I hate, hate finding out I kin someone when someone else in my group already does.
Obviously this isn't their fault, and we're both equally valid, but I just .. sometimes I feel like I won't be seen as me, because the other person is already "me".
They've always been the designated Rocket of the group, it feels, so kinfirming him leaves me kind of .. lost? Of course I'm him. So is my friend. But they were him "first", I guess, so it makes me feel .. I dunno.
One of our friends kins Zuka, our father, and .. in a call with him, once, while I was Rocketshifted, he directly to my face said - as a joke, mind you - "goddammit Zuka kin, he's not your kid!"
I just .. ow? That .. hurt. Not word for word what was said - I don't exactly remember it anymore - but .. the point was made. They're canonmates, the Zuka & Rocket, so while he's technically not wrong, I kinda ... it upset me. A lot.
Sure, I'm not his Rocket specifically, but he could have said that? Instead? That would have hurt less I feel like.
I want to feel like I'm seen as me. Whatever.
Not signing off with my anon tag this time around. I feel kind of ashamed, even though it's stupid.
-Rocket (Phighting!, Roblox)