Summary: There is a special sort of pain to be found in the aftermath for a victim who was only hurt through watching.
Your sword is gone. You can’t fight. You can’t run. You can’t move. You can only cry out, barter, plead, beg, your words not just landing on deaf ears but theirs, in pain, needing you, screaming for you, only to hear your pitiful screams back, the only resistance you offer against their tormentor.
Prompt from @villlainarc
Content: I Should Have Been Better, ~trauma~, panic attacks, flashbacks to blood/violence (nothing explicit), mentions of knives/claws/cutting, self-blame/victim-blaming (as in roman’s the victim and he’s blaming himself), 2nd person POV, enby logan and remy
Pairing: Rolosleep
( @badthingshappenbingo )
You are in bed. Your partners are in your arms. They are asleep.
You should be asleep too but you are not, due largely to a lack of trying. You do not want to be asleep. You cannot be asleep. You have people to protect.
For a moment, you close your eyes. You will not sleep, but it is still a sweet moment, with the warmth of your partners and the not-quite-silent silence of sleep.
Blades. Claws. Cuts. Bleeding. Blood, so much blood, it’s drowning you out, drowning them out, blood, blood, blood- screaming.
Your eyes shoot open and you force yourself not to flinch, even as you feel your heart beat like it’s trying to win the race you lost. You cannot wake them. They need their sleep.
Deep breath. In. Out. You are okay.
You turn your gaze on them now; your partners, your loves, your life encompassed and encapsulated within two people. Remy, your sun, with a smile that burns almost everyone else but warms you and confident eyes you love to sink into. Logan, your moon, with a voice as calming as gentle rainfall and a charm as cool as finest poured-silver.
They are your day and night, your confidence and strength, your most fanciful daydreams given form. It is almost too blasphemous a thought to let cross your mind unchallenged, but if they were to reveal themselves to you as gods taken earthly form you wonder if you would even be surprised.
Their blood is red, red like your sash, red like the rubies in your crown, red like the crest you were wearing when you swore to protect them.
If they are gods, they have the most earthly of forms.
Deep breath. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. You are okay.
You hold them closer to you. Stiffen when you feel Remy begin to stir, shifting against you. Relax when ae does, pressing aeir face closer to your stomach and curling tighter around you before ae resumes sleeping peacefully.
You trace patterns with no meaning lightly into aeir skin as you admire aeir, peaceful and calm in sleep. Ae is always beautiful, but you can’t help but fall in deeper in love with aeir as you watch aeir now.
Logan does not move, but you still turn your gaze upon them too. They’re leaned against your side, your arm around their shoulder anchoring them, keeping them beside you. Their face is not hidden against you, their countenance worry-free and immaculate.
If it were a better night, you would kiss the both of them, let impulse guide you and wake them with your adoration. But they need their sleep.
Instead you focus on their serene beauty. The lack of stress lines creasing their faces. You consider how dearly they must trust you to be so at ease with you in such a vulnerable way.
Your sword is gone. You can’t fight. You can’t run. You can’t move. You can only cry out, barter, plead, beg, your words not just landing on deaf ears but theirs, in pain, needing you, screaming for you, only to hear your pitiful screams back, the only resistance you offer against their tormentor.
They should not trust you.
Deep breath. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. You are okay.
Normally you are even more okay than this. It has been months, rapidly approaching a year. You have moments, but nothing that consumes you like this.
But then you had seen the dragon figurine left carelessly in the hall, a paper witch hat tapped to its head. It was nothing but a toy. It could not harm you. There was no reason for you to believe it would.
Yet you still collapsed, chest heaving but not taking in any air, heart racing in your ears rather than in your chest, world tunneling down to nothing but that figurine, that toy, that prop, that stand-in for the real nightmare, as if it were taunting you, a reminder of your greatest failure.
You are frozen, magic-bound. She is half witch and half dragon yet all beast, whether it be knife or claw that finds flesh to mutilate. You are begging. She is smirking. You are watching. She is destroying. You are watching. You are watching. You are watching. You are wa-
Deep breath. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In. Out. In.Out.In.Out.InOutInOutInOutInOutInOutInOut-
Panic spikes your heart rate and closes your throat, turning the ringing in your ears into shrieking and the black spots in your eyes into blood splatters. You can still feel your partners beneath your fingertips but it is no longer grounding, as they are not safe, not with you, they never have been.
You cannot move, no longer frozen by magic but by your own failings, the weight of your sins bearing down upon you and refusing to let up. You want to drown it all out but you will never be able to bleed enough to make it up, to pay back your failure in full, to be forgiven. You are choking on a pain that was never yours to claim and there is no way to save yourself from what you know you deserve.
But your plight has been noticed, despite how still you are as you fail to breathe, and there is a rhythm weaving its way through your chest as you are spoken to with a tone you recall and words you can not yet grasp.
You do not deserve to be rescued, but you allow yourself to be, because you are not so selfish as to force them to aid you any longer than strictly necessary when they should be resting.
Remy is still asleep, your tremors masterfully constrained to your upper half, but the consequence of such is that Logan is the one who has awoken, no longer leaned against you but instead sitting up, one hand on your back and one tapping on you chest. They murmur reassurances as your panic recedes, but you can not (will not) process them. You are not worthy of them. You have not been worthy of them for months, rapidly approaching a year.
“Go back to sleep” You say, quietly. You are still trembling, but this is no longer their problem. You are breathing. They need rest.
