Looking: [Escort AU- Kip is an escort who offers a range of companionship services. Up to you why Scott signed up but Kip was matched with him ] Hiya! Scott right? The agency passed on your number so I thought I’d say hi. I’m Kip :) -KG
A roleplayer: Hi. Nice to meet you, Kip.-SH
A roleplayer: Thank you for reaching out so quickly.-SH
Looking: Of course ! No pressure to answer now if your busy but I thought I’d at least introduce myself -KG
A roleplayer: It's fine. I just got done with practice. So rest of the afternoon is free.-SH
Looking: Well lucky me :) -KG Tell me a little about yourself ? As much as you’re willing to of course , we can keep this as anonymous as you want -KG
A roleplayer: Alright. Um, I'm a professional athlete, born and raised in NY...live in the city now.-SH
A roleplayer: I mostly just go to practice, games, and conditioning.-SH
Looking: Oh nice. We have that in common I grew up here too :) -KG
A roleplayer: What part? If I can ask...-SH
Looking: Professional athlete. Very fun. Bet it means you keep in good shape too -KG
Looking: I grew up in Brooklyn actually -SH
A roleplayer: It does, yeah. Can't let the rookies have all the fun every year.-SH Nice. Rochester for me.-SH
Looking: I’m sure you keep very fit ;) -KG Very nice! You ever lived anywhere else or always stayed here?-KG
A roleplayer: Always been here. I was young when my mom died so I couldn't really leave.-SH
Looking: Oh - that must have been hard. I get that -KG It’s not a bad place to grow up to be fair. Always something happening. -KG I’ve stayed near too. Went to NYU -KG
A roleplayer: Yeah, definitely an exciting place. Lots of opportunities too.-SH What did you study?-SH
Looking: I studied history - bit of a nerd -KG
A roleplayer: You must be super smart.-SH
Looking: Oh ha- hardly. I’m fine. I just looove history -KG
A roleplayer: Nothing wrong with that.-SH
Looking: Thanks honey ;) -KG So - athlete. Is that why you signed up to the agency ? Talk to me a little about what you’re looking for here -KG
A roleplayer: I'm not sure I quite know yet. I mean...I'm not looking for sex or anything like that. I just...I'm a closeted athlete who never dates or picks up anyone in the US.-SH
A roleplayer: I think it's just gotten to the point that I'd like someone to talk to...?-SH
Looking: Mmm that’s understandable. I’m sure it can be quite lonely if you haven’t told anyone -KG Would you like our connection to be a friendly one or a bit flirtier ? I’m more than happy to either I just want to provide what you need from this KG
A roleplayer: Both, I think. -SH I've got friends, my teammates, but...it's not like I can ask them to sign an NDA because I've got a career-ending secret, ya know?-SH\
Looking: Okay. I can work with that yeah-KG
A roleplayer: It's ridiculous, isn't it?-SH
Looking: Not at all. I do a lot of ridiculous things , believe me Scott -KG
A roleplayer: Oh, yeah, I guess that's fair.-SH
Looking: It’s a fun line of work haha -KG But we can do this. Easily. -KG You’re very easy to talk to -KG
A roleplayer: I like to think the media training has paid off.-SH
Looking: Clearly. But even aside from that. You seem nice Scott. Charming. Sweet -KG
A roleplayer: Not all jocks are complete assholes, I guess. There's plenty, don't get me wrong.-SH Probably all the concussions and body shots.-SH
Looking: Mmm sure it doesn’t help. I’ve been with a few jocks in my time. Very much my type in college -KG
A roleplayer: I think everyone goes through a phase.-SH
Looking: Oh yeah? -KG
A roleplayer: Young, hot and muscled guys at that age.-SH Some rough-around-the-edges types.-SH
Looking: Mmm. Very muscly -KG Are you very muscled Scott? Do I get a peek?-KG
A roleplayer: I am, yeah. Lots of working out.-SH Um, sure. Hold on....-SH
A roleplayer: [image attached.] Scott stretched out on his sofa, only his abs and lower body exposed. He's shirtless with gym shorts on.]-SH
Looking: I’m waiting :) -KG
Looking: Oooh! -KG
Looking: Look at you … -KG
Looking: You’re so beautiful-KG
A roleplayer: Thanks.-SH
Looking: Anytime :) -KG
Looking: Would you like one back ?-Kg
A roleplayer: That's totally up to you.-SH
Looking: [image; Kip laid back on his bed , just in his sweatpants and his face and bare chest on show. ]. there you go -KG
A roleplayer: Oh.-SH
Looking: Oh ?-KG
A roleplayer: Sorry. You're gorgeous.-SH
Looking: Thank you honey :) -KG
A roleplayer: You have a great smile too.-SH
Looking: Oh you’re too sweet -Kg
A roleplayer: Just the truth.-SH
Looking: :) -KG
Looking: Have you been with many guys Scott?-KG
A roleplayer: I don't know what constitutes a lot. I spend the off-season abroad and hook up when I'm traveling. Usually it's a handful of guys?-SH
Looking: And you enjoy that? What sorts of guys do you tend to go for?-KG
A roleplayer: I mean...it's not ideal, but sex is sex. I think I'd prefer to know what an actual relationship is like. Ya know...having someone to hang out with or to come home to.-SH
