Woke from a nightmare n decided to check Tumblr before passing out again. I saw you mentioned wanting more Eclipse Asks 👀
Please please please tell us more about the boy :0 I would love to know more about that tall fidgeting mess of a man!
Okie now I go pass out again, cyaaaa o/ 💤
@naffeclipse
I have been enabled.
Eclipse, in short, is a mess. He copes well enough, but his insecurities have been there from the beginning - they were predestined, with how he came to be.
Sun and Moon used to have a shared mode, before they decided it would be better for their sanity to just let the other do his thing and remain in rest mode. It was a blend of their AIs, making verbal communication unnecessary. Immediate understanding and combined planning skills, it did help them out of a few pickles (though they didn't get into too many, before this job).
And technically, they can still enter that mode.
They don't, because continued use of that "Eclipse" mode, with that blend of AIs where not even their system could differentiate where one ends and one begins, caused their AI to split into three one time.
Eclipse came into existence, trapped within a mind that wasn't his own, a miracle in a way, but received with shock and hostility. Neither of them expected him, least of all he himself!
That's why he's so curious, with that insatiable thirst for knowledge. If he's possible, what else might be? What else might be out there, ready to be found? Ready to be created?
But of course, there's the insecurity. The terrible need to compete with his brothers to prove himself vs the endless fear of falling short compared to them, again and again. He got them their job but what they do he'll never be good at, he's the taller one with more limbs but his battery is spotty at best, barely keeping him together well enough. They didn't want him in their head, and he didn't want to be in their head, and they got him a rush-job of a body (that I'll get to, too). They're all happy with the separation, but none of them were happy with the need for one.
Even if everyone wants him to have his own body, it's hard not to feel rejected, hard not to feel unwanted. The lingering tension remains even after the separation, and only exacerbates the problem. They don't want him, even when he's his own person. They pushed him out, because he'll never be good enough for them. They're all he has, and he is so so scared of them never accepting him. Maybe they just tolerate him, because they feel responsible - but would they choose him, if they ever had the option? Between his existence and non-existence, which one would they opt for? He's scared to ask.
It's tense, this relationship with his brothers. He pretends to be unaffected, like any younger sibling may pretend the approval of their older, cooler siblings may not matter. But he craves it so much. He wants to be wanted, wants to be accepted, wants to be loved - who doesn't?
Sun and Moon don't hate him. They're not quite sure, at first, but he is their little (annoying) brother. They care for him, want him to be safe, and when push comes to shove, they'd help him out no question. "No you can't wear my shirt but I'll help you hide a body" sibling dynamic.
There's also some guilt, at first - he wasn't meant to exist, and his AI was a strange mix of theirs and his few own experiences. Faulty, some might say, not fully developed. But he's doing fine these days, if a little clueless about social cues and a bit too happy to set things on fire, so the guilt really disappeared. It's better for Eclipse, too - he really hated being pitied for existing.
It gets a bit better when they live apart, because they don't serve as constant reminders for each other. Eclipse still has his brothers with him - the necklace I drew him with was not a coincidence, even if he claims that "a combined Sun and Moon pendant just means Eclipse. It's a me necklace".
Still makes sure they're okay, developing gloves for them that give them that extra grip during parkour, and making sure all his little gadgets make it to them. (And if they get some confidential blueprints in the mail for their own little workshop, well, he always was loose-lipped for someone without lips) (He needs them to be okay. This is how he can make sure - and if they build his designs, well, that's approval, too, right?)
Sun and Moon also are still there for him. They play up the annoyance sometimes, but they do care for him.
Especially considering that well, his "health" issues are kind of their fault. The body was a rush job - he has "narcolepsy", or rather the animatronic equivalent. The lower his battery goes, the higher the chance that his system will recognize it as dangerously low, and push him into rest mode. He always makes sure to be fully charged for work, because even if the rest mode spells only take a few moments to a minute, it's risky in a lab environment to randomly pass out.
He's saving for a replacement - but it's slow going, with all the other repairs he necessitates and with all the fun things to buy in the world. He's just a bit of a hoarder, attracted by colorful and shiny things, and of course, anything he can fidget with.