Logan does not listen to you. “What’s wrong?” Their words are gentle, but firm. They will not push, but they will not let you evade their question either. They are wonderful like that. You do not understand why they are still wonderful to you.
“Nothing.” It’s not believable. You’re aware of this. You still hope it’s enough.
But it’s not. Nothing you offer is enough.
The hand on your back moves to your shoulder. The hand tapping your chest cups your cheek. A thumb runs underneath your eye.
“You’re crying.”
You’re crying. On top of everything, you are crying. It feels like too much.
“Talk to me.” Logan coaxes, softly, lovingly, as if you are the only thing they care about in that moment, as if all they want right then is to help you.
You don’t know what to say.
Do you tell them to sleep once more, dismissing the concern that you have not earned? Do you lie and say you’re fine? Do you lie and say it’s something else? Do you acknowledge the truth you know they could not have forgotten, that you are not worthy of their care, that you failed them when they needed you most, that you should have been better and can now never make up for the fact that you were not?
“I’m sorry.” Slips out instead.
Logan does not ask what you are referring to. Their hand does not withdraw from your shoulder. Their touch does not leave your face.
“You have nothing to apologize for.” They say instead.
You break.
You’ve heard the sentiment before; from them, from aeir, from both.
You were her victim too.
Just because she didn’t leave you with physical wounds doesn’t mean she left you unharmed.
It wasn’t your fault.
It’s nothing new to you. And you know they are right. You know you could not have seen the attack coming. You know you could not escape the magic as a mere mortal. You know there is a reason she never touched you, only made you watch. You know you didn’t hurt them. You know you were hurt too.
But these are logical reasonings, not emotional. It is your emotions that pull you back to your panic and self-loathing. And it is your emotions that leave you feeling blindsided every time you are reminded of the truth.
You have nothing to be forgiven for.
Logan guides your head to their shoulder and you fall against them without protest, sobbing soundlessly, refusing to wake your sun even amidst your breakdown. Logan holds you close, their arm now around your shoulder, taking on the role of protector while you cannot. Their hand comes to rest upon your head, fingers carding through your hair, more venerable than the weight of any crown.
They do not speak as you cry, but the silence is made comfortable by their actions. Your tears do not last forever, gradually lessening as you sink further into the embrace of your lover and the reassurances you once more believe.
Tenderly, they press a kiss against the top of your forehead. “I love you.” They whisper, like a reminder, like a fact, like an infallible truth.
You feel Remy shifting once again even as your sight is lost to the crook of your moon’s shoulder, moving with an ease you would not expect from the slumbering as ae settles aeirself higher up your body, head resting directly atop your heart, movements stilling only then.
The motion is familiar. Remy says it calms aeir. You had always assumed it was from the safety of another person promised by the living rhythm. You wonder now if it’s from the reassurance of your safety instead.
You outline a heart symbol on the skin of the back of aeir neck. Ae manages to press closer to both your touch and your body.
It’s a quieter way of saying “I love you”. It holds as much power as the words.
The fingers in your hair are slower now, dragging deliberately against your scalp. The exhaustion you had been putting aside through the night creeps back into you, sinking into your bones and laying heavy on your eyelids.
“Sleep?” You’re not certain what question you’re asking. You’re not certain who you’re asking.
“Together.” Logan answers, and somehow it is exactly what you were looking for.
Remy’s ear is pressed to your chest. Your eyes are pressed to Logan’s shoulder. Logan’s lips are pressed to the top of your head. The hand in your hair moves to cross over your stomach and rest on your sun’s back. Your hand remains at the nape of aeir neck. Your other arm wraps around your moon’s back. Their other arm does not leave your shoulders. It is unclear whose foot is whose in the tangle of your legs.
You have never known a more encompassing feeling of Together then here, so intertwined with your beloveds it is unclear where one stops and the next begins, unclear if there is even a seam to be found or if you have all three become something singular. It is hard to exist Together when you feel undeserving of the parts.
But you are deserving. And you are wanted. And you are loved.
ooh how abt 6. bookshop au and 67. character in peril with rolosleep (i think that's their ship name?) ? -blink
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Logan owns a bookshop. It’s in a very old building and is full of narrow, winding aisles between shelves.
Remy is his crush friend fellow small business owner who runs the cafe upstairs and keeps coming to flirt at hang out with bother Logan while he’s working.
One day Logan acquires a strange old book about a fantastical realm. The volume is surrounded by mysterious and magical rumours; Logan dismisses these as fanciful nonsense.
While Remy is there, he accidentally triggers the book into performing its magic: creating a portal. Remy has no impulse control and jumps right through, making the portal vanish.
When Logan reads the open book, he sees a description of Remy getting captured by an evil dragon witch.
Reluctantly, Logan activates the portal again to go save his friend.
Unfortunately, he doesn’t come out where Remy is. Instead, he encounters a handsome annoying prince who is sworn to help anyone in need… and Logan is definitely in need.
They rescue Remy, save the kingdom, and all fall in love in the process.
Summary: In a world filled with soulmates, Roman had long ago accepted that ve was never going to have one. The Universe had chosen to be a bitch to vim, and ve was stuck with that.
So even though it was very in-character, Roman thought it was pretty rude of the Universe to make vim fall so hopelessly in love with two soulmates, too.