A roleplayer: I guess I like guys who are active, at least if I was doing more than hooking up. I usually go for guys like me, I guess.-SH
A roleplayer: Maybe not so athletic.-SH
Looking: The casual intimacy. It is nice and it’s allowed to be something you want Scott. -KG Mmm so still someone who keeps fit. Got it. That’s understandable especially with your lifestyle -kG
A roleplayer: In theory, yeah. It's not something I can have though.-SH
Looking: I mean maybe someone wouldn’t mind being more , on the down low. -KG But you can also have causal intimacy in casual relationships Scott. Fuck buddies cuddle and stay over sometimes. It’s all about what two people want from a situation and what works for them -KG
A roleplayer: They might not mind. Sometimes I think about it but I always end up feeling so....selfish. Asking someone to hide who they are and who we are for an undetermined amount of time because I'm terrified of losing everything I have.-SH I'm also so worried about having that sort of thing with anyone around here. Media can be brutal.-SH
A roleplayer: I've been a fucking brand since I was a teenager. I can't exactly fade into the background, ya know?-SH
Looking: Would take a lot of trust I understand that -KG I mean that’s kinda my job though right ? If it is something you’d want we could do that -KG I know … but you deserve to live for you though darling -KG
just saw your post re: rp on rolechat and I so fucking agree. Also people just don't understand that rp is literally fanfic improv. You develop a story together spontaneously! and some people literally don't know how to think creatively and there is no dynamic in it anymore. I miss Omegle so much.
I genuinely mourn when rp was actually something that people engaged with and cared about. it was so fun and you could write together for years when you found the right person. now it's all people looking to write smut, refusing to write more than a few sentences, and assigning het gender roles to queer ships. it's so depressing
in the gentlest way possible it feels like rolechat is dying a very slow death (at least in my fandoms)
and it's because everyone wants to play the same character and won't reply to any prompt that doesn't enable that while also not really writing any prompts of their own
the rp community has been ruined by dom/sub and top/bottom dynamics being used as the new gender roles and all of you are useless bottoms who can't write. I'm also blaming part of that on cishets in queer fandom spaces.
additionally, refusing to do anything long form/paragraph also tells me you're a sucky writer.
roleplayer: (AU where back in the elevator Yuna gave Ilya her card, in case he needed a good agent. He's kept it for years and after Shane's accident doesn't think clearly anymore) Hello Mrs. Hollander. I know this comes from nowhere but you gave me your card once and I need to know if Shane is okay. IR
A roleplayer: Who is this? Shane is doing alright. He's home and resting.-YH
roleplayer: He is home already? Oh bozhe. IR So he will be okay? He is out of danger of life? IR This is Ilya. From Boston. You gave me card a long time ago. IR
A roleplayer: Rozanov? That was years ago. You kept it? -YH We just brought him home this morning. Still have to monitor him, but he's okay. The concussion is what I was most worried about. Still worried about a bit, but that's just because I'm his mother.-YH
roleplayer: Yes. I don't know why. But is always in my wallet. IR The hospital would not tell me anything. So I had this idea. IR Concussion can be really bad. But his memory is okay? IR
A roleplayer: You called the hospital to check on him? That's very kind of you, Ilya. -YH Yes, his memory is fine. He recognizes and remembers everyone. He's still got a terrible headache but that should lessen over time.-YH
roleplayer: It was one of my teammates that knocked him out. Was right thing to do, and he is not answering phone. I was little worried but do not tell him that. IR Oke. That is good then. Is it only that? How long is he going to be out of games? IR
A roleplayer: I'm not sure most rivals would do the same, especially one as long-standing as yours.- YH You have his number? That surprised me as well. I'll let him know you've been trying to contact him. He's not using screens at the moment. It'll be a few days before he can start to ease back into staring at his phone or a laptop and he'll have to limit his screen time for a while.-YH Broken collarbone too. He's out for the rest of the season and the playoffs but he should be back to practice and next season with no issue.-YH
roleplayer: Is only on ice, the rivalry. I do not want him to be hurt. IR Oh, yes. Most hockey players have others numbers. There are group chats. IR Thank you, Mrs. Hollander. That is very nice. He can take his time of course, I just wanted to know he will be okay. IR Oke that is good! Next season Montreal will have chance again then. IR
