New Prompt - Workin' it Out
A roleplayer: [Post Tuna meltdown AU. TW: Mentions of abuse/assault. Shane ‘dates’ Rose publicly but a guy in secret. The guy is jealous of Shane’s fame/talent/money/etc. After the last time Shane was hit he gets so upset that he calls Ilya, who doesn’t answer. This is a few hours after the missed calls. }I’m sorry about blowing your phone up earlier. Thank you for not answering. It wouldn’t have helped the situation. I hope…you’re well.-J
A roleplayer: Sorry was not near phone. -L Are you ok? -L
A roleplayer: Didn't expect you to answer really. It's fine. All fine.-J
A roleplayer: Just a bad few days.-J
A roleplayer: still bad liar. -L
A roleplayer: I will answer next time. -L
A roleplayer: Don't think you should. I fucked up with you.-J
A roleplayer: I sorry for that, by the way. Not that is matters anymore, but I am.-J
A roleplayer: [delay] thank you for apologizing. -L Rose Landry has taught you how to act. -L
A roleplayer: I knew how to apologize before her.-J
A roleplayer: Just...haven't known how to...say it to you.-J
A roleplayer: Is what you called to say? -L
A roleplayer: Oh. No, no. I was panicking earlier. You were the only person I...wanted to talk to.-SH
A roleplayer: *J
A roleplayer: Panic? -L What happened? -L you are hurt? -L
A roleplayer: Got into a fight.-J
A roleplayer: Black eye. It's nothing.-J
A roleplayer: ...you did not have game today. -L
A roleplayer: Who hit you? -L
A roleplayer: I don't know if I should really be talking to you about this now that I think it through.-J
A roleplayer: who the fuck is hitting you? -L
A roleplayer: You have- There are people who hit you? -L
A roleplayer: Yeah.-J
A roleplayer: It was the second time.-J
A roleplayer: What. -L
A roleplayer: [delayed] It was the second time the same person hit me.-J
A roleplayer: ...you should not see that person again. -L you do not deserve anything like that. -L
A roleplayer: if it is a teammate you should tell head office. -L
A roleplayer: I know. I'm not going to see them again.-J It's not another player.-J
A roleplayer: block the number. -L
A roleplayer: Okay.-J
A roleplayer: Good. -L do you know you are shane fucking hollander? -L no one gets to touch you without permission, hollander. -L I know you are Canadian good boy, but you have to grow more confidence. -L
A roleplayer: I think it's more that I need to not be so fucking weird, but...thanks.-J
A roleplayer: you are not weird. -L
A roleplayer: no one is weird enough to deserve a black eye. -D
A roleplayer: *L
A roleplayer: Yeah, I know that. We were just arguing and it got heated.-J
A roleplayer: I didn't expect it. Could have ducked.-J
A roleplayer: I do not understand you, sometimes, hollander. -D
A roleplayer: What do you mean?-J
A roleplayer: I cannot even call your name, but you defend peice of shit who punches you twice. -L
A roleplayer: I'm not defending him. I just...I don't know.-J [delayed] It wasn't just the fact you said my name that day. I liked it. I liked hearing it from you. I said your name too. It was just...-J Doesn't matter, right?-J
A roleplayer: You should not have ducked, he should not have hit you. Period. -L Do not defend him. -L [delay] If you say so. -L
A roleplayer: Does it matter to you?-J
A roleplayer: my feelings do not matter. -L
A roleplayer: Yes they do.-J
A roleplayer: You are dating rose landry. -L And shitt man who's number you hsould block. -L
A roleplayer: I'm dating a guy. Rose and I are just friends. Media picked up and created that whole story of us dating.-J
A roleplayer: Were dating guy. -L
A roleplayer: You cannot let him touch you again. -L you are smarter than that, yes? -L
A roleplayer: Yes, I know. I'm not going to see him again.-J
A roleplayer: [delay] . . . so it is because I am me then, and not because I am a man? -L
A roleplayer: Is what because of you?-J
A roleplayer: you don't want me. -L
A roleplayer: [delayed] That's not it at all. Opposite actually.-J
A roleplayer: That day was different. It was not anything like our normal hookups. It was...nice.-J
A roleplayer: You ran. -L
A roleplayer: That's not what was different and you know it. You know exactly what I'm talking about.-J
