sky.... Bogus. I hate winter. Which... honestly, I feel is a HUGE part of my lack of motivation. Who wants to be productive on days that even Mother Nature seems to be telling you to shut up and go back to laying in your bed bundled in your covers? Go home, Mother Nature, you're drunk. It's almost April and you're snowing....

Anyway... I can't really think of much else to switch my topic to... so I think that I will just wrap up my Weekly Personal Blog right here. If you read all of my ranting... Thank you. Haha. I never know how much I'm actually going to write for these posts... but I feel like this one was a bit longer than anticipated. So... thanks for your interest, your patience, and your follow! =)

Laters!

[andonthewhitemage]

Well, I don't really know what to talk about. It feels like I have so much and yet so little on my mind. It's like a hazy fog of sorts...

On one side of the spectrum, I keep thinking about all the material things that I want. I've been dying to play Tomb Raider, and every commercial or review or picture I see about it just fills that "want" bar even more. I keep eyeing the Skylanders on the shelves at any store I go to. I've been really wanting to buy the newest Mass Effect 3 DLC, but don't have enough Xbox Microsoft Points; so I'm like, I should just buy a card. And while I'm at it, I should buy a PS3 points card so I can get the FFXIII-2 DLC so I can get the complete story when I finally play it. And oh yeah, my Xbox 360 Wireless Network Adapter thing has been acting up and I think finally crapped out on me... so I need a new one of those...

But then I remind myself: Adam! You don't need those things~! I'm going to Florida and to France soon - so all my money should be being applied to that~! Plane tickets are expensive, and sure we'll probably be cooking for meals at both places to save money but I do gotta eat while I'm there, and that's not even factoring in souvenirs as well! Yipes...

On the other side of the spectrum, I've been feeling pretty blah lately. Not really in the mood for too much socialization or fun adventures. Maybe I'm saving up all my energies for Florida and France subconsciously... Or maybe it's just because I'm so worried about not spending any money... Or maybe it's just because there really isn't much to be doing right now - everyone seems so busy and caught up with something in their life, myself included, that I just would rather everyone focus on what they need to so they don't' get stressed out? I don't know. I'm weird.

In other news - I finally watched A Very Potter Sequel. It was awesome. I miss Darren Criss's long curly locks though. Haha. Umbridge was hilarious, but not as awesome as Voldemort was in the original. Still, the dude is hot. Haha. And obviously totally okay with gayness, so that's even more fantastic. I watched the original and the Sequel last night, and the whole time I kept trying to "cast" the show with my friends from the Center. I didn't really figure out too many of them, because too many people would be good for the roles - but I decided that I would want to be Quirrel in AVPM and I didn't have a strong character pick for AVPS, so probably just a random Hufflepuff student. Haha. Otherwise, I think Ron would be an awesome role - I LOVE the song Granger Danger - though I don't think I could pull off the straightness. LoL. Oh well. I'm planning on watching Senior Year tonight. So I'll probably post my thoughts on that one later.

Well... I can't think of anything else really... So, I guess this will be all for today.

[andonthewhitemage]

Well, I created my new Daily Post pages! Yay~!

Here they are:

#ReflectSun Same concept as before. I'll kind of just reflect on my mood and my week and my life. Think of this as my personal little journal tag. ^_^

#MonGay Get it? It's like Monday, but has the word Gay in it? Yeah... I'm a dork. Anyway, this is my day devoted to hot guys, romantic gay-ness, and GLBT news. Everyone hates Mondays... so why not make them a little more gay? That'll definitely make them better for me? Haha. UPDATE (3.19.13) I had to change the #MonGay tag to #HOMOnday. For some reason the link on my blog wasn't working with the MonGay tag... so, I just swapped the name for something new and it worked. Sucks, but still effective and clever.

#ARTuesday Here's HOPING that this one works out. I'm kind of forcing myself to get back into old habits or explore old passions with this one - thus prepare for this tag to possibly change in the future... Tuesdays will be dedicated to my own artwork. I used to be really passionate about drawing or computer are, so why not show off some of my skill/creations? This is the place to do that.

#Workout Wednesday Moti-Mon (Motivational Monday) got moved over to Wednesday. Expect more pictures of hot guys (What? Guys with nice bodies are definitely motivating...), workout routines, healthy cooking, and journal-ish log posts of my progress or lack there of... Here's hoping Workout Wednesday will keep my talking about the exercises I've done the beginning of the week, and/or keep my motivated through the end of it!

#ThursDIY This was a good theme. I'm a big fan of DIY stuff, even if I never do them... I like the idea of creating things from something else or getting a better bang for your buck or just sitting down and doing something artsy. So, I'm going to keep this theme. Because it interests me.