A roleplayer: Ah, of course. That makes sense, I suppose.-YH Call me Yuna. No need to be so formal, Ilya. Though I bet your parents are very proud of your manners and your hockey talents too.-YH As much as I want the Metros to win...they do not have a chance without Shane this year. Do not tell him I said that.-YH
roleplayer: I am sorry but would be very rude in Russian culture to call parents by first name. I will try though, Yuna. IR Is my job, nothing to be proud of. IR Oh wow! I will not tell him but I feel very smug. You think it will be Boston too then? IR
A roleplayer: Ah, sorry. I didn't even think about the cultural differences. Call me whatever you're comfortable with, Ilya. I won't be offended by either.-YH Hockey may be your chosen career but that doesn't make it anything less to be proud of. You've accomplished a great deal. You're an asshole, on the ice only apparently, but you are also incredibly talented and skilled.-YH I think Boston has a decent chance but my money is on the Admirals.-YH
roleplayer: Is okay. I have been here long enough, but is still difficult sometimes. IR Ah.. thank you, Yuna. I do not see it like that often, but is nice to hear. Especially from Hollanders mama. IR Admirals? Now you want to hurt me. IR
A roleplayer: I can't imagine being so young and in an entirely different country. The differences must be astounding- YH Might have to have a word with your parents if you aren't hearing more compliments for your accomplishments. It's in the parenting handbook we get at the hospital.-YH I mean no disrespect, of course, but the stats are there.-YH
roleplayer: Is very different. But is okay, in a lot of ways is better here. IR American parents get handbook? Wow. Is not a thing in Russia. Also my mama is dead and my father is sick. There are other problems besides compliments. IR I am still heartbroken now. IR
A roleplayer: No, we don't really get a handbook. It was a joke, I realize now, that may not have translated the way I intended.-YH Oh Ilya, sweetheart, I'm so sorry. Losing a parent is something no young man should have to go through. May I ask what's wrong with your father? Or what other problems there are for you?-YH Boston does still have a chance. Need to practice some puck handling drills. Too many easy passes given up recently.-YH
roleplayer: Oh, okay. I would not be surprised in Canada. "Rule 1: Always be nice to child." IR Is fine. I was twelve, long time ago. IR His mind is getting worse and worse. But is too much to bother you with. I am fine without compliments. IR It is frustrating to me too. I will let coach know we should practice this. IR
A roleplayer: That rule is a nationwide rule, really. -YH Oh, sweetie, that's terrible. You were so young. Just because it was a long time ago doesn't mean it isn't difficult. Grief doesn't ever truly go away. And with your father being sick it must just compound on top of everything else. I can't imagine the stress. -YH If you need someone to talk to, Ilya, please reach out.-YH
roleplayer: ..Why would you offer me that? IR
A roleplayer: Because you may be Shane's direct competition, but it's clear you have a very caring and empathetic heart. You too also need someone to care for you.-YH I'm also a mom, so I have no doubt that yours would do the same thing for Shane if the situation were different.-YH
roleplayer: ..Oh. IR
roleplayer: Thank you Mrs. Yuna. I.. don't know what to say. IR
A roleplayer: You don't have to say anything. Offer is open - no expiration date.-YH
roleplayer: I am not good at talking. IR But thank you. IR If you or Hollander need something, I am here too. IR
A roleplayer: I'm not always good at it either. Definitely where Shane gets it from.-YH Thank you, Ilya, I appreciate that. I'll let Shane know you checked in on him.-YH
roleplayer: (Set after Ilyas father dies) Mrs. Yuna? Is this still right number? IR
A roleplayer: Hey, Ilya. Still me.-YH
roleplayer: Hello. IR He died. IR
A roleplayer: Oh, sweetheart, I'm so sorry.-YH Are you home yet?-YH
roleplayer: Takeoff in an hour. Then in 8 hours I am home. IR I feel so numb. IR
A roleplayer: That's a perfectly normal way to feel in this situation. Even if you know it's inevitable that someone is going to pass away, it doesn't....lessen the shock or the impact of it.-YH
roleplayer: Is weird. We were not close. He was not a good person. IR But I am still sad. IR
A roleplayer: He was very tough on you, wasn't he?-YH I'm sure you loved him even with a complicated relationship.-YH
A roleplayer: Give yourself grace to be sad about losing him.-YH
roleplayer: He did not like him. I was always too soft. IR
roleplayer: (*like me
roleplayer: It feels wrong to be sad but also wrong to not be sad. IR
roleplayer: And I am a full orphan now. Is weird. IR
A roleplayer: Too soft? I'm not sure there's such a thing. Did he tell you that?-YH Grief often has a lot of gray area where you feel multiple things all at once and they can all be true at the same time. -YH Sweetheart, you aren't an orphan, but I understand what you mean. Do you have any other family>-YH
roleplayer: (brb!