Content: (Not actually) unrequited love, (mutual) pining, mention/reference to various (minor) injuries, technically one very minor reference to self-harm, panic attack, some poorly timed laughing, references to not sleeping well/bad sleeping habits, happy ending; nb!roman, nb!remy, genderfluid!logan, all characters are implied to be aromantic, soulmate au
Ships: QPR rolosleep, pre-established losleep
Note: For the majority of this, Logan uses the atlantis pronoun set- a/lan/atla/atlan/atlantiself. I mention this because the ‘a’ pronoun confused me many a time while writing, and I don’t want it to confuse you while reading
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Confessions. Roman loved them…
...as tropes.
In real life? Not so much.
Maybe it would’ve been better if they weren’t soulmates. Maybe it would’ve been better if ve had a soulmate of vis own. Maybe it would’ve been better if Roman’s concept of romance existed past poorly written dime novels and cheesy romcoms.
Maybe it would’ve been just as hard if all the odds were in vis favor.
But as they stood, they weren’t great.
And yet… Roman still wanted to confess.
No, scratch that.
Needed to confess.
Ve couldn’t go on like this. They were just… so in love. Almost too in love, depending on who you asked, but Roman never saw it like that. Maybe that’s because ve’s biased. Ve found ve didn’t care that much.
They were real soulmates, unlike some of them. Some matches never clicked. Some took time.
Logan and Remy took time, but they hadn’t needed it. You could see it in their every action, their every word, their every small glance at the other. They didn’t even have a good meet-cute and they still fit better together than any couple Roman had ever seen. From two strangers forced to share the last seat on the bus to soulmates who’s every move around the other was laced with something, something more than love, something that was made from the stars themselves.
And it was etched across their skin too, the stars and constellations that decorated Logan’s skin at every spot Remy had bled and the planets on Remy that marked the spot of Logan’s every bruise. Space flowed in their veins and held them together.
Roman wasn’t as lucky. For all the beauty ve had seen in soul markings, it had only ever been on others. It had never been scales on vis burns or flowers on vis scars- better put, never markings on vis skin where vis soulmate’s had been marred. Because ve didn’t have a soulmate.
And that had hurt. Hurt worse than the tiny cuts and bruises that had near constantly lined vis arms until high school, in the hopes that vis soulmate would see them and know Roman was there. Hurt worse than going through high school watching people laugh as swirls and hearts appeared on their skin, ruminating on what their other halves could be getting up to. Hurt worse than seeing the college couples roaming campus, hand in hand, matching in injuries and patterns and bright smiles filled with adoration for the other. It hurt to know the universe, or fate, or whatever had abandoned vim, had left vim to yearn for the sort of connection it was supposed to give vim but didn’t. Left to yearn for desires that would never be fulfilled.
So, of course, in response to vis anger and betrayal and annoyance, the universe (or fate, or whatever) had sent vim Logan and Remy.
Aka, it had stabbed vim in the back and asked vim if ve had anymore complaints about vis situation.
Remy was an astronomy major who was sassy, aloof, and very vocal about the fact that they couldn’t wait to be away from earth and to the stars. Logan was a marine biology major who was withdrawn, sarcastic, and eager to sink into the depths of the ocean. Complete opposites heading in the same direction, Logan had called them once, her head on Remy’s shoulder while they did their homework and muttered about how space didn’t have homework.
Roman had watched them from where ve had been working on vis own bed, wishing that direction was towards vim.
It wasn’t going to be, of course. Multiple soulmates existed. If Roman was meant to be a part of their happiness, ve would’ve been their soulmate.
But ve wasn’t.
And that should’ve been the end of it. Ve should’ve moved on, should’ve settled with the fact ve was only ever going to maybe find love with others like vim, should’ve been happy to be Logan and Remy’s friend and nothing more.
Vis heart had other plans.
It refused to give up. It refused to move on. It refused to accept the kindness Logan and Remy showed vim as acts of friendship and instead went searching for proof of something closer.
Remy bringing Roman a coffee when they got one wasn’t Remy just being nice to and considerate of their roommate, it was a gift and sign of affection. Logan helping Roman with some of vis homework wasn’t them just trying to be helpful, it was an excuse to spend more time with Roman. Them inviting Roman so many places with them wasn’t just a gesture of friendship but instead a precursor to actual dates.
Vis heart was wrong, of course. It didn’t actually mean anything that Remy had vis coffee order memorized or that Logan always leaned so close to vim when showing vim vis mistake or that ve couldn’t remember the last time the two of them had been on a just-them date (even when Roman hadn’t been able to come to the outings they had invited vim on, they always ended up cancelling anyways, normally staying in with vim instead). Vis heart was still wrong, still seeing things that weren’t there.
So why was Roman entertaining it? Why was ve going to confess to Logan and Remy, admit that ve could see the galaxies on their skin in their eyes as well, lay vimself open before them even though ve knew ve would only be met with rejection?
Partially because ve knew it was the only way to crush that hope, once and for all. The only way to get over them was to know ve could truly never have them. Even if it stung like poison and burned like magma, Roman needed them to stare vim in the eyes and tell vim they liked vim, but only as a friend.
It was mostly because Roman was a lovesick fool.
So, here ve was. Sitting on vis bed, dressed up nice in a white dress layered in red, good looking but not uncomfortable, feeling like a complete wreck.
The three of them were supposed to be going to dinner. Some place nice, nicer than Roman was really used to, especially for something as simple as friends hanging out. But Remy had said they were also celebrating Logan’s most recent test score being absolutely stunning (and Logan just being stunning in general), so Roman had accepted it. And ve was going to tell them then, after ve had snuck around them and paid the bill vimself and when the meal was at end, so when things went horribly ve’d be able to just leave right after. It was a simple plan. It was a great plan. Ve even knew the outcome, so it was a guaranteed plan too.
