Time for another round of something that sounds like a lot funnier problem than it really has been to deal with.
I've been dealing with an issue lately which makes it a good idea to prop one leg up a lot more than I've been managing to. The main complication there, besides the usual trouble with staying still?
The best, halfway comfortable way of getting the leg up is to mostly lie back in the bed. So, I'm almost immediately fighting going to sleep 😪 No matter what time of day, or when/how much I've already slept.
Reading or even playing games has me out like the proverbial light. Usually watching something that grabs my attention is a better plan.
So, last night I still managed to zonk out within maybe 20 minutes of getting down for the first time that day--halfway sitting up, with my headphones and reading light still on, watching a show. Stayed out for around 6 hours again, before I could force myself up to go to the bathroom and take care of a few things (like the fish lights 😑) that I passed out before I could deal with earlier.
That's the most disorienting and inconvenient episode so far, but it's been a problem. I've just been avoiding even sitting down much at any time of the day that I really don't want to risk falling asleep for who knows how long.
Anyway, it's hard to figure out how much of this crap is coming from (a) general illness-related fatigue, (b) keeping trying to push through the ongoing compound burnout situation, (c) both meltdowns and seizurey shit happening multiple times a week if not more often recently, and/or (d) some unknown different factor.
Don't know how much I can do about any of those possible factors, but it might be useful to figure out wtf is going on. Pretty much spoiled for choice right now, though.
I am inclined to mostly blame last night's episode on the fact that I managed to have a meltdown earlier in the day partly set off by frustration at not being able to avoid a seizure trigger not long after getting up. (There goes the day...) Whatever else, that one-two punch definitely did not help the energy levels. To say the least.
At any rate, it's kind of frustrating. And I don't think just taking a nap every time would be a great solution, if I want to get basically anything else done.
(Just needing to vent some, BTW. Not looking for advice at all.)
