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Doing trauma work feels like you've lost decades of personal growth, because your feelings are back up at the surface after you pushed them down for so long. It's hard not to feel like you've failed at mental health.
My emotions tell me I'm a failure, and my brain is tired of contradicting. My negative self talk is volunteering to take over. I feel so tired.
Anyone going through this deserves your patience and support. And on a side note...
Leave Bucky Barnes alone.
One of a group of six brochures from Argonne National Laboratory describing experimental facilities located at the National Reactor Testing Station (also known as Idaho National Engineering Laboratory, and by other names) near Arco, Idaho. We can tell that these brochures are from the early 1990s, because of the emphasis on the Integral Fast Reactor program. IFR was an advanced design of fast-neutron breeder reactor which promised better economics and a shorter “doubling time” (the amount of time required for a breeder to produce the fuel charge necessary to start up another breeder of the same type) than designs such as the French Superphenix.
You can see the whole group here.
Sad to say, one reason some people doubt warnings about climate change is that Al Gore proudly stood up in the United States Senate to announce that the Clinton Administration was terminating the IFR program. It can be hard to accept that decarbonization is necessary, when that message is coming from such a visible opponent of the most effective means of decarbonization!
On a largely unrelated note, I’ve gone back and tagged a number of posts with “my scans” so that they are easier to find.
19
10 years ago..
In my darkest state
on my darkest day
I got back up
I walked 450 metres.
That 450 metres seems so insigficant right?
Wrong.
Even when I had nothing left to fight for
Even when I could not go 'home'
Even when noone was fighting for me.
Even when I had no 'family'
19 year old me was never the villain
She is the hero.
Her legacy is fighting back.
She lay stagnant for these ten years
Processing terror and blood traumas
So the rest of us could see tomorrow.
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I finished, as in fully completed and reprocessed, my first EMDR memory. I’m really proud, and really thrilled that it works insanely well.
In my sessions I’ve discovered the stark contrast and the existence of three parts of myself. The baby-me only arises when my inner child is troubled and she is easily appeased. My teenage self... she has never quite gone back to her time zone yet. She’s acting out in ways she was too sickly and suppressed to before.
At the moment, a closure-less, deep friendship remains completely confusing and probably lost, and she is pissed. Because she never was able to be before. It’s crazy to feel this. My current self is calm, and does not want the dynamic back because of who that dear one became. But my younger self is kicking and screaming to be acknowledged. So this is the next thing we must come to terms with.
Safest site should be chosen regardless of location, committee says – but opponents call idea ‘outrageous’
This whole controversy is baffling. Indeed, some of the opinions expressed are beyond baffling, and could be suspected of being parody if the people expressing them didn’t show their sincerity by their actions.
Let’s be clear.
The principal purpose of the deep burial of high-level nuclear wastes is to isolate them from human activity for the period of a few hundred years, over which they will cease to pose a significant contact hazard, so that continuous surveillance is not required.
It is very difficult to envision a scenario in which deep burial of high-level nuclear wastes poses any hazard to human health or the environment.
The first criterion for selecting a deep burial site is that the formation have no economic value, so that people will not be inclined to dig or drill there.
The second criteiron is that the movement of groundwater is slow & predictable, so that there is not the least chance of material being carried unexpectedly to the surface.
The HARVEST system developed in Britain for immobilizing fission products in glass, similar to other such systems developed around the world, was available for use in the late 1970s. Any claims that “the waste problem is unsolved” are, unsurprisingly, false.
There is no reason at all for a deep burial site to have significant effects on the surface. The spoil rock from the digging operation is likely to be granite, basalt, or something similar, which can be carried away & sold for railway ballast or other construction purposes.
No other industry is required to take dealing with its by-products anything like this seriously.
I think the pain of being so desperate to feel loved and cared for that you'll accept any scrap of affection is greatly undervalued.
Because what is being abused?
When I was a young adult I had no idea what it was to be really loved. Family had no interest in me at all, I'd already had male friends grope me, I accepted sex as the cost of having a boyfriend.
You just wanted anyone to make you feel like you had value because if your own family doesn't want you who does???
Everything hurts. What's another hurt, another blow, another humiliation. At least you aren't alone right??
Of course I found someone who wanted someone to abuse, control, manipulate.
It's wild how life changes, healing, growth can alter your view of yourself and your trauma.
SOP For Handling of Reprocessing, Reworking and Recovery
SOP For Handling of Reprocessing, Reworking and Recovery
OBJECTIVE: The purpose of this SOP is to lay down a procedure for reprocessing, reworking and recovery of the drug products. SCOPE: This SOP is applicable for handling of reprocessing, reworking and recovery of the drug products, at different stages of manufacturing, at the manufacturing facility. RESPONSIBILITY: Authorized Designee of Quality Assurance shall be is responsible to…
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Is nuclear energy sustainable?
The way it is practiced today, no. Although its environmental impacts are small compared to other energy supply options, the constant need for uranium-235 means that newly-mined uranium must be supplied at a relatively modest price. World production capacity and mineral resources simply will not suffice to substitute for more than a modest part of the energy now supplied by fossil fuels. Hence the extension of fission energy in its present form is not a feasible path for a world energy transition.
Is this a problem?
Consider : the very first generation of power was from Experimental Breeder Reactor Number One. The large-scale development of industrial nuclear energy only began once it had been shown that a regenerative fuel cycle was possible. In such a cycle, plutonium and ²³³U take the place of ²³⁵U in supporting the chain reaction, and the whole energy of natural uranium and thorium can be used.
As a result, not only is the energy value of uranium already mined increased a hundredfold, but the quantity of fuel required to supply the total needs of civilization is so small that it can reasonably be supported from high cost sources such as seawater.
The scientists, engineers, and technologists who developed fission energy as we know it today recognized that it was, in essence, an intermediate step. From the very beginning, they devoted considerable effort to the ultimate goal of sustainable energy. The “Integral Fast Reactor” represents one of the most promising results of this effort. It shows that the nuclear path is one we can take with confidence.