Yet there was a pit in vis stomach the size of the moon and it felt like there were stars in vis throat, stealing vis breath as ve tried to breathe around them. Because for as good of a plan as it was, there was still one problem: Roman.
Ve didn’t want to know that Logan and Remy didn’t want vim. Ve didn’t want them to tell vim they only liked vim as a friend. Ve didn’t want that hope to be crushed.
But ve couldn’t keep going on like this either, couldn’t keep pretending to just be their friend, couldn’t just swallow down vis affections like a bad aftertaste. No, Roman had two choices left to vim, and the fact that they were a rock and a hard place didn’t matter- ve had to pick one.
Roman’s phone dinged, and ve didn’t need to check it to know it was Remy, letting vim know that they and Logan were there, ready to go. Roman just had to reply that ve was ready, or even that ve needed another minute, and then head out and meet them, and go to dinner, and… and…
Apparently, there was a third choice: end up destroyed, right smack dab in the middle of the other two options.
Ve wasn’t sure when ve had slipped off the bed, but ve must have, since the ground beneath vim was no longer soft and no longer allowed vim to press vis fingers into it. Ve was vaguely aware that vis phone was buzzing more, more than it should have, probably, but ve couldn’t truly bring vimself to care. Ve couldn’t bring vimself to care about anything, right then, anything that wasn’t Logan and Remy and messing everything up and dreams that would never come true and the blood roaring in vis ears and now that ve was thinking about it was ve even breathing anymore, did that even matter anymore-
Warmth, heavy and real, on vis shoulder. On instinct, Roman sucked in a breath, and though it was shaky and weak, it was something. There was something- someone- someones- in front of vim, but Roman couldn’t focus on them, the single breath ve had gotten not nearly enough to last long. Soon enough, ve was choking again, choking on stars ve had never had and never would.
More warmth, this one warm but tempered, prepared, steady, took one of Roman’s hands, pulling it away from vim until it was planted against a warm surface, one that was moving up and down in a controlled manner, slight squeezes of vis hand inviting vim to try and follow the pattern. And Roman tried to, ve really did, not knowing why ve trusted the warmth or why ve wanted to follow its suggestions, but ve did, so ve tried, and tried again and again and again even when ve couldn’t keep with the pattern just right, the warmth on vis shoulder supporting vim the whole way through.
As Roman’s breathing started to even out, so did vis focus start to come back. Vis gaze seemed to be pointed solely at the floor, but Roman could see the two figures in vis peripheral- pressed slacks and polo matched with a lovely tie, and a dazzling dress that lesser fools might’ve called garish. Ah. So it was them.
Some part of Roman was nagging that this was an issue, that there was a problem here, but ve was still occupied with the much too difficult task of breathing to worry about it much. Ve slumped over more and more with every breath, fairly certain ve was leaning against Remy, but not aware enough to care. They certainly didn’t seem to mind, their arm slipping over Roman’s shoulders and pulling vim closer to them.
“It’s alright, you’re alright, you’re okay.” They soothed quietly, their voice gentle and melodic to Roman’s ears. “Let’s get you back on the bed, yeah? Comfier up there, angel.”
A warning bell popped up in the back of Roman’s mind, something about the importance of nicknames and petnames, but ve ignored it in favor of nodding and breathing. The grip on vis shoulders tightened, and a moment later ve was vertical, only to almost instantly go back to being down. Logan was grabbing Remy’s pillows off their bed, placing them along with Roman’s, so that when Remy properly laid vim down ve was still supported mostly-upright by the pillow stack.
Remy helped settle vim, coming to sit down on the inside of vis bed, partly pressed against the wall and next to Roman’s head. Logan sat in a similar spot on the edge of the bed, frowning at Roman while Remy brushed vis hair out of vis face.
For a few minutes, they stayed like that, Roman quietly breathing while Remy and Logan sat next to vim, Remy having moved on to playing with vis hair while Logan’s hand rested on Roman’s shoulder, reassuring and constant. It almost would’ve been perfect, being so close and relaxed with them, were it not for the reason they had ended up like that in the first place.
“So,” Remy said, finally, breaking the silence gently, “are we going to talk about this?”
“About what?” Roman asked, vis eyes have fallen shut at some point, though ve was still very much awake. Ve was pretty sure ve knew what Remy wanted to talk about, but a bit of playing-dumb and buying time couldn’t hurt either way.
“Oh, just the fact that you were having a panic attack a moment ago.” Remy said, tone faux conversational but unable to completely hide the undercurrent of worry in their voice.
Roman half-shrugged. “It’s nothing.” Ve answered. Because it was nothing, really. All secrets came to light eventually, so it was for the best Roman keep vis under wraps for as long as possible, and deal with the fallout whenever it occurred naturally. A simple conclusion that ve certainly hadn’t needed to panic over. And now that it was figured out, ve was okay, so it was nothing.
Remy didn’t seem to agree. “Oh, yeah, because struggling to just breathe for five minutes is clearly the result of nothing.” They snapped. Roman flinched, and they immediately drew away from vim in response, looking away, expression abashed.
Logan reached across Roman, placing a hand on Remy’s arm in support, and Roman tried to ignore the lurch in vis stomach at the loving gesture. A looked at Remy for a moment, the two of them seeming to have a silent conversation before Remy nodded, looking reassured as Logan turned atla gaze on Roman.