A roleplayer: what do you want me to say? -L I Make you food and invite you to say, I say your name. -L It could have been different, but you left, ghost me until you blow my phone up six times. -L I see you with Rose Landry on TV. -L you made clear you do not want different. -L
A roleplayer: You've never done any of those things. We also fell asleep together...took a fucking nap and woke up together. We cuddled, We kissed. -J
A roleplayer: It was nice. Really nice. Too nice.-J
A roleplayer: I wanted it too much.-J
A roleplayer: god forbid shane hollander take what he wants. -L He must resist because being happy is a moral failing. -L
A roleplayer: I was going to give it to you. -L
A roleplayer: I wasn't ready to admit to myself that I'm gay, Ilya, or ready to admit I could have anything I wanted with you.-J
A roleplayer: yes, evil asshole rozanov couldnot make you happy. -L
A roleplayer: you are not only one with shit to lose, hollander. -L
A roleplayer: I never said I was the only one. That's the whole fucking point.-J And you're not an asshole. You're a really nice guy and you're kind and empathetic and you did make me so fucking happy.-J
A roleplayer: what is fucking point then? -L What do you want to hear? -L That you are only person I feel like myself with? -L Only person who understands the pressure? Only person where I am only Ilya, and you don't want things from me? -L What do you want me to say?! -L
A roleplayer: That's what I wanted to hear.-J
A roleplayer: Or wanted to hear ever since I came to my senses.-J
A roleplayer: well. There. -L
A roleplayer: what is name of man who hit you? -L
A roleplayer: also address. -L
A roleplayer: Nope. Not letting you beat up a stranger.-J
A roleplayer: He likes to fight. -L I give him. -L
A roleplayer: No. I don't want you getting in the middle. It's done.-J
A roleplayer: Shane. -L
A roleplayer: Ilya.-J
A roleplayer: HE give you plack eye. -L
A roleplayer: Yes, thank you, I know.-J
A roleplayer: stupid sad little man hit MY shane. -L And I do not even get to watch hot hockey fight. :( -L
A roleplayer: Your Shane?-J
A roleplayer: finder's keepers. -L
A roleplayer: my shane. -L
A roleplayer: I'm so sorry for what happened.-J
A roleplayer: You are allowed to tell me to stop doing things you don't like. -L I can stop. -L you do not have to leave. -L
A roleplayer: I know I can. I trust you completely. The thing is...I liked all of it especially that day. I wanted it so much and it terrified me.-J Do you think you could ever forgive me and...give us another chance?-J
A roleplayer: Shane. My shane. You are so dumb sometimes. -L I am like stray dog. -L "hello stray dog, is okay if I invite you inside and give you all your favorite things in the whole world? I have steak and your favortie squesky toy and also my ass is amazing and I am funny and cute." -L that's how you sound. -L
A roleplayer: You are not a stray dog, Ilya. Your feelings matter and I hurt you.-J
A roleplayer: It's okay to not be okay with me just showing back up like this.-J
A roleplayer: It did hurt my feelings, but it does not change my feelings about you. -L you've aploogized. -L
A roleplayer: [delay] I do not want to be just easy fuck anymore. -L I don't- You don't feel like easy fuck. -L
A roleplayer: You aren't one. I don't want it to be just sex. I can't do that with you anymore. I don't want anyone else.-J
A roleplayer: Yeah. Yes. Okay. -L
A roleplayer: That's good. -L
A roleplayer: ...I don't know how the fuck it will work. -L
A roleplayer: Maybe we try to be better at actually talking. To get to know each other more. -J We can look at our calendars too so that we can find more time together.-J
A roleplayer: ...I am obsessed with you. -L
A roleplayer: You are so shane hollander. -L And you are my favorite. -L
A roleplayer: "We are boyfriends now, I am making a shared callander." -L keep going I am close. -L
A roleplayer: Oh, yeah?-J I'm going to color code the calendar too. Maybe I'll even make a spreadsheet with how we can soft launch our relationship.-J
A roleplayer: Are we boyfriends now?-J
A roleplayer: oh my god, we're going to soft launch? -L
