#robins rambles

[lowkeyrobin]

I HAVE OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!! i have my cosmetology and high school diplomas!!!! all thats left is to take my state boards :D

also if im somehow not back until tuesday, happy birthday to me as well! the big 18 :,)

thank you sm to everyone who has supported me for the past two and a half years, it seriously means the world to me. i love you all so so much. i really wouldnt be sitting here with nearly a thousand followers and like 700 posts if i didnt get the love i did. truly you guys have helped me keep my passion and love for writing beyond words. ive grown a lot since ive started and im glad to say I'm genuinley proud of what i write.

[robins-warudo]

i don’t often talk about fandom stuff myself, but I wanted to put this out there. this is from the perspective of someone who sympathized with Caine’s crashout and suspects I have some form of NPD

the thing that resonates with me most personally is that he thought he was trying

he was unfortunately too selective and very lackadaisical about what exactly he truly listened to, and also he had a different frame of reference than the others in the first place. But within the framework he *did* know (his world, his adventures) he tried to do better by them, only in his point of view to keep facing further ridicule even as he believed he was “improving” himself and his work, and his existing inner instability compounded with that and bottomed out his self-esteem, pushing him into his ultimate breakdown as he tried to defend his psyche by dialing up the delusion that he *was* better to 11

I identified with that, as someone who also felt I was being ridiculed when I felt I was trying to do better, even though the reality was that I hadn’t fully understood what the problems were and my efforts were half-assed. While I don’t have super violent crashouts, being the more covert type that sinks into my low of self-hatred instead of feed the high of delusion as a defense mechanism, I DO get angry when I’m at a low. I’d get passive-aggressive, I’d shout, I’d even charged at people I care about, all because I felt personally attacked when I let myself believe I was doing better.

I got the opportunity to improve. I easily could have just been kicked out, but I wasn’t. I had a family willing to help despite all the suffering I caused.

Caine no longer has that chance. He realized he fucked up only when it was too late, and now he never will have the opportunity to be better, the one that I received. And that broke my heart.

[midnight-malkavian]

As much as I agree with you that Castlevania (both shows and games) is flawed as all heck, there is one thing that in my opinion, the shows have over the games: Alucard not going into hibernation for three hundred years. I love that the shows let him travel and also help the Belmonts out through the generations and just be the "favorite uncle," as Juste puts it. Like, yes, good, let my boy explore and see things and banter with the people he considers family, please! He deserves good things!

Oh I totally agree! in fact I think there's a fair bit that the shows have over the games (like the fact that the women are characters in the shows instead of mcguffins lmao)

I also like that they let Alucard out to go frolic a little. Let him have a little whimsy. Let him travel and bring cool gifts back for the Belmont kids thereby making him the "Cool Uncle".

On the other hand, I do think it's really funny to have Alucard go "alright, sypha and trevor are dead, I'm going to go seal myself away because I'm a terrible monstrosity, and I shall be awoken when the world next has need of me." and then three hundred years pass and he's jostled awake by whatever contraption he has set up and he pops out of his coffin like "oh for fucks sake dad's back again isn't he"

and turns out yes! Dracula is back! and this time there's no Belmont to kill him because Richter's the one who brought Drac back! and cue symphony of the night.

I don't have any strong opinions either way on this matter! I think both have their strengths and I enjoy the narrative perspectives both bring to the table. I hadn't really thought about it in depth tbh, but thanks for bringing the idea to me to ponder! I appreciate it :)

[robbyinthesun]

Hey friends, I've realized I'm no longer comfortable posting explicit content on my blog so I went back and deleted everything. I'm not worried about others already having it on their blogs, I just don't want it on mine anymore (plus I knew the risks putting stuff up on the internet). My mental health has been bad for the last 5 months or so and I think I went through a hypersexual stage. I'm keeping my blog up bc I love the friends I've made and want to keep in touch with everyone.

I'm still labeling my blog as 18+ so if you're a minor, gtfo !

Here is a reintroduction :)

Hi, my name is Robin, I'm 28 years old. I'm starting to try new hobbies and learning to love myself again! I'm polyamorus and currently have one partner! I love music, drawing, reading, and going for walks with coffee in hand. 💚

[arobingaming]

Thinking about her

[romanticdykee]

*slips you fifty cents* please love me

[lowkeyrobin]

would anyone want some oneshots of avatar characters wirh swamp navi! reader / cave navi! reader? I loveee the concept of swamp navi / cave navi and lowkey ive been making mood boards and gathering random stuff to imagine the clan/s, their lifestyle & culture etc and ghenndnd i just wanna make it real bur have no ideas 💔💔 if yall got any random ideas for me please send them im begging anythinf will work

edit ; some drafts coming soon!!!

edit 2 ; posts are being posted!

[lowkeyrobin]

hey gang so i cant find a way to pirate stranger things the first shadow wo paying for it, and i need aome reference for a fanfic. theres a part where someone is possessed by vecna and basically lives out one of his memories from the play. ik theres a piece of henry w patty at melvalds but i dont wanna use it cause itd be redundant the way im writing, and i think henry is in a play that joyce wrote but im not entirely sure. any suggestions? if so, what happens? im fine with not having exact dialouge but id like a detailed description i guess.

also to clarify i dont wanna use the whole rock thing in the main show cause it lowk didnt make sense / i dont want to portray victim as some victim like they tried to do when he explains it all to will. if theres any noteable pieces of henry memories in the play please let me know!! if u want u can comment or put something in my ask box if u wanna do it anonymously. thanks for helping a bro out!

edit ; check comments if youre also looking for somewhere to watch the first shadow!!