“Remy’s just concerned, Roman, as am I. And with good reason.” Logan said calmly, though there was a look in atla eye that Roman knew well from late nights when Remy couldn’t sleep. “While panic attacks can be brought on by small things, we’ve never seen you have one. That suggests that whatever caused it is very important- at the very least, it’s not ‘nothing.’”
“And even if it was something ‘small,’ we’d still want to know.” Remy tacked on, voice deliberately much softer. “You’re upset, love, and we want to help you as best we can.”
With breathing no longer as serious of an issue as it had been, Roman was able to make the connection between nicknames and petnames and the alarm that had been going off in vis mind- Remy used a lot of nicknames interchangeably as petnames, but there were a few that they only used for people they cared dearly for (aka Logan).
Amongst those few? ‘Angel’ and ‘love.’
Roman forced vimself to keep breathing normally, well aware hyperventilating more would only be a cause for more concern for the other two. And they were already concerned enough, with Remy calling vim by nicknames that were meant for people closer to them then Roman was and with Logan looking at vim with a fond sort of worry reserved for Remy and Remy alone. So worried over vim they were treating vim like ve was someone close to them. Like ve was someone who truly mattered.
Like ve was someone who was their soulmate.
And all of a sudden, Roman was back to the problem of confessions. Ve couldn’t go on like this, no matter how badly ve wanted to pretend ve could. Ve needed to let them know ve was fine, that the panic had been over something silly that they couldn’t fix anyways, so they could realize how much their attempts at kindness came off as cruel. It would hurt, but it would ultimately be for the best, and Roman knew that was what mattered in the end.
Ve cleared vis throat. “It was… it’s about you guys.”
Logan and Remy both stiffened at that, casting each other a quick glance that Roman couldn’t decipher but ve didn’t miss either. Ve felt bad, well-aware that vis phrasing could’ve been better, but ve needed the build-up. Ve knew if ve tried to say it all at once, ve’d just chicken out, and that would get them all nowhere.
“Roman, if Remy or I have ever done anything to greatly distress you-”
“No, it’s not that.” Roman said, cutting Logan off.
Logan frowned, once more glancing over at Remy, who offered an equally confused-but-worried expression. Logan looked back at Roman. “Then… what’s wrong?”
Roman took a deep breath, steeling vimself. “I’m in love with you. Both of you.”
Dead silence. Roman wasn’t surprised. There wasn’t really a good way to react to that, after all.
“I’m sorry.” Roman said quietly, feeling ve had to fill the silence with something, anything. Ve needed to apologize, anyways. “I know you’re soulmates and I know you don’t- I know you just see me as a friend. And that’s- that’s fine, really, I love what we have, I just- I’m sorry.”
The silence once more stretched out as Roman finished, focusing vis attention on vis feet, trying to ignore the tears stinging at the corner of vis eyes in anticipation of all the words that were to come.
And then… laughter.
Hesitant at first, but louder soon enough, startling Roman into looking over and its source. Remy was leaning against the wall next to them, laughing, trying not to look at Roman as they did so. Ve looked over at Logan in confusion, not finding any answers in lan covering atla mouth with atla hand, hiding a smile or a frown Roman wasn’t sure. Ve supposed vis hopeless love could be seen as funny, or perhaps a joke, but… well… this wasn’t one of the outcomes ve had really expected.
“I’m- I’m so sorry, baby, this is a horrible reaction.” Remy said after a moment, once more looking at Roman and smiling for some reason or another. They looked happy, really happy, more happy than a bad joke about Roman’s love could possibly make them- right?
“And likely misleading.” Logan pointed out as well, though a sounded amused. Once more, Roman glanced between them, trying to figure out the joke ve wasn’t a part of.
“I know you guys probably think this is a joke, but I’m being serious.” Roman said, frustrated. Ve just wanted them to acknowledge what ve had said, acknowledge its ramifications, acknowledge what it meant for vim and for them all. “It’s not funny.”
Remy stifled their laughs at that, though they were still smiling, a sweet, fond thing that Roman wanted to see forever even if ve knew ve didn’t deserve it for a second. “We know, Ro. It’s just… bad timing, I think.”
Logan nodded, atla face set back into a neutral expression, save for the twitch up at the corner of atla lips and the soft look in atla eyes. “Roman, do you know why we were going to dinner tonight?”
“To celebrate your recent test score…?” Roman said, slowly, fairly certain that was the right answer but unsure why it mattered right now.
“I haven’t taken a test in at least two weeks, so no, not that.” Logan responded.
Roman frowned and looked towards Remy. “You said-”
“You kinda put me on the spot, hun.” Remy excused, chuckling a bit. “It was the first thing that came to mind as to why we’d all be going out to such a fancy place- I didn’t think you’d buy it, but I certainly wasn’t going to complain when you did.”
“Oh.” Roman said, accepting the answer before frowning harder, still confused. “But if that’s not why we were going out… what was the actual reason?”
“Good word choice there- Ro, we were going to ask if you wanted to be our partner.”
It was Roman’s turn to be silent, looking between vis two friends and squishes quicker than ve had been earlier, waiting for their expressions to break, for them to laugh, for them to mock vim for falling for it. But they didn’t, they remained looking the faintest bits amused but mostly fond, fond for vim, and Roman had the vague feeling ve was going to start crying soon.
“But… you’re soulmates.” Roman said, not wanting to crush vis hope but not wanting to only offer it false chances. “You’re not fated to be with anyone else.”
“Technically, no.” Logan agreed. “Which is why we didn’t want to tell you the true purpose of this evening. I confess, we were… worried. Roman, you’re attractive-”
“Very attractive, incredibly handsome.”
