PICK A CARD: some personal words that serve as reminders
Hello and welcome to this new post. This time I have prepared a reading for you all with some encouragement to keep on going. I hope this is going to be useful and helpful for some people out there!
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Pile 1
You are definitely going to get there. Whatever that goal is that you keep thinking about, whatever that thing is that sometimes keeps you awake because you want it so badly. You are not someone who is dreaming about impossible things. You are someone who is slowly making their way towards it, even if it does not always feel like that. I think lately you have been looking too much at how much further you still have to go rather than how much you already crossed. And that makes everything feel impossible when really, it is not. I really need you to realise something. If the version of you from maybe five years ago could see you now they would definitely think you are the coolest person ever. They would probably think you figured everything out. They would look at the things you can do now as something impossible because back then they simply could not imagine themselves reaching this point. You have so much more knowledge now. You know how people work better. You know yourself better. You recovered from things you thought would always stay with you. You learned lessons you only could've learned by actually living through them. That is something nobody can take away from you anymore. I also feel like sometimes you still look at yourself through the eyes of your younger self. As if you are still that person with no options, no freedom, no experience. But you are not anymore. There are so many more doors open to you now than there ever were before. Maybe you do not notice them because they slowly appeared over the years instead of all at once. But they are definitely there. You can make decisions now that younger you simply could not make. You have more control over your own future than you realise. Sometimes you still doubt yourself because you remember making mistakes. But everyone makes mistakes. The difference is that now you actually learned from them. I do not think you realise how much your thinking has changed over the years. Situations that would've completely destroyed you years ago are now things you can actually deal with. Maybe not perfectly, but definitely much better than before. That says enough already.
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Pile 2
I think one of the biggest messages here is definitely that you are trying way too hard. Not because you are lazy, or because you are not doing enough. It is actually the complete opposite. You are doing absolutely everything you can and then you still go to sleep thinking you should have done more. You have this idea in your head that if you are not constantly improving, constantly achieving, then you are somehow falling behind. But you are not. You are definitely not behind anyone. You are comparing your whole life to little moments you see from other people, and then you expect yourself to somehow catch up with every single person at once. That is simply impossible. You expect yourself to achieve absolutely everything. It is almost like you believe your life only has value if you become exceptional at everything you touch. You want the Nobel prize, the Grammy, the perfect career, the perfect relationships, the perfect hobbies, the perfect body, the perfect mental health. It is just too much. You have put the bar so high that even if you achieve something amazing you barely allow yourself to celebrate it because you are already thinking about the next thing. Nothing ever feels enough because your expectations keep moving further away. The thing is, I do not think you realise this. If you genuinely could have done more, you would have already done it. You are not someone who avoids responsibility. You are not someone who just sits around all day wondering why life is not changing. You genuinely try. Probably more than most people around you. So whenever you tell yourself you should just work harder, I honestly think that is one of the least helpful things you can tell yourself. You have already reached the point where working harder is no longer helping you. I also really feel like if you continue doing things this way you are heading straight towards burnout. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next month, but eventually. You cannot keep expecting yourself to perform at one hundred and fifty percent every single day. No one can. The funny thing is that by trying to achieve everything as quickly as possible, you are actually slowing yourself down. Because eventually your body will force you to rest whether you like it or not. Giving yourself breaks now actually lets you achieve more in the long run.
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Pile 3
One thing you definitely need to hear right now is that your life is not a photo, it is a movie. And I think right now you are looking at one frame of that movie and deciding that this one frame is somehow the entire story. It is as if you paused everything on one bad moment and convinced yourself this is how everything is always going to be. But that is just not how life works. Movies are not remembered because one scene was bad, they are remembered because you watched the entire thing and saw where everything eventually ended up. If someone only watched the first thirty minutes of a movie they would probably think everything is terrible. The main character loses people, things do not work out, they make mistakes, they cry, they fail. Frankly, if movies ended halfway through nobody would even like them because they would all just be sad. But they do not end there. They keep going. And your life is exactly the same. Right now might definitely not be the best chapter. It might feel like nothing is working, like every single thing you try somehow falls apart, or maybe you are just tired of waiting for things to finally change. But this is not the ending. It is just the middle. You are somewhere in-between where things are messy and confusing and you cannot yet see why everything had to happen this way. I also feel like some of you compare your current moment to other people's entire movies. You look at someone who seems happy, successful or settled and compare it to your current chapter. But you are comparing your middle to someone else's ending, or at least to the highlights they allow people to see. You have absolutely no idea what happened before they got there. They also had days where they thought things would never get better. They also had moments where they questioned themselves. That is just part of living really. There are definitely lovely things waiting for you. There are people you have not met yet who are going to make your life feel warmer. There are places you have not been yet that are going to become your favourite places in the world. There are moments that right now you cannot even imagine existing because you are so focused on what is happening today. But today is just today. It is not forever. One rainy day does not suddenly mean the whole year is rain, and one difficult period does not suddenly mean your whole life is going to stay this way.
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