#robert speaks

[pupmech]

"do people openly talk about mental health problems they're having on here? or is it more a 'shut up and keep it bottled up more than you already do' situation?"

[youwouldntbeabletohearit]

The whole "Kim thinks of himself as trapped between his own ears and behind his eyes"-thing is still rattling in my brain and altering my perception of him. Or rather, it adds to what I think he might see in Harry.

Maybe Harry feels like an escape.

Kim is haunted in so many ways. We know he still grieves Eyes somewhere. He loathes his widespread reputation as the Pinball Cop. He still feels like that shadow is still hanging over him. He says it was a long time ago but he was a JUVIE cop until he was fucking 38 years old. And you can tell it still gnaws at him. The daily racism, NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE RIGHT- To the point that his old partner had to point out shit for him a lot. Does he feel trapped behind his eyes because his eye sight is so bad? Harry comes up with ridiculous things literally in every other sentence. Kim lives in a world of strict rules where he always has to look over his own shoulder. He is so rigid except when he is not. Blasting Speedfreaks when driving. An escape from the constant pressure he must be feeling. Probably screaming along some of the vulgar songs sometimes when he thinks noone can hear him or know he's doing it. Trying to break out of the constant pressure of having to be. Contained. Calm. A model cop because how the fuck would Kimball Kitsuragi ever get to get promoted again, needing to make himself so small and so by the book to minimize the amount they can damage him. But he can never escape being half-Seolite, never escape being gay. Neither of these things make him feel trapped, I believe but he is keenly aware that both things enforce on him the prison of systemic abuse that he is straining against every damn day.

Anyway when he's along with Harry, we can choose to be an absolute racist ass to hm, yeah. But even with the morally worst play-style, I think there would be something incredibly freeing about working with Harry for Kim. Here is a man of no memory. He doesn't follow protocols, he doesn't freaking remember being gay is even AN OPTION?! He stumbles through the world in a way that seems to just break open people around him, performing small miracles and making leaps of logic that turn into brain breaking solutions down the line. Harry can be an asshole, but nothing about it fits with the systemic abuse Kim would know. The one part were Harry would come closest - going down the fascist route - is the one point when Kim gets really mad at us. Maybe his exasperation does not just come from the perspective of someone who is fed up with fucking fascism (as we all should be) but also seeing a pattern again that feeds into the prison of Kim's brain. Not with the racist thoughts Harrier. Please. Please stop. I was feeling so unshackled for just this little bright moment. The bounds would have eased, just for a bit. Suddenly life was open and uncertain and raw in the realest of ways. Kim says in the pale dialogue that nothing feels real.

Nothing feels real?

Harry touches on moments that make him raw and open, evidenced by Kim aborting this moment, by him observing he is, in fact, trapped-

Harry rips something open inside of him through this crazy wild goose chase. And then, ideally, invites him to join him in a new life. A life that might involve more of this. Reality. Of absurd rawness. Of listening and helping and getting hurt while trying to save. Something. In one dialogue, Kim seems desolate when Harry says fuck the police. They work 12 hour shifts, get spat upon. Why do they deserve this? Why does he deserve this? This pain, these shackles, all while he spends his days trying to help people, to make order where he can...

Maybe his shackles can be eased...

Maybe life can feel more real than this...

Something beautiful is going to happen.

[robert-robertson-lll]

Can people stop offering me eddies and painkillers when I say something hurts?

What happened to powering through it? Where’s the endurance?

[midnightinwales]

robert plant's three favourite words (based on thorough research)

morocco

stimulating

jimmypage

[alannahablar]

Ari: "I'm so sorry Robert for your loss. I know its going to be rough and I know what its like to lose a loved one. Things won't be better right away but if you need support I'll be just a phone call away. So for now how about we go grab a pint and drowned our sorrows a bit, eh?"

Robert: "Thank ya Ari, ya got a good head on ya shoulders..I miss her dearly, that I do. I just wish she could've seen her young boy grow up into the man he is today. Even if he doesnt talk to me. A pint sounds lovely."

[too-old-to-be-em0]

Can we just take a minute to really appreciate how brave Dan was? Opening up to people you’re close to about your mental health can be terrifying and he just put a video out there knowing millions of people will see it. He could have been vague but he really went into detail about his personal experiences which could help a lot of his audience particularly young people who don’t fully understand what they’re going through. To know that even someone who is successful and has millions of fans is experiencing the same horrible thing as you is a real reminder mental health can affect anyone. When Dan talked about making a video on mental health I never expected he would be this raw or go into such personal detail and I think he should really be applauded for doing so as it’s such a difficult issue to talk about.

[robert-atthe-overlook-blog]

Say it with me: Pineapple belongs on pizza.

[lifespent-blog1]

does god even fuckin hear prayers that ain’t from yellow-bellied christian ass lookin’ motherfuckers?