#relationshipend

[virgotales]

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[howtonetwork]

Tension will Snap a Rubber Band or a Relationship

How to Network?Do you or others come on so strong at times?Are you Wanting to know how to meet someone for the first time?Do you wish Networking was not so s...

[fortunehealthcarestoreonline]

Know When It’s Time To Walk Away

In case, the conversation is about getting nowhere, it is okay for moving on. At some point in time, some people might just have to back off. You are not going to change everyone’s mind.....

[ashwank-blog-blog]

The first of many bad days

Well, I got signed off sick for 2 weeks and my work mostly seem to understand. I think they’re understanding that I’ve been depressed for a long time, years in fact, and it’s not just the breakup that makes this a shitty time.  I still feel like shit, and I know this is going to be a reoccurring thing I type for a long time. I think I’m putting hope into everyone saying ‘time is a healer’ and I may also be trying to rush the process of getting over her. I can’t really rush it with all the things to think about like; - where I’m going to live - what I’m going to do with my time - how do I stop thinking about her - will I be able to work okay - is not having friends not a bad thing - what will I get from the flat, money wise and stuff  - will it be fair, will she hate me and how do I feel about that And everyone given me answers to these questions...  I’ll live with my dad for a bit and then find my own place, if I get enough from moving out I might be able to mortgage - it will be difficult but I think it’s what I need. I want a mortgage because I don’t want the looming “you’re not here permanently” contract bullshit over my head, I want to get a cat and the place to be mine. I just have to be sure I can afford it. I’m pretty sure I can, there’s some cheap flats out there, I just have to be 100% sure I don’t fuck up and have to move out. All the ‘hidden’ costs like maintenance and ground rent I sort of forgot.  My uncle said finding things to do with my time will come naturally, I want to get into the gym and exercise but I also enjoy spending time on the pc so it’s a mix.  Thinking about her is er.. Well, again, people have just said it comes with time. I’m at the worst part right now, I’m still living in the flat. I know she wants me out and I know all the things she wants to do. I think not listing them and forcing myself to not think about them will make this ‘easier’ I will be able to work okay eventually. I think now I’m on anti-depressants work and being a human being will be easier and in a way I’m hoping all aspects of how I feel get easier. I have internet friends. Quite a lot of them from the communities I’m part of so it’s nice and I guess there’s probably 1 or 2 friends I could meet up with but like I said to my dad, I don’t think I’d want to go out and make friends in the state I’m in now. Not that I feel like I’d be out making friends anyway, I think even with everything going on I’m probably just a solitary person. The flat stuff is a mess, an absolute mess. I want as much as I can get fairly, as anyone would. If I can get as much as I think I can without being an asshole, maybe an unfurnished flat isn’t so bad? The issues are basically whether she can afford to take over my half of the mortgage with her promotion. I really hope she can, but then where does the money to buy me out come from? It could come from other family members, as bad and ‘hurting my pride’ as that would be, it would work. I just know that the best thing at this point is to get out as soon as I can, it’s difficult to heal when I see everything around me that reminds me of the us that we aren’t any more. I don’t think we’ll hate each other, but I think things will get difficult and we’ll probably see a different side of each other. I don’t like what she’s doing, what she wants and why she wants it but then that’s to be expected... I am going to be a bit of a dick with the money side of things, as much as I will try very hard not to... I just want a life after this. I feel like although she had the deposit and put more in, spend the inheritance on stuff around the flat... She couldn’t do that in this flat without my salary either, I’m not gonna ask for stuff she’s bought but I need a life too at the end of this too. She gets the flat, she gets to be happy and she essentially gets what she wants. I don’t want any of this, as much as I see why it has to be done, so yeah... My main aim is to have a life after this. I do feel like the anti-depressants will help. I’ve been signed off work for 2 weeks for them to kick in and to sort as much as I can with the limit knowledge for the future we have.  I was gonna type more but too many other things distracting me, life is shit but I’ve not quite given up. I’ve gotten help and I’m clinging by a thread.  Hell, I’ll even and tags to this bullshit.

[aiwin-blog]

When you prepare something on that moment he never came #birthdaypresent #relationshipend the objective is good but the process was bad #relationshipend #pabebe #fufu

[mad-cat-felix-blog]

Have you ever held onto something so tightly, that you ended up crushing it instead?