roleplayer: Russia is very different from the West. There is definitely too soft in Russia. I am not police or military man and not married with kids. But yes. He told me often I am disappointing. IR Ugh. Exhausting. IR Orphan means parents are dead, no? IR I have brother and niece. But my brother is worse than my father. IR
A roleplayer: Ah, I see. You didn't fit into his strict expectations. He should never have told you that you were a disappointment though. That is...obviously none of my business, so I'll hold my tongue. I take it your brother was more of your father's 'normal' child? -YH By definition, yes, that's exactly what it means. I just...it always breaks my heart when people use that term. The connotation sometimes can be that the child or person was unwanted or discarded. I do not want you to feel that way though, Ilya, because it is not true.-YH
roleplayer: Oh yes. My brother is police, like my father was. He can't do anything wrong, even if he is the one who takes drugs and cheats on his wife. But that is saying too much. IR There are things about me that both of them would really like to arrest me for. It's complicated. IR I.. think I was wanted. By my mama at least. But now is only me and Alexei. IR
A roleplayer: It sounds quite complicated. That's a lot for anyone to manage.-YH Your mother would have been so proud of you.-YH
roleplayer: Her name was Irina. IR She taught me how to skate. I did only ice skating for three years before I started with hockey training. Then he started managing me. IR But my mama was perfection on the ice. IR
A roleplayer: She sounds wonderful.-YH
A roleplayer: I'm glad you have those memories with her. Teaching you to skate must have been very special to you both.-YH
roleplayer: She was. She was so wonderful. IR I don't know why I am missing her now that my father is dead. IR
A roleplayer: She was your comfort. You've just lost your father and you're sad and maybe a bit conflicted about hwo you're feeling.-YH
A roleplayer: *how
roleplayer: Yes, conflicted is right. IR I need to handle funeral and the house and the remaining things of him. I don't know how many games I will miss, but I think this is last time I will be in Russia. IR
A roleplayer: Your brother will help you though, right? Or your friends? You shouldn't have to do that alone.-YH Focus on yourself and your family, Ilya, hockey will still be in Boston for you.-YH
A roleplayer: You do not want to return to Russia?-YH
roleplayer: No, my brother will not help. He says he took care of our father before, so I need to manage this. IR My best friend is in America. But maybe she will come to Moscow IR No. I don't ever want to go back there. IR
A roleplayer: Your brother sounds like a dick. I'm so sorry this has all fallen on your shoulders, Ilya. Have you reached out to your friend? I'm sure she'll join you if she's able.-YH I can help you with citizenship, if you'd like. Later, once all this has calmed down. It's nothing you need to figure out at the moment.-YH
roleplayer: Ha. You are right. He is a dick, totally. But his daughter does not deserve him. IR I have texted her, yes. She has not answered yet. IR Really? You think that maybe could be an option? IR
A roleplayer: I'm glad your niece has you.-YH Yes, of course it's an option. I'm far more knowledgeable about Canadian citizenship for obvious reasons but I can do some research for the requirements for American citizenship.-YH
roleplayer: I would not care if it's America or Canada. As long as I can stay for sure. IR
A roleplayer: Then I'll gather info for both. It's good to have options.-YH
roleplayer: Thank you so, so much. IR It's good to have to look forward to. IR
A roleplayer: You're welcome, Ilya. Something positive to look forward to can definitely help during times like these.-YH
roleplayer: I just want it all to be over already. IR
A roleplayer: Remember to take breaks and give yourself some grace. Maybe use that hockey training to knock some sense into your brother.-YH
roleplayer: My brother is drug addict and right wing asshole. Knocking sense into him would be maybe by giving his harsh, harsh concussion. IR
roleplayer: But thank you. I hope I will get to be on ice there. IR
A roleplayer: I would never advocate for violence outright, but a concussion seems fair all things considered.-IR You'll be back before you know it, but don't rush yourself, Ilya.-IR
roleplayer: Ha. Maybe broken nose, but I hope I will be able to hold back. IR Thank you for talking with me. Feels a lot better already now. IR
A roleplayer: Sometimes, taking a deep breath and counting to 10 works for me when I want to punch someone. Give it a try...might work for you too.-YH I am here to chat whenever you need, Ilya. I'm glad you're feeling better. Have you got everything you need for your trip?-YH
roleplayer: Is harder with Alexei. But thanks. IR I am on the plane now. Anything I need and don't have I will buy there. IR
A roleplayer: Alright. Have you eaten today?-YH
roleplayer: Not really, I think. I have a banana. IR
A roleplayer: I know you're probably not feeling like eating but fruit and a tasteless airplane meal will help.-YH Hydrate too. That's a long flight.-YH
roleplayer: You are probably right. I feel like I might puke if I eat, but is still important. IR
roleplayer: Thank you Mrs. Yuna. IR
roleplayer: I need to turn phone off now. For start. IR
A roleplayer: You're welcome, sweetheart. Have a good flight.-YH
roleplayer: Say hello to Hollander from me. IR
roleplayer: (about a week later) Hello. I am on flight back from Moscow. IR
A roleplayer: Ilya, hi! You're already headed back to Boston? So soon?-YH
roleplayer: Yes. Funeral is done and I have taken care of his belongings and affairs. IR
roleplayer: Is bye bye Russia now. IR
A roleplayer: Ah, understandable. You're taking time off once you get back to the states though, yes?-YH
roleplayer: I have one day before training starts again, for jetlag. IR
A roleplayer: Ilya. One day is not nearly enough.-YH
roleplayer: I have done this before. Coming back from Russia to training. IR
A roleplayer: That does not make it a good thing.-YH
roleplayer: Hockey is good though. I missed it. IR
A roleplayer: Mm. I know it can be therapeutic. Shane is the same way.-YH Don't forget to eat.-YH
roleplayer: He seems like it, yeah. IR I have thought about your words once a day. So I eat and drink. IR
A roleplayer: Good. It's about time someone take care of you for a change.-YH
roleplayer: I am grown up man. I can do it. IR
A roleplayer: I will lecture you just like I lecture Shane.-YH
roleplayer: (...) Is kind of nice. IR
roleplayer: Is that weird? IR
roleplayer: (brb!