Him and Y/N... They're good, really! But despite all the cues he misses, it's glaringly obvious that his brothers are very interested, so he just isn't. Not romantically, at least. He's not interested in fighting that battle, only losing to his brothers who live and work with them, so rather inserts himself into a unique role that his brothers don't already fill. But they like him, they accept him, and at times even seek him out - first about inventions and gadgets, then about funny stories (dirt) about Sun and Moon, and then just to chat sometimes. It reassures him that even with them in the picture, he's not out of it, partly due to their own efforts to include him
They're all four a family, with time. Having Y/N in the mix lightens the mood, and keeps them all from constantly thinking about all what was, and instead enjoy the moment, or even plan for the future.
With Moon being the only one who doesn't lie about scars, any family reunions are hell for him while he's out - because Eclipse and Y/N are just inventing crazier and crazier stories, that somehow are totally unrelated to the real cause of the scars they sport, "For the bit, Moon, it's for the bit" "He wouldn't get it, don't try" "Can't appreciate a good story. He's still mad I got creative before". By then it's not even like they try to convince anyone, they just think of it like a creative exercise!
Sun and Moon may act a little annoyed that Eclipse and Y/N get along so well, but they realize quickly that their brother isn't interested in their little rival like that, and then it's just... A relief. The two people in their life they can't imagine living without get along, why would they complain? They may enable each other, and someone should keep an eye on where the fire extinguisher is, but they're glad things are looking up for their little family, at last
ribbons-halos replied to your post “La Oscuridad Te Espera” (Chapter 6) - Sombra/McCree”
Oh I love how McCree is so soft and caring with Sombra in this part. Of course he’s a little freaked out and definitely feeling a little protective over her, and it shows. Sombra’s a tough girl but she’s finally seeing she doesn’t have to fight alone! Ahhh, I can’t wait to see more of Hanzo and Genji figuring their mess out and maybe even more mentions of his angel. Loved it!
ahhhh so glad you read and enjoyed it, thank you!!! <333
Yeah, the previous chapter was really intense for both of them, so now that they’re both coming down from that, neither is reacting as confidently as they’d like. I think after everything that happened, it’s hard for Sombra to keep up her tough shell, especially when she’s just seen McCree look all the crazy demon shit in the face right alongside her.
Hanzo and Genji are so... complicated, lol. I thought I’d dig into that a bit more in this chapter but it became more about giving Jesse and Sombra that space. and Mercy has been hovering in the background of this whole thing the entire time, so I’m excited for the next chapter!!!!!
Your art style is so soft and lovely and my heart dies every time I see gency from you, doll face!
wah thank you so much! omg I love your writing, it’s so fluffy and warms my heart. I could spend hours reading your gency fic tag. thanks again love <3
Heya, babe! 4 & 19 & 25 (if you haven't already answered these yet) for the artist ask meme? ♥
Hiya Naff!! <3
4. Technically I draw everyday for work. For myself? Not as much as I wish I did, partially from being tired from working and staring at the screens so much already. But when an idea comes along and really grabs me? Every day, as much as I can, my sleep schedule be damned.
19. I like drawing longer hair more! I get a little critical of my sketches when I draw really short hair and often worry that it looks like lego hair or a helmet.
25. I only have the one room in my apartment so to get real specific, I normally draw at a dining table I use as a computer desk near the kitchen and adjacent to my bed.
ribbons-halos replied to your post “La Oscuridad Te Espera” (Chapter 5) - Sombra/McCree”
Ahhh, I’m in love with this fic! Everything about it, to the Sombra and Genji brotp and to McCree being so soft and honest with Sombra is amazing. I love love love that Sombra told McCree her real name, and how his touch and calling out to her is what gave her the strength to defeat the demon. Lovely writing! I anticipate the next chapter with barely contained patience and eagerness.
EEEEEEEEEEE this makes me so happy. Thank you so much, I’m hoping to finish it soon <3<3<3
They keep coming back to this inherent magic that a true name has, and of course that’s a ~big deal~ in the McSombra ship. Having that be the thing that strengthens/saves everyone was a natural fit! :)
I just love writing the two of them being soft with each other when they’re such badasses otherwise. And I LOVE GENJI SHIMADA. I’m glad this has ended up being longer than I planned, so that I can keep writing him lol :3