“-and talented-”
“So amazingly talented.”
“-and just generally, as they say, a ‘catch.’”
“A wonderful catch.”
Logan gently hit Remy’s arm, atla expression one meant to be of annoyance for being interrupted but coming off only as in love. Remy just smirked back, and Logan rolled atla eyes, and turned back to Roman and looked at vim the exact same way a had been looking at Remy, just minus the poor attempts at faux exasperation.
“And yet, you never seemed to show any interest in having a partner.” Logan continued, frowning just the tiniest bit. “We assumed you held to old traditions- the idea that you couldn’t be with those who were marked for soulmates, only others who weren’t.”
“Which is why we were going to go to such a nice restaurant.” Remy explained. “We figured, hey, if we ask and you say no and everything’s awkward, at least we’ll be awkward in style.”
“That was your idea alone, Remy.”
“We’re soulmates, love, everything I do is your problem as well.”
“Unfortunately.” Logan muttered, rolling atla eyes even as a smiled. Remy matched atla smile before leaning over to kiss atla cheek, smile growing when Logan’s cheeks dusted pink at the action. “You are being a distraction.”
“The best.” Remy responded cheerfully. They leaned back to their side of the bed, moving forward a bit so they could hold the side of Roman’s face, their smile having taken on a slightly dopey look. “We could go through all the exacts of falling for you and worrying about falling for you- and we will, later, if you want- but I think you have enough of the gist for now, darling.”
Roman met Remy’s eyes, slightly addicted to looking into them, the dark brown so often hidden ve wouldn’t want to look away even if they weren’t filled with a happy, bright sort of affection. “So… what now, then?”
Logan laughed, softly, the sound immediately drawing Roman’s attention to lan, watching with adoring fascination as a smiled gently at vim. A looked away for only a moment to take one of Roman’s hands in atla own, pressing a soft kiss to the back of it, making Roman blush.
“Now, assuming you are amicable to the idea, the three of us get together queerplatonically.” Logan explained, simply and sweetly.
“As partners.” Remy added, shifting their position on the bed so that they were closer to Roman and pressing a kiss to vis forehead as they did so. Roman blushed harder, a development Remy looked delighted by.
“You guys are acting like we already are partners.” Roman pointed out.
“Well, you have admitted that you hold queerplatonic feelings for us, and we’ve confessed to having the same for you.” Logan pointed out, now holding Roman’s hand between both of atlan. “Apologies if we are making inaccurate assumptions, but there appears to be no reason for us not to be partners already.”
“Lo, love, you’re sounding a little impatient there.” Remy said, teasingly, smiling at Logan from where they were reclining beside Roman’s head.
Logan just rolled atla eyes. “It has been twenty-two near-insufferable weeks of you complaining about how pretty your roommate is and twenty-one messy weeks of falling for vim too because you wouldn’t stop talking about vim. We have confirmation that ve returns our affections. I wish to now show these affections. Any delays in me doing so are only further annoyances.”
Remy laughed. “Well, you heard my starshine.” They said, grinning at Roman. “Have anything to say in your defense?”
Roman bit vis lip. “We’re not soulmates.”
“Logan’s parents were soulmates and they divorced two years after they had lan.” Remy said. “Meanwhile, of my five parents, only one set of them were soulmates, and all of them have been cheesy and in love as long as I can remember.”
“So while your fears in that particular regard were valid… using it as a defense is not.” Logan told vim, squeezing vis hand, reminding both that a was there and that a was tired of waiting. “Anything else?”
Roman didn’t respond at first, taking a moment to think, but ve wasn’t sure why ve bothered. It was a little laughable, how quickly vis fears over being in love with them fell apart once the soulmates thing was out of the equation. Ve knew they were polyam, as Remy had mentioned it multiple times over the past few weeks- something Roman was now realizing may have been on purpose- and if they liked vim back then there was no need to worry over unrequited love.
Really, there wasn’t even a reason to think. They loved vim, and they didn’t care that ve wasn’t their soulmate. What more could Roman want?
“I guess not.” Ve said, finally, offering the two of them a smile that ve knew came off as awkward but ve hoped also came off as sweet, or fond, or nice, or any one of the dozens of things they were. And from the way Remy smiled back, brighter and happier than Roman thought ve had ever seen them before, ve had the feeling vis smile was just fine.
“Finally.” Logan said in direct contrast, moving from sitting on the edge of the bed to being stretched out across it, pressed into Roman’s side in mere seconds. A peppered kisses across the entirety of the side of Roman’s face, ignoring vis once-more rapidly rising flush. As quickly as a had started, Logan settled, pressing atla face into the crook of Roman’s neck, muttering to atlantiself about what sounded like the annoyances of pining over stupid pretty people.
“Wh-what just happened?” Roman asked, looking over at Remy, wishing ve could pretend the stutter was from exhaustion and not how flustered ve currently was. Not that it seemed Remy would’ve bought the ‘exhaustion’ excuse anyways, chuckling at Roman as they glanced over at Logan fondly.
“Logan’s officially claimed you as a partner.” Remy explained, tone soft and loving. “A’ll never admit it out loud, but a’s very cuddly with the people a loves. A’s been ranting about how warm you look for weeks now.”
“Oh.” Roman said, equally soft, looking at Logan’s messy dark hair, covering any part of atla face that Roman might’ve been able to see past where it was pushed against vis neck. “Is a asleep?”
Roman was answered by a huff from Logan atlantiself, tightening atla hold on Roman and shifting atla head. Remy chuckled again, reaching over to run a hand through Logan’s hair, Logan humming contentedly in response.