A roleplayer: Not weird, no. Most guys don't like being lectured about taking care of themselves. Especially hard headed hockey players.-YH
roleplayer: Yes, I know. I don't like it from most people either. They should just leave me alone. IR
A roleplayer: Now that is a reaction I expected from you, Rozanov.-YH
A roleplayer: I'm only teasing, by the way. Don't think it's a bad thing.-YH
roleplayer: Yes, yes. I know you expect me to be asshole. IR
roleplayer: But it is nice. To be told to do these things. IR Sveta does it too. IR
A roleplayer: Is that your friend? Girlfriend?-YH
roleplayer: My best friend. Not girlfriend. IR
A roleplayer: Was she able to join you in Moscow?-YH
roleplayer: No, she had important work things. IR
A roleplayer: I'm sorry, Ilya.-YH
roleplayer: Is okay. I understand. IR And I am fine now, really. IR Did you find any information on citizenship? IR
A roleplayer: Yes. I have some websites and solicitor information to forward to you when you're ready. It helps that you've got a visa. Overall though, I think your chances of getting citizenship for either country is high.-YH
roleplayer: Really? I was about to say that maybe I have grounds to get asylum, if thos does not work. IR
roleplayer: (*this
A roleplayer: That would be the easiest to start with.-YH
roleplayer: I think I do! It counts when I know I would get arrested in Russia for things that America says are not reason for jail, yes? IR
roleplayer: (brb again sorry!
A roleplayer: (no worries)
A roleplayer: Yes, that's a good reason. May I ask what those reasons are?-YH Full disclosure, you are under no obligation.-YH
roleplayer: I can trust you, yes? No telling the press anything. IR
A roleplayer: 100%. Whatever you say to me stays in this chat. I haven't even spoken to Shane about our continued conversations.-YH
roleplayer: Oh. Maybe that is problem in itself. I do not want him to think I am trying to steal his mother. Like talk to you to piss him off. IR
roleplayer: That is not the reason. IR
A roleplayer: It's not a problem, Ilya, I doubt Shane would care that much.-YH
roleplayer: Maybe next opportunity I will tell him. In calm setting. IR
roleplayer: But anyways. Reason Russia would arrest me is that I like men. Men and women both, but still. IR
A roleplayer: It's still illegal there?-YH
A roleplayer: (brb)
roleplayer: Oh, yes. Very illegal. If it got public and I went back there I would probably be killed. IR Not by official police, but on street or something. IR
A roleplayer: How terrifying. That's horrible.-YH I think that's a solid case for immediate asylum.-YH
roleplayer: I just don't know if it needs to be public knowledge for that to work. IR
roleplayer: I don't know if that is a good idea. IR
A roleplayer: I don't think it needs to be public knowledge, but I'm not 100% sure. The records could probably be sealed. Who else knows?-YH
roleplayer: Sveta, Marly I think. And some people I have dated. IR
roleplayer: Nobody who would tell public. IR
A roleplayer: Of course. I can understand why you want it to be kept private.-YH
A roleplayer: I'll do some more research and see what I can come up with.-YH
A roleplayer: Also, I've been thinking about what you said regarding your dad, about him managing you. Did you find a new agent when he got sick?-YH
roleplayer: Thank you. IR Not really, no. I tried agent for a season, but we did not get along. IR
A roleplayer: Sometimes it takes a few to find one you like.-YH
A roleplayer: I'll gather some names for you.-YH
roleplayer: That is very nice. IR ..No men, please. IR
A roleplayer: Absolutely. I can manage that.-YH
roleplayer: You are very, very kind to me. IR Is an hour until landing now. IR
A roleplayer: You deserve kindness, Ilya.-YH Why don't you take a power nap? Let me know if you need anything once you get back home.-YH
roleplayer: I will let you know. Thank you. IR
A roleplayer: Of course, sweetheart.-YH Talk soon.-YH
roleplayer: (To Shane) Hollander do you have a moment? IR
A roleplayer: Hey! How are you? Are you okay?-YH
A roleplayer: SH
roleplayer: Yes. Better. Almost in Boston. IR I need to tell you something. And is okay if you are mad. IR
A roleplayer: That never sounds reassuring. I don't want to hear if you fucked some hot Russian.-SH
roleplayer: I didn't fuck anyone. IR Just listen, ok? IR Back when you got injured, I texted your mama. I needed to know if you were ok and I had her number from some card some time, so I asked. IR
A roleplayer: Yeah, I know she told me you reached out to check on me.-SH She was shocked.-SH
