#rkyeosang

[rkzhengting]

kun0101  the competition for the mgas looks tough this year ㅋㅋ sending good luck to xuxi #5047, kenta #5045 ( look for someone with pink hair! ), vernon #5006, yeosang #5019, and kyungsoo #5007 !  加油 !  (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و

[rkhongjoong]

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( txt ) hyung ( txt ) i hope everything’s goin well for you! ( txt ) i wrote a [ message deleted ] ( txt ) there’s a new [ message deleted ] ( txt ) i made you a [ message deleted ] ( txt ) i uploaded a new song for the first time in a while– ( txt ) please lemme know what you think. [ message deleted ] ( txt ) it would mean a lot to me if you could check it out when you get a chance! 

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●  [  SENT  ]    yeah, i’ve just been busy .. sorry i haven’t been around much /: even my mom is wondering if i’ve been swallowed by the earth or something l 0 l ●  [  UNSENT  ]    i heard about what happened on the mgas ●  [  UNSENT  ]    is everything ok? i miss ●  [  SENT  ]    what’s up? how’s everything?  ●  [  SENT  ]    oh wait, really? i’m proud of you !! i remember when i was the first one to listen to all of your songs, now you’re uploading them in ~ style ~  ●  [  UNSENT  ]    i’m a little sad lmao ●  [  SENT  ]    i won’t be able to listen to it until after i’m done with this thing at training.  so it won’t be for a few days? ●  [  SENT  ]    i can’t really tell you what it is but it’s pretty big ;;; i haven’t had time to do anything for like .. a month and a half ●  [  SENT  ]    is that cool?

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[rkdoyoung]

         ✧ ✧ ✧  ━━━━━━━  & MGA SEASON 5 CALLBACKS ,                                                INTERVIEW —

he’d come into this competition not knowing what to expect. he hadn’t watched any of the previous seasons, and while he knew it was a talent competition, he didn’t know much else about it. the singing and the dancing was a given, and even the appearance of the ceos seemed expected given the fact that the fate  of their companies depended on the trainees they choose to groom for the future, but it never even crossed his mind that they’d care so much about the thoughts of the contestants on the show. based on how much time the auditions alone would take up, even if they chose a select few, he figured there’d be enough to fill up even several episodes if they liked; he didn’t think they’d need footage like this to fill up time.

but, hey, what does he know about show business?

it seems like such a long time until they call his name since all the performances are done now and he has little else to do to take up his time other than talk to his cousin and try to talk to his brother, so by the time he’s called up, he’s surprisingly pretty pumped about it.

he enters the room and settles into the seat, shaking his bottom just a bit to get that feel of having been sat in it for hours. he rests his hands on the armrest and allows his lips to bloom into a full blown grin, ready for whatever questions they throw at him.

how did you feel when you received the news of the callback?

“i was like, i knew it!” he lies through his teeth, laughter following soon after, betraying that false sense of confidence. “actually, i was pretty surprised. there were so many people at the auditions that i wasn’t sure i would stand out among so many of them, so thanks for giving me the chance to show more of what i have! hopefully i’ve shown enough to make you want to see even more. we’ve only scratched the surface, baby!”

what did you think when the judges were revealed?

he leans back in his seat, his lups forming into a circle as he blows air out of his mouth, his head shaking. sure, it hadn’t really been a surprise to see them there, but that didn’t mean it didn’t make an impact. he immediately felt small in front of them, like a mere mortal before gods. “they felt fucking powerful,” he says, uttering the first words that crosses his mind, belatedly realizing he probably shouldn’t be cursing on television. his hand immediately jumps off to cover his mouth, eyes wide in shock at himself.

“i mean...f--cking powerful,” he repeats, this time censoring himself. “kind of like an ‘i am not worthy’ moment, ya feel me?”

how do you think you did?

his lips purse, expression turning pensive. he’s silent for a few moments as he mentally goes through his performance again. sure, there had been some mistakes---a shaky start due to nerves, a lack of technique toward the end---but overall, he thinks he did pretty well. “you know what? i did decent.”

kim seungmin is your brother, right? how do you think he did?

his expression immediately lights up the second his brother’s name is mentioned. he sits up straighter in his seat, at rapt and full attention, grin so wide his teeth are bared for all to see. “yes he is!” he replies enthusiastically, a proud glow emanating off of him. “he did amazing! perfect! great! i mean, you watched it, right? you saw it. he did really well.” yeah, okay, he might be slightly biased, but that’s to be expected. “isn’t he so cute?”

besides your brother’s, are there any other performances that stood out to you?

“kim hyojin!” he’s quick to answer with a smile. of course, he can’t forget to mention his cousin and roommate. “he was really good, right?” he pauses to try and remember other performances who aren’t his family, ones that stood out among the literal hundred others he’s seen. “oh, that one girl who danced to partition...i can’t remember her name, but it was different than the usual choreography that you see for that song, you know what i mean? and her dancing was phenomenal. uh, and that one guy who did that trot rendition of that one boy group song. had a lot of fun with that one.”

he pauses again, trying to remember even more because he wants to give credit where credit is due. “that one rapper, i think his name was yeosang or something like that. that song he chose was really good, and man, his rapping was smooth af.” his lips purse in order not to burst into laughter as he recalls another performance, one that stands out for...other reasons. yes, he’d said he was okay, but he didn’t want to appear mean-spirited for bursting out into laughter. “that one kid who roller skated was really interesting. he looked really cool.” until he fell off the stage....but he probably shouldn’t say that out loud. instead, he gives a thumbs up at the camera accompanied by a grin as a show of support and solidarity for the boy.

