thinking about in episode 6 when ilya says ‘i’ve always wondered what it would be like to be metro’ because he’s thought about him playing with shane before and wanted to imagine a world in which they could be together for real and without struggle. also one thing we know about ilya is that his adverbs are VERY purposeful (cite: ‘i do not EVER want that problem to EVER go away’) so we know he genuinely means 💔💔💔💔