roleplayer: Oh ok. Is good you know that. IR She was very nice to me. We talked for a while. IR I kind of told her about my family a bit. She said I could reach out if I wanted to talk. IR
A roleplayer: Yeah, she can be intense, especially about hockey but she's very kind.-SH So? Does that mean you've been chatting with my mom?--SH
roleplayer: Yes. IR I texted her when I heard he died. I didn't know what to do. I'm sorry. IR
A roleplayer: It's fine. She wasn't cringy, was she? She didn't nag or anything, right?-SH
roleplayer: No. It was really nice. It helped a lot. She was just.. very much like a mama. Telling me to eat enough. And she is helping me with citizenship maybe. IR
A roleplayer: She mothers too hard sometimes. To me, but I guess that's because I'm her kid.-SH I'm glad it helped you. I know it's tough with your mom gone and now your dad.-SH
roleplayer: So you are not mad? IR
roleplayer: I promise I am being very nice and very polite. IR
A roleplayer: No, I'm not mad. Why did you think I would be?-SH Must be what shocked her the most.-SH
A roleplayer: She never said anything to me.-SH
roleplayer: No, she told me today that you don't know and I had to fix. IR
roleplayer: I don't want to have secrets from you, like talking to your mama behind your back? IR
roleplayer: But she does not know we talk regularly. Just that I have your number. IR
A roleplayer: You're both adults, Ilya, I don't want you to think that I'm one of those psychos who wants to police who you talk to.-SH
A roleplayer: It makes sense she doesn't know about us. She definitely would have brought that up.-SH
roleplayer: But is your mama. That is not just anyone. I would understand. IR No, but I did tell her that I like men. We were talking about asylum options and it might help me actually. IR
A roleplayer: Shit. You did?-SH
A roleplayer: She didn't freak out, right? I don't think she would be one of those people.-SH
roleplayer: No, no. She was very nice about it. I had to explain to her that Russia would arrest me because it didn't make sense to her. IR She is good one, Shane. IR
A roleplayer: That's so fucked up. About Russia.-SH
roleplayer: I mean, yes. But is how it is. And is only getting worse. IR
roleplayer: Yuna is helping me find an agent. And then I can work on citizenship. IR
A roleplayer: Really? That's great! American citizenship, right? Since you play for an American team.-SH
roleplayer: She said I could have either. US or Canada. IR
A roleplayer: Yeah, I mean, that makes sense, especially with your situation.-SH Next time you're anywhere near her she's going to invite you over, you know that right?-SH
roleplayer: Over? Like what, to your home? IR
A roleplayer: Probably, yeah. Or she'll want to meet with you some where.-SH If she's been mothering you she'll want to make sure she gets a face to face. It's annoying.-SH
roleplayer: Okay.. IR I want to say yes to that. IR
A roleplayer: [unest. Set around when Shane is seeing Rose Landry. Last night, Shane saw Ilya in a club. Ilya’s drink was spiked and a stranger tried to take him home, but Shane noticed something was really off and intervened. He ended up bringing Ilya back to his place and letting him spend the night to sleep it off. Up to you if Rose was there or not. Also up to you whether Ilya slept in Shane’s bed or in the guest room] Saw your note. I’m alive. -IR Fuck, I don’t think I’ve ever been this hungover in my life. -IR [delayed] Wait. Is this your actual apartment? -IR
A roleplayer: Yeah, it's my apartment.-SH
A roleplayer: Huh. -IR
A roleplayer: There's some tylenol on the bedside table for you.-SH
A roleplayer: Fuck, yes. Thank you. -IR
A roleplayer: Welcome. You can stay as long as you want.-SH
A roleplayer: What happened last night? Is all blurry to me. -IR
A roleplayer: You went out, got chatted up by some asshole. I think he might have slipped something in your drink.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] I remember a guy, yes. Vaguely. -IR
A roleplayer: How bad was I? Did I say anything? -IR
A roleplayer: Not really, no. You were pretty out of it.-SH
A roleplayer: Okay. Okay, good. -IR
A roleplayer: Fuck, I'm sorry. -IR
A roleplayer: Not your fault.-SH
A roleplayer: You shouldn't have been dragged into this. -IR
A roleplayer: I wasn't about to let you leave with that guy.-SH
A roleplayer: Yes, well. Still. -IR
A roleplayer: I know you did not want to see me. -IR
A roleplayer: [delayed] I would have preferred not to see you hanging all over other people.-SH
A roleplayer: I didn't know you were going to be there. -IR
A roleplayer: I got dragged out. Better than just sitting in my apartment thinking.-SH