“oh, oh!!” he says, pepping up as he remembers one contestant in particular. “choi minho is also really cool! he’s got like....” he pauses, forgetting how to say what he wants to say for a moment in both his learned languages. “star quality.” before he can stop himself, his rambling continues, “and he’s got these man tiddiez...can’t take your eyes off of ‘em!”

yeah, probably should have left that one in his head, too. 

any final thoughts?

still trying to recover from his slip-up, he chuckles in embarrassment, trying to regain composure. “i’m just really thankful for this opportunity,” he says finally, genuine and sincere. “i’ve already learned a few things about myself, and i’m hoping i can continue on this journey so i can learn even more.”

[rkzhengting]

                    ▸   NOVA FLYER   + 05   ,   @rkyeosang

        it seems like a cruel twist of fate that they’re here, standing face-to-face, with a flyer in-between them.  he debates, briefly and between blinks of surprise, over whether he should return the flyer to his stack and turn away.  but he can’t, because he’s representing nova and, in general, that’s just . . incredibly rude.

        ( not to mention, he was the one who messed up.  he should be the nicer one here. )

        “this lists all the events nova has coming up this month.”  though he’s said this more than fifty times already, the words sound foreign.  they feel foreign.  “all of them are free with the exception of the last one, since we’re only sponsoring.”

        he falls quiet, then looks up.

        “i’m sorry,”  he blurts.

        oh god.

        “about---about the mgas.”  that is, quite evidently, not what he’s sorry about.

        ( he shouldn’t have said it. )

        ( fuck. )

[rkhongjoong]

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( txt ) hey hyung ( txt ) thank you for supporting me on your instagram post! ( txt ) but i uh ( txt ) i’m withdraw [ message deleted ] ( txt ) i am going to have to qui [ message deleted ] ( txt ) i’m dropping ou [ message deleted ] ( txt ) i think i jumped in again before i was ready– i’m not sure i can do it.

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●  [  SENT  ]    yeah, of course! did you think i wouldn’t, lol ●  [  UNSENT  ]    you still mean a lot to me ●  [  SENT  ]    wait, what do you mean?? looks like you were really ready up there ●  [  SENT  ]    i think you’re great, yeo ●  [  SENT  ]    always have

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[rkhongjoong]

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    <   /  thebrotherskim    >              HJ:     hi, who’s that? oh it’s just me.  reminding you to     vote for #5036 park jinyoung and #5019 kang yeosang on the mgas this year! and to tell     you that, you know ... i’m not dead.  i’m only sometimes dead.  ㅋㅋㅋ

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[rkhongjoong]

▫︎ ▪︎  ━   act two .

there are a lot of things that he’s been thinking about lately, and a lot of them have to do with yeosang.  after his injury, hongjoong has been struggling  -  wanting to let him go, and knowing that he should.  but he knows all too well that the way he went running to yeosang’s side meant more than what his head is telling him.  he knows that what’s in yeosang’s head isn’t what his heart tells him either, if what happened while the concussion still had its hold on him is anything to go by.  they talked about it, they decided to let it be.

but hongjoong can’t stop thinking.

thankfully there are a lot of things to distract him, namely the big move from one royal building to another.  there’s a lot to process, a lot of new dust that needs to settle.  even then though, things don’t always seem to go as planned and his distraction is a distraction no longer.  yeosang shows up at royal with a text asking to meet for lunch  -  probably to try out the new cafe.  hongjoong hesitates, but eventually says okay.  

if they’re going to stay as friends, he has to act like they’re friends.  he can’t avoid him anymore.  and so, for the first time in forever, they’re sharing lunch.

this is not a date.  there's never going to be an act two.

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[rkhongjoong]

▫︎ ▪︎  ━   a match to start a fire .

there’s been something weighing on his mind for the past few weeks, and hongjoong wants to get to the bottom of it.  from what he’s concerned with, their relationship went down in flames a few months back and he was the main cause of it  -  too tired of feeling like a bad boyfriend, too tired of spreading himself thin to devote his time to everyone and everything.  he just never had any time for himself.  and not being able to be with yeosang as much as he wanted was a regret that he was holding with him for far too long.

but life has a funny way of forcing things to work out the way that they were supposed to.  with his own broken heart slowly on the mend and his wild phase slowly dwindling, hongjoong was on the mend.  but it seems like in that time, yeosang hadn’t forgotten about him at all.  not if the kiss was any indication.

they hadn’t talked about it.  but hongjoong is the type to dwell on things that he doesn’t understand, and this kiss was one of them  -  yeosang wasn’t in his right mind, but that didn’t mean that there wasn’t any feelings in his heart when their lips touched.  he wants to understand.  he wants to figure it out.  so by the time that royal lets them out of schedules that weekend, he has another destination in mind: yeosang’s.  

it takes a match to start a fire, and this is the match that hongjoong needed.  he’s going to figure out what that kiss meant.  one way or another.

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