I'm being forced to take a "mind and body wellness" class, it's required, and isn't that just a little bit ridiculous? It's contradictory to the point of feeling insensitive. It's almost an oxymoron, considering how distinctly unwell I am physically. it's a little insensitive, considering what they teach is mostly yoga and "don't do drugs, don't self harm, and don't starve yourself" and what the hell is that gonna do for me? Yoga will injure me, I don't do drugs, I don't have an eating disorder, and I don't self harm more than 5 times a year. I don't see how yoga and lectures about the dangers of starvation could possibly make me more well. I can probably put it off for a year or two, and by then I can obtain a medical exemption from the exercise part, but goddammit, I don't want to deal with more people pestering me about whether or not I think it could be anxiety making my joints slip out of their sockets. No, ma'am, I don't think anxiety is the cause of my crippling nerve pain. I don't think it's the cause of my joint instability either. No, I don't think anxiety causes my heart rate to triple specifically only when I raise my arms above my head, regardless of my emotional state. I highly doubt anxiety is the cause of my refusal to do squats, given that I know from experience they will more likely than not injure my hips, knees, and ankles, and then the rest of my joints when I have to hold myself differently because of that. And my mind is perfectly fine, not much you can do for my mental health, since I'm significantly more stable than could reasonably be expected of me.
And then there's the really annoying question. "You can't, or you won't?" Well, I can't do that without being injured and/or unable to move properly if at all for 2 hours and/or being in extreme pain for up to 3 days and/or falling down/passing out, and so I won't. Or I just literally can't move my body that way. Yes, I can walk, that doesn't mean I can play twister. Walking doesn't indicate any ability aside from walking.