A roleplayer: You were with your girlfriend? -IR
A roleplayer: Yeah, Rose wanted to go out.-SH
A roleplayer: Ah, I see. -IR
A roleplayer: Sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt. -IR
A roleplayer: You didn't. She hasn't been over yet.-SH
A roleplayer: I can book a hotel and get out of here. -IR
A roleplayer: She's not coming over.-SH
A roleplayer: Stay.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] Is not a bother? -IR
A roleplayer: No, not a bother.-SH
A roleplayer: [long delay] I'm glad you're there.-SH
A roleplayer: You don't need to say that for my sake. -IR
A roleplayer: Fuck off, Ilya. I'm trying to apologize.-SH
A roleplayer: You don't have anything to apologize for. -IR
A roleplayer: Yes, I do.-SH
A roleplayer: I was an asshole.-SH
A roleplayer: I panicked.-SH
A roleplayer: I crossed boundaries. Is not your fault. -IR
A roleplayer: The whole thing was my idea. I shouldn't have pushed. -IR
A roleplayer: I just...the whole thing is terrifying.-SH
A roleplayer: I know. I'm sorry. -IR
A roleplayer: Stop apologizing.-SH
A roleplayer: I wanted to strangle every person who touched you last night.-SH
A roleplayer: Why? -IR
A roleplayer: You have a girlfriend. -IR
A roleplayer: Rose is great, but...I don't know. It's not the same.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] Then what are you doing with her? -IR
A roleplayer: I don't know anymore.-SH
A roleplayer: You should probably figure that out. -IR
A roleplayer: No shit.-SH
A roleplayer: You wanna maybe not be a dick for five minutes and just tell me the truth?-SH
A roleplayer: What do you want me to say? -IR
A roleplayer: Anything?-SH
A roleplayer: Something?-SH
A roleplayer: I messed up with you. -IR
A roleplayer: That's not all on you. I'm pretty messed up on my own.-SH
A roleplayer: You were just scared. -IR
A roleplayer: I wasn't... being responsible. -IR
A roleplayer: I don't know. Maybe I wanted to pretend for a little. -IR
A roleplayer: Pretend?-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] That things could be different. -IR
A roleplayer: Different how?-SH
A roleplayer: You know how. -IR
A roleplayer: Tell me.-SH
A roleplayer: Hollander. -IR
A roleplayer: Rozanov.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] It was stupid. -IR
A roleplayer: For fuck sake. Do you have to always be so difficult?-SH
A roleplayer: Were we stupid? Is that it?-SH
A roleplayer: You know that isn't something we can do. -IR
A roleplayer: Bullshit.-SH
A roleplayer: You were right to leave. -IR
A roleplayer: I almost came back.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] You did? -IR
A roleplayer: Yeah. I was freaking out.-SH
A roleplayer: Would you want to? If we could?-SH
A roleplayer: You know we can't. -IR
A roleplayer: That's not what I asked.-SH
A roleplayer: What does it matter? -IR
A roleplayer: Fucking tell me.-SH
A roleplayer: Yes, okay?! Fuck. -IR
A roleplayer: I want it too.-SH
A roleplayer: Great. -IR
A roleplayer: Now we can both be miserable about this. -IR
A roleplayer: We don't have to be miserable.-SH
A roleplayer: So what? You keep your girlfriend as your cover, and see me behind her back? -IR
A roleplayer: No.-SH
A roleplayer: How does this play out then. -IR
A roleplayer: We figure it out. Together.-SH
A roleplayer: Calling that plan vague would be generous. -IR
A roleplayer: We could never be seen together. -IR
A roleplayer: Not for a while, no.-SH
A roleplayer: What? Until we retire? -IR
A roleplayer: Maybe. Yes. No.-SH
A roleplayer: I don't want to hide forever.-SH
A roleplayer: What happens when we get caught. -IR
A roleplayer: Maybe nothing. I don't want to be the poster boy for gay players.-SH
A roleplayer: I just... You deserve something good. -IR
A roleplayer: You are that something good.-SH
A roleplayer: If we were just two guys, maybe. But with the rivalry, you know I cause problems. -IR
A roleplayer: I know it's an act.-SH
A roleplayer: I don't just mean on the ice. I mean with the League. -IR
A roleplayer: So what?-SH
A roleplayer: What about your career? -IR
A roleplayer: What about yours?-SH
A roleplayer: I'm very good at hockey, yes, but you love it. -IR
A roleplayer: You love it too.-SH Hockey is the only thing I've ever had. Now I've got you and hockey. Why do either of us have to choose?-SH
A roleplayer: Shane... -IR
A roleplayer: What?-SH
A roleplayer: You can't tell me you don't want to at least fucking try.-SH
A roleplayer: I wouldn't be able to go back to Russia. -IR
A roleplayer: Do you want to go back?-SH
A roleplayer: My father is dying. -IR
A roleplayer: [delayed] That was a shitty thing to say. I'm sorry.-SH