“A will be soon enough.” Logan’s hums turned annoyed. “Oh, hush. You sleep worse than me and you know it.” A more questioning hum. “Roman’s also tired and has nowhere to be, ve will not mind if you fall asleep wrapped around vim.”
“But dinner-”
“Has been cancelled since we saw you having a panic attack.” Remy cut vim off smoothly, still playing with Logan’s hair as they kissed Roman’s forehead. “Your only evening plans are to lay here and let Logan cuddle you and probably take a nap while you’re at it.”
“I think I can get behind those plans.” Roman replied, loath to move or disrupt Logan in any way. “And afterwards? When a wakes back up?”
Remy shrugged. “A’ll still want to hold you, so probably watch a movie. Or take turns talking about how much we love you. Or find all your scars- I know you have a lot, sweetheart, you were a trouble child- so me and Lo can map them out properly.”
“Map them out…?”
“I was thinking suns.” Remy answered, their hand moving from Logan’s head down atla arm, tracing over one of the constellation patterns there. “Bright and energetic and beautiful.”
Roman realized what Remy meant as ve looked at Logan’s soulmarks, and at the black sketch of saturn on the back of Remy’s hand from where Logan had accidentally trapped atla hand in a door. “That would be… nice.” Ve decided quietly, looking at the planets and stars and thinking suns would look nice amongst them. “Could you also…”
“I think you’ll wear the universe very well.” Remy said by way of response, their hand slipping all the way down Logan’s arm so that they could hold atlan. They moved back, pulling their joined hands over Roman’s chest, Remy using their free hand to rest their head on. “But for now, you should probably try to get some sleep, angel.”
Though ve wanted to argue, wanted to say ve wasn’t tired and would much rather talk to Remy about just how long the whole mutual-pining thing had been going on, vis earlier exhaustion from the panic attack was creeping back in, and with Logan pressed against vis side and Remy just as close resisting its call had become nigh impossible. So instead, Roman wrapped an arm around Logan, holding lan even closer. Ve curled up a bit, getting comfortable, before glancing back at Remy. They were still resting on their hand, eyes open but half-lidded, watching Roman and Logan with a tired smile.
“Don’t you need sleep too?” Roman asked as ve settled vis head over Logan’s, reveling in how close and warm and soft a was.
“I’ll go to bed soon enough, don’t worry.” Remy assured, softly kissing the top of Roman’s head. “Sleep well, love.”
And Roman did, feeling melty from the fondness in Remy’s voice, feeling warm from Logan against vim, and feeling only pure joy at the thought of being a part of Logan and Remy’s universe.
Pointless Pining (makes for the best love stories)
Ao3
Summary: Sure, Roman could tell aur squishes that au was in love with them. There was even a fairly good chance they’d return the sentiment! But there was also a chance (however small) that they would say no, and well... Roman didn’t want to take that risk.
Content: Mutual pining, oblivious pining so oblivious it’s ridiculous (but true!), swearing, referencing making out, running away from family events to avoid said family, confessions, kissing (not on the lips); everyone’s non-binary except andy who’s male (cis or trans, reader’s choice), aro!roman, implied aro!logan + aro!remy
Pairings: QPR rolosleep, romo anxton (ts shorts anxiety [Andy] x Patton)
Notes: For easy reference, Roman’s pronoun set is au/aur/aurs/aurself (based off of the periodic table element name for gold, not the term for alternate universes), Logan’s is ja/java/jav/javs/javaself (based off the coding language, not coffee), and Patton’s is dai/dais/daiself
Also! this fic is dedicated to my wonderful qpps, @lo-gayn and @bitchy-sleep ! i adore them with all my heart, even if I wasn’t very helpful with the getting-together part of our relationship. this one’s for you, loves <3
~
Roman had an amazing, spectacular, flawless plan.
“This is a horrible idea, dude.”
Some people just refused to understand aur brilliance.
“You know, this is why I don’t talk to you.” Roman said matter-of-factly, ignoring Andy rolling his eyes as au compared two dresses in aur mirror. “Now just tell me which red goes better with my eyes.”
“How would I know? Unlike some people, I don’t spend all day looking into them.” Andy huffed, reclined out on Roman’s bed. “I don’t even know why you’re asking me for help with your clearly doomed plan.”
“I’m asking you because it’s you or Patton, and dai’ll just ignore my dress question and focus on the reason for the dress instead, and you know what dai will say then.”
“To get over yourself and stop ending up in fanfic-esque situations with your squishes because you’re a hopeless pining mess who refuses to open your eyes to the reality that they want to be your partners as much as you want to be theirs?”
Roman turned from the mirror, frowning at Andy. “Well dai wouldn’t say it so rudely.”
Andy just shrugged. “It’s the truth. The sooner you accept it, the sooner I can stop dealing with this bullshit.”
A gasp of faux offense sounded in the doorway, and Roman groaned at the same time Andy perked up, pushing himself into a better sitting position.
“Language!” Patton scolded, though dais words had no heat to them as dai smiled and joined Andy on the bed. Well, joined Andy on his lap, a move that the punk didn’t argue, even as his cheeks turned a rather vibrant shade of red.
“Sorry, Pat.” Andy mumbled as Patton innocently wrapped dais arms around the back of his neck and leaned against his chest. Roman rolled aur eyes. Andy could act as intimidating and tough as he wanted, but as soon as Patton was within eyesight, he melted.