A roleplayer: I need to call my immigration lawyer before we soft launch. -L
A roleplayer: ...You do not want to fuck other people and you want to become honest and talk about feelings. -L Is boyfriends, yes? -L
A roleplayer: I said maybe. I'm not trying to ruin both of our lives.-J Yes, that's what I consider a boyfriend. You're not going to fuck other people?-J
A roleplayer: I am not cheater. -L
A roleplayer: If you are my boyfriend, you are my only partner. -L
A roleplayer: Just checking.-J
A roleplayer: I am your boyfriend now. -L I will not hit you ever or I will kill myself. -L
A roleplayer: Don't say that.-J
A roleplayer: I'm serious. -L
A roleplayer: I know you won't hurt me, Ilya.-J
A roleplayer: Good. Okey. -L good. -L
A roleplayer: my father was small man like that. -L
A roleplayer: He hurt you?-J
A roleplayer: Is not... so bad as you are thinking. -L Is still normal thing in Russia. -L
A roleplayer: It shouldn't be a normal thing at all.-J
A roleplayer: I am difficult kid. -L
A roleplayer: Lazy. -L
A roleplayer: You are not. You've worked your ass off to get where you are and have what you do.-J
A roleplayer: ...My soft shane. -L so sweet to me. -L
A roleplayer: It's true, Ilya.-J
A roleplayer: You are not weird. -L I like when you fold your clothes before sex. It makes me crazy. -L
A roleplayer: I don't want them to get wrinkled.-J
A roleplayer: Can I ask you about other things?-J
A roleplayer: You can. -L
A roleplayer: some things are hard to talk about. But I try. -L
A roleplayer: I'll stick to things I do then.-J Like...needing things after sex. Like a kiss or a cuddle. That's not too much, right? -J
A roleplayer: no. -L
A roleplayer: is best part. -L
A roleplayer: you play with my curls when you are almost alseep sometimes. -L makes me pur like as cat. -L
A roleplayer: maybe not best part. -L Sex is very good. -L
A roleplayer: I love playing with your hair.-J
A roleplayer: I love too. -L
A roleplayer: My panic attacks don't bother you?-J
A roleplayer: no? Why would they? -L
A roleplayer: Nothing. I just wanted to know.-J
A roleplayer: You think too fask sometimes. -L
A roleplayer: Fast*
A roleplayer: Yeah, I do.-J
A roleplayer: ... do you care I am sad sometimes? -L
A roleplayer: No. It just makes me want to help you remember that lots of people care about you.-J
A roleplayer: my soft shane. -L
A roleplayer: I'm serious.-J
A roleplayer: ...Is not so easy to feel that sometimes. -L
A roleplayer: That's why you have me. I'll remind you so often about how much I love you that you'll get annoyed.-J
A roleplayer: How could I ever be annoyed with you loving me? -L
A roleplayer: I'm sure there's got to be something.-J
A roleplayer: oh nooooo kind hot smart boy with best freckles in the whole world loves me. -L
A roleplayer: my life is so bad. -L
A roleplayer: I might need mouth to mouth. -L
A roleplayer: Oh do you?-J
A roleplayer: I die. -L
A roleplayer: Nope, sorry. You are forbidden.-J
A roleplayer: so... mouth to mouth is urgent. -L you must fly to boston. -L
A roleplayer: Don't tempt me.-J
A roleplayer: fly to boston fly to boston fly to boston. -L
A roleplayer: I still have whole case of gingerale and no one to drink :( -L
A roleplayer: You still have it? Why did you keep it?-J
A roleplayer: it makes me happy to see you. -L
A roleplayer: shane ignore me in real life but open fridge ah look. Little part of Shane. -L
A roleplayer: it is... so sad out loud oh god. -L
A roleplayer: Fuck. I'm such an idiot.-J
A roleplayer: You can do better, Rozanov.-J
A roleplayer: no. no I can't. you are perfect. -L
A roleplayer: God I've missed you.-J
A roleplayer: When's your next break?-J
A roleplayer: I have three days off next week. -L after Game with New York. -L
A roleplayer: Then I'll meet you at your house.-J
A roleplayer: You have three days off? -L
A roleplayer: We have weekend games and a couple of practices and an optional skate. I can skip out after the first practice.-J
A roleplayer: I am giggling and kicking my feet. -L my shane. my shane. my shane. -L
A roleplayer: Are you really?-J
A roleplayer: I am so fucking excited. -L
A roleplayer: I'm excited too.-J