A roleplayer: You didn't know. -IR
A roleplayer: Not about the dying part, no, but I know you've got family there.-SH
A roleplayer: Mm. -IR
A roleplayer: I don't know. Things are complicated. -IR
A roleplayer: Seems to be the theme for whatever the fuck we are.-SH
A roleplayer: I wish I could offer you something easy. -IR
A roleplayer: I wish I could do the same for you.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] That day was nice. -IR
A roleplayer: At your house?-SH
A roleplayer: Mm. -IR
A roleplayer: Before everything I mean. -IR
A roleplayer: Waking up with you. -IR
A roleplayer: You liked that?-SH
A roleplayer: A lot. -IR
A roleplayer: Me too. It felt good to have more than an hour or two.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] I hadn't done something like that before. -IR
A roleplayer: Invited someone over?-SH
A roleplayer: Not like that. -IR
A roleplayer: Letting them stay. Just hang out. Spend time together. -IR
A roleplayer: Like ever?-SH
A roleplayer: People have spent the night, but you know. Usually I have them leave after breakfast. -IR
A roleplayer: And it's not so... domestic. -IR
A roleplayer: Fuck.-SH
A roleplayer: Ilya...I can't keep pretending I don't want this or us or...all of it.-SH
A roleplayer: What do we do? -IR
A roleplayer: I don't know.-SH I need time to think.-Sh
A roleplayer: Okay. -IR
A roleplayer: First, I think I need to break up with Rose.-SH Then...I don't know. We keep being careful until I figure it out.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] I can try. -IR
A roleplayer: Or we can wait.-SH
A roleplayer: I don't want it to cause problems for you.-SH
A roleplayer: [delayed] Your thing with Rose Landry has been... messing with my head. Since I heard about it. -IR
A roleplayer: I don't like you belonging to someone else. -IR
A roleplayer: You were jealous?-SH
A roleplayer: Maybe a little. -IR
A roleplayer: I care about her, but not like I care about you.-SH
A roleplayer: I doubt she'll be upset.-Sh
A roleplayer: Really? -IR
A roleplayer: Yeah, I haven't exactly rocked her world or anything.-SH
A roleplayer: You both look happy in the pictures. -IR
A roleplayer: It's not that we're unhappy or were unhappy. She and I get along really well. We're like best friends. She's easy to talk to and she's understanding.-SH I was just trying really hard to be...normal.-SH
A roleplayer: So what do we do? We stop seeing other people then? -IR
A roleplayer: [delayed] You don't have to if you don't want to.-SH
A roleplayer: If we're doing this, I'm not stepping out from you. -IR
A roleplayer: I only want you. -IR
A roleplayer: Really?-SH
A roleplayer: Yes. -IR
A roleplayer: Ilya...-SH
A roleplayer: If that is not what you want for yourself, that is fine. I understand, and I won't say you can't. -IR
A roleplayer: Ilya, I haven't been with anyone else.-SH
A roleplayer: What? -IR
A roleplayer: Other than you and Rose. And we only slept together a few times. Like I said...not a phenominal lover of women over here.-SH
A roleplayer: What were you doing all these years? -IR
A roleplayer: Fucking you.-SH
A roleplayer: Yes, but that was only a few times a year. -IR
A roleplayer: Yeah, I know.-SH
A roleplayer: Why? -IR
A roleplayer: Never really wanted to.-SH
A roleplayer: I'm not one for much social interaction.-Sh
A roleplayer: And anytime I did find myself thinking about it I....didn't want anyone else.-SH
A roleplayer: Fuck. -IR
A roleplayer: Ridiculous, right?-SH
A roleplayer: I mean, I am a very good lover. -IR
A roleplayer: Humble too.-SH
A roleplayer: I can't believe I actually ruined you for anyone else. -IR
A roleplayer: I am putting this on resume. -IR
A roleplayer: Can't wait to hear the questions you get about it.-SH
A roleplayer: Can I use you as a reference? -IR
A roleplayer: Sure.-SH
A roleplayer: Excellent. -IR
A roleplayer: Are you still at my apartment?-SH
A roleplayer: Yes. -IR
A roleplayer: Was hoping you might break up with your girlfriend then come back to pet my hair. -IR
A roleplayer: Mm. I think I can manage that.-SH
A roleplayer: Then maybe I blow you to make you feel better about the breakup. -IR
A roleplayer: Shouldn't I be blowing you?-SH
A roleplayer: After I'm done. -IR
A roleplayer: Won't take long.-SH
A roleplayer: I thought you have been with Rose Landry. -IR
A roleplayer: It's not at all the same.-Sh
A roleplayer: How so? -IR
A roleplayer: You're attracted to girls. I'm...not. At all.-SH
A roleplayer: Oh? -IR
A roleplayer: Christ, Rozanov, I'm gay.-SH
A roleplayer: Okay. Good. -IR
A roleplayer: I'll be home soon. Gonna call Rose.-SH
