#rip shy

[appalachian-paws]

August 21st of this year, we found out Shy was sick. He had a large, inoperable tumor in his chest. Our time together was limited. We decided to live every day to the fullest.

We went hiking...

We had a photoshoot...

We went to a charity gala...

We chased the sunset...

He came to work with me for every shift. He loved the car rides...

We had ice cream, pup cups, and milkshakes every day...

And on October 20th, we said goodbye.

Shy passed away on his own terms, the day before I was going to make the appointment that would set him free him from his failing body. I was with him when he took his last breath. Life sure isn't the same without my Golden Boy.

[keninamu]

[shyfluffymage]

School work

Hahahahahahaha I'm gonna die from stress. Hooray for being a procrastinator and perfectionist. I have a science test on Tuesday and I haven't started studying because I have a crap ton of other projects to do. I'm dying and can't even get started because I'm so overwhelmed. Im trying to break it into smaller steps but it makes me think I'm not gonna finish so what's the point. That doesn't mix well with my crippling fear of failure. God. Damn. It. Rip me.

[arialcarino]

11/11/15 6:38

i’m so so sorry

i love you so much, crazy girl

[arialcarino]

11/11/15 6:35am

i keep going to your profile to see your face again. i replay your videos to appreciate your voice and your laugh.

i still can’t believe you’re gone…

[arialcarino]

11/11/15 6:26am

i’m walking around with a broken heart because you’re gone. i don’t talk about it because i don’t know what to say. i try hard all day to not cry. no one asks me if i’m okay, but it’s probably better that way so i don’t start crying. i’ll continue to act like i’m okay but you’re gone and i’m not okay with that at all. you were my bestfriend growing up and seeing you always reminded me of who i am.

i’m going to miss you forever.

[arialcarino]

11/9/15 3:48pm

I been in denial for a couple days, and now that life has settled down now everything is caving in. my heart is literally breaking into peices knowing i’ll never get to hear that laugh of yours ever again. i’m shaking just typing this and not a word can truly describe how much hurt i’m feeling. i’m trying really hard to hold it in and keep myself from crying. no, I’m not okay. how can i deal with this