#Friday Night Gaming Feedback Friday was a bust. While I'm starting to get questions from my followers recently (KEEP THEM COMING! ♥) - I figured with the addition to a couple new themes, I'm going to reschedule my "Techie Tuesday" to Fridays. I do most of my gaming over the weekend, when I don't have other things scheduled - so Friday Night Gaming seems to make sense. I'll be posting updates of my gaming progress, reviews of games I've played, or my excited ramblings on upcoming games.

#Saturday Story Time I can't get rid of this. I need this category. While I think I may take a break from Elementalists, I'm not going to give up on Saturday Story Time. I have given myself permission to change the rules a bit with this weekly blog, and let it be focused to anything relevant to writing. Whether it be articles for creating good characters, writing prompts, awesome quotes, random ramblings about a scene or a book, or an actual entry to my Chapter-esque storyling... I'm keeping the Saturday Story Time title. Simple as that.

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And that's my week. I hope you all look forward to actually being able to read all of my posts, now that you dont' have to follow seven different blogs ... I can't believe that I thought that was a good idea at one point...

[andonthewhitemage]

DAILY BLOGGING RESTRUCTURE

So... I learned today how to do 'pages' instead of actually completely separate blogs, so I think I'm going to start doing this instead... It seems a lot easier and guarantees that I'll start tagging EVERY post...

However - I'm far to lazy to reblog EVERY blog I ever made on any of those blogs to this one... so I'm providing you with links to the old ones - in case you want to backtrack and read them all.

So... Here they are!

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ReflectSunday -- http://andonthewhitemage-reflecsn.tumblr.com/

Motivational Monday -- http://andonthewhtiemage-motimon.tumblr.com/

Techie Tuesday -- http://andonthewhitemage-techtues.tumblr.com/

Wedne5day -- http://andonthewhitemage-techtues.tumblr.com/

ThursDIY -- http://andonthewhitemage-techtues.tumblr.com/

Feedback Friday -- http://andonthewhitemage-techtues.tumblr.com/

Saturday Story Time -- http://andonthewhitemage-techtues.tumblr.com/

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I'm updating the Daily Themes to replace the ones above... to things that will be easier for me to do. And more likely to reblog. I'll update on that in a little while.

[andonthewhitemage-reflecsn]

This week has been interesting, indeed!

Work related -- I've been doing really well. I had my first 'alone' shift doing Adjustments on Friday. It worked out great. My coworker (who's been training me about the position) was there Monday - Wednesday, and I found out on Tuesday that she wouldn't be there on Thursday or Friday. So.. She had me basically do the job by myself the whole week - and only helped on the odd exceptions or weird stuff. On Thursday, she was gone, but my boss (who also knows this job) was there to answer some questions that I had - though I tried to keep them to a minimum. I think I did pretty well! Finally, come Friday, both of them were gone! I panicked a little - and was freaking out and stressing out at the beginning of the day - but as I started thinking and working my way through things slowly - I was able to catch up, finish what I NEEDED to, and only had a couple 'wait til Mondays' to put aside! Here's to hoping that I did everything correctly!!! For this upcoming week... I have to work the early morning shift three days - Tuesday, Thrusday, and Friday. 7:30am. Yikes! I'm a little nervous because I haven't had a chance to do this job for a while -- but that's why I'm working it on Tuesday, so I can relearn it for Thursday and Friday when I'll be doing it by myself! The job is pretty repetitive, it's just remembering all the steps.... but I took GREAT notes, so I think I'll be fine. ^_^

In other news - I finally went up to visit Jodee x Nathan again. Shawn went to Anime Iowa with some friends, and I didn't really want to go. Money issues, uncomfortableness sleeping with like 12 people in the same room, no costume, etc. -- So instead, I went up to Cedar Rapids and spent the day at a party that Jodee x Nathan were having. I met a lot of their work friends, their new puppy, and ultimately, had a really awesome time. On a side note: I drank a whole bottle of wine, had like seven shots (pineapple upside down cakes, sex on the beaches, rum chata, and some other stuff? Nothin. I was a little dizzy for a little while - but I remember the night clearly, I didn't puke, and I don't feel like I was any more "open" or "crazy" than I normally am. So... I'm still thinking my unexplainable tolerance is there....

Hmm... I'm not really sure what else. I feel like I need a longer break than just the weekend. I don't know if it's just personal stress, lack of sleep, the longer hours at work, or what... but I'm just SOOO worn out right now... Maybe it's just the active weekend that I've had. But... who knows.

So... I think that's about it for this week's post. I don't have any MAJOR plans for this next week, yet. Like I said above, this past week was a bit stressful for me... so I think I'll just try to lay low and chill, hopefully.... But we'll see how that works out.

Yup.

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Until next Sunday! ♥