#rhythmic ramblings

[rhythmicsystem]

When I was in like, middle school, and was really depressed, I would always joke to myself "well at least I have 3 friends: Me, myself, and I"

That joke proved to be a lot more literal than I had originally ever thought

- ☀️🌑 Eclipse

[rhythmicsystem]

Any time I play a game or watch a playthrough of a game where the main character has a side character that is in their head for some reason (Subnautica below zero, AI: The somnium files, others I can't remember off the top of my head)

My first thought is always "ah, this person is plural now. This is now a plural game. B)" /silly

[rhythmicsystem]

One of the most infuriating things is being told to "get a job" by someone who uses something you create and offer for free (in our case, open source software)

Like. What the heck man.

Even if my reasons for not having a job were not related to my being disabled, that's just really disrespectful in general. Especially if you're using the resources I've spent my time and energy to make.

-🌑☀️ Eclipse

[rhythmicsystem]

I swear that CAPTCHAs just filter out autistics. choose all the images with cars

me: *well there's a wheel, maybe that's a car, or there's a parking lot, there's probably cars there, is a truck a car? Is a bus a car? How much of the image needs to be a car? Are you talking the whole square needs to be full of car? is the antenna still part of the car???

[rhythmicsystem]

What it feels like trying to get help for disabilities (in my experience)

Please note: This is based on my own personal experience with my physical disabilities, and with my car, lol. This is not meant to cover everyone's experience

tl;dr My experience trying to get help for my physical disabilities has been like trying to get your brakes fixed for your car, but somehow, nobody believes they're broken until it's too late.

Imagine you drive a car every day. One day you notice your brakes are not working as they should, basically you need to hit the brakes multiple times before they work - also known as pumping the brakes. Maybe this is a new experience, maybe you drove someone else's car and noticed they didn't need to do this. But for whatever reason you notice that your brakes are not working as they should.

You take your car to the mechanic and you tell them the situation. Instead of taking your car into the shop and checking it out, instead they ask some very weird questions that aren't related at all to the brakes: "What type of oil do you use?" "Do you buy the expensive gas or the cheap gas?" "What type of windshield washer fluid do you use?" "How full are your tires?"

You answer them anyways because, you aren't a mechanic so maybe those questions are related in some way you don't know. But after answering they basically tell you that you're doing all those things wrong, and don't even look at your car.

You are majorly frustrated but you try those things anyways. They don't help, as expected. You return to the mechanic and explain that changing those things did not help the brakes. You expect they will finally look this time. But they don't. Instead they say: "Well how did you drive here if your brakes don't work"?

You're angry at this point, they're clearly being unreasonable. You demand they look at your car because that's the entire reason you're here. They look at the car for a few seconds, and tell you there's nothing wrong and you should stop worrying.

You're extremely mad at this point, and your brakes are getting less trustworthy. You go to a different mechanic. They do the same thing. You finally find a mechanic who will look at the car, but they also say they don't see anything wrong with the brakes.

You've spent hundreds to thousands of dollars on mechanics at this point. You're absolutely sick of this. You start using your hand brake as it's the only reliable brake in your car, but you also know this is dangerous.

Eventually you get into a situation where the brakes fail completely, and you can't reach the handbrake fast enough. You swerve off the road into a ditch. Nobody is hurt but the car is totaled. The insurance asks why you didn't get the brakes fixed. And you scream at them.

[rhythmicsystem]

I realize this is being said a lot currently because of disability pride month, but I'm gonna say it anyways lol

The way you care for yourselves is unique to you

You are the only ones who experience life in your body. You are the only ones who have tried different ways of handling situations, and have seen what hasn't worked. You are the only ones who experience the exhaustion that can come with certain activities, and have found alternatives that help.

And you're the only ones who know which self-care activities are the most important for your own self-regulation, and which have lesser impact on your own life.

Your experiences are your own, and your way of caring for yourself is your own.

Be safe, care for yourselves in the way that works best for you, be respectful of others doing the same.

Love you all

- 🌂 Rain

[rhythmicsystem]

So I've been using functional gear over form (aside from the silly hat because I think that's funny) for my characters But I keep seeing Gale in cutscenes wearing the gear I've put on him and I am laughing so hard at this help

[rhythmicsystem]

I find it really funny that our fictives are always the ones who handle our most intense irl stresses: doctors appointments, dental visits, dealing with the state for food stamps and cash assistance

Like

We pulled them from their exciting lives

To deal with this stuff

- 🌊 Tide