Too many ... too much...too ::sigh::
Things honestly aren't going the way I hoped that they would.
I mean it's not like i'm complaining but I'm so tired of just being stuck.
I have so many "doors" slightly opened for me and so hard for me to actually open them. Wow that was a super weird metaphor...but whatever.
I'm so over my job. I like responsibility i do but the little things make me just want to quit! I honestly could care less about being a manger there IF IT EVER HAPPENS!
I want to be able to dress up everyday. I want to work in a nice clean office where I don't have to get on my hands and knees and wear a disgusting blue shirt and get forced to say stupid things that customers could care less about.
Yeah I know it's paying the bills but is that really worth being unhappy?
There are so many beauty jobs out there that I know I would be able to do.
I hate feeling like i'm in a standstill. I feel like I need someone to tell me where to go. I want to do all these things but NOTHING is geting done and thats when i get depressed and just blah.
Things i want to buy too! Stuff for my makeup room, my camera for my youtube videos, just things...but whatever that's not the point of this post.
I wish I didn't hold back.
I wish I was more forcefull.
If I want something I should get it.
If I don't like something I should change it.
Isn't that the point of living?