ohh my god ok so you're my favourite hilson writer ever, and I know you have one named after a lyric from born to beg by the national, my favourite band in existence. This Is The Last Time is another national song that's on my hilson playlist, and it's always inspired me. I'm obsessed with their guarded, stolen night time moments in their apartments or places away from the world where both of them feel exceedingly guilty about their situation but unable to let it go. especially the "don't tell anyone I'm here, I've got tylenol and beer" line and the "jenny I am in trouble, I can't get these thoughts out of me / jenny I'm seeing double, I know this changes everything". house high out of his mind and sick with desire and wilson hating house's guts and wanting nothing but him and to fix him and love him at the same time. the way they only work for each other because they're both so toxic and codependent in exactly the right ways. neither allowing themselves to talk about it. ok i've yapped enough I'm requesting hilson porn with feelings inspired by this is the last time i hope you have a wonderful day
ouhhhh I love it!! The National is THE hilson band imo. I'm actually fucking ill over it constantly, Sleep Well Beast is the go to album for me but Laugh Track is my second (bc bon iver and Phoebe bridges). I really need to listen through Trouble Will Find Me in full, bc the song you mentioned is an excellent hilson pull. think I've only heard select tracks from it and think a listen through will spark my inspiration even further.
grrrr the wilsonian duality of resentment and love. idk if he knows how to love without it. he makes me insane. I'm jokerizing.
ok. I'm normal. this 1 is 100% accepted, will update again once I've marinated a bit and a draft is begun :) thank you so much, and thanks for loving my other stuff too, you're so sweet!! 💕