“It’s no problem, an-dorable.” Patton said. Andy just blushed harder and Roman sniggered, amused. That was the wrong thing to do, however, as it drew Patton’s attention onto aur and aur dresses. “Oh, those are some nice outfits, Ro. What’s the special occasion?”
“None! Nothing!” Roman said hastily, quickly moving over to aur closet and tossing the two options back in haphazardly. Two weeks au had kept this a secret, and au refused to be found out now. “Just… showing off some of my wardrobe to Andy.”
Roman didn’t need to be facing Patton to know dai didn’t believe that, and au could practically hear the frown in dais tone as dai responded, “Are you sure? Those are some of your favorite dresses, you don’t normally take them out without a reason.”
“And I had a reason! Showing them off to Andy!” Roman defended, looking at Andy slightly desperately. “Right, Andy?”
Instead of providing Roman with the save au needed, however, Andy glanced at Patton before shaking his head. “Au’s got a date.”
Patton’s eyes lit up at the actual answer, distracted enough by it to not notice the rather violent motion Roman made at Andy. Andy seemed unconcerned and unthreatened, only smirking rather self-satisfiedly at the gesture.
“You finally asked them out?” Patton said excitedly, continuing on before Roman could continue, “This is great, Roro! You should definitely go with the scarlet dress, then- it’s just perfect for a first date-”
“It’s not a date!” Roman interrupted, stopping Patton’s words immediately.
Dai blinked twice, looking confused. “But Andy said it was.”
“Sometimes Andy lies.” Roman muttered.
“Not this time.” Andy spoke up, ignoring Roman’s glare. “I don’t care what you want to call it, dude, but it’s very clearly a date.”
“Those were some pretty nice dresses you were considering Roman.” Patton added. “Not really what you’d wear out casually.”
Roman sighed and glanced back at the dresses au had crammed back into aur closet. “Then maybe I’m just being too dramatic in my choice in attire.” Au mumbled to aurself, trying not to feel too disheartened. Au did like wearing those dresses, and any excuse to do so was one au’d always jump at. It’s not like au wanted Logan and Remy to see aur wearing one of them. Not in particular, anyways. That would be silly and blackmail material, and despite aur sibling’s sweet exterior dai was more than willing to work with blackmail.
Shaking aur head to focus back on the issue at hand, Roman once more faced Andy and Patton. “One of Logan’s relatives is having a birthday dinner, and Logan invited me and Remy to come and stop java from being forced to only interact with jav family for two hours. It’s not a date, just friends helping friends.”
“Ja literally invited both of you to dinner at a fancy restaurant for the express purpose of spending the night talking and dining with you two.” Andy said, repeating the same thing he had said only a few minutes ago, albeit then with more swearing. “It’s a date.”
“I have to agree with Andy here, Ro.” Patton said, once more smiling excitedly.
“You always agree with Andy.”
Patton waved dais hand dismissively. “You were clearly picking out date clothes to go out to dinner with your squishes. It’s a date.”
Roman sighed, moving over to aur desk. Au almost slumped into the chair before deciding the queer choice was to hop on top of the desk and sit there. “Just because it meets the criteria of a date doesn’t make it one.”
“If it walks like a duck, and quacks like a duck-”
“-then maybe you’re just shit at identifying waterfowl.” Roman cut Andy off, ignoring Patton’s reprimand of ‘language!’. “Besides, dates are for people in love with each other. One-sided pining doesn’t count.”
At that statement, Roman was met with twin stares of disbelief.
“Really, Roman, I thought you would’ve gotten over this by now.” Patton said after a moment, tone lightly scolding.
“My pining…?”
“Your belief that it’s one-sided.” Patton corrected. “It’s very obvious, I’m not sure how you’re still missing it.”
“Just because you guys think it’s obvious-”
“Logan has literally told you ja’d be open to being in a QPR with you.” Andy cut aur off, disbelief now mixing with frustration. “How much more obvious do you need?”
Roman looked away, focusing on a wall. “It was late when ja said that, I’m sure ja didn’t mean it.”
Andy scoffed. “It was four in the afternoon.”
“That’s… kinda late.” Roman said, well aware aur tone wasn’t quite as confident as it needed to convince Patton and Andy to drop the matter. “And that’s just Logan, nothing about Remy.”
“He is literally always flirting with you.”
“Remy flirts with everyone.”
Patton shook dais head. “Remy only really flirts with two people, Ro, and she’s made out with one of them plenty of times.”
“Logan and Remy’s snogging is purely platonic.” Roman dismissed, wrinkling aur nose even as au said ‘snogging.’ Au wasn’t a fan of the word, but au preferred it to some of the other more creative terms au could’ve gone for.
Au left out the part where au was fairly certain it wasn’t purely platonic. There was only so long you could try and live in someone’s lap before one emotion or the other got wrapped into the mix, in Roman’s opinion.
“You’re really just going to ignore all of the evidence they like you back.” Andy said slowly, as if hoping that Roman would correct him.
But all Roman did was smile at him and cheerfully say, “Yep!”
Andy tossed his hands up into the air, flopping backwards on the bed, Patton giggling as dai fell over with him. “I give up. You’re impossible and refuse to listen to any and all logic.
“I listen to Logan!” Roman defended in amusement. “Ja’s the only one I know with a fully functioning braincell, after all.”
“And yet, you refuse to listen to Logan when ja says ja wants to be your partner.”
“Technically, ja just said ja’d be alright with the idea of it, not that ja wanted things to be that way.” Roman corrected, slipping off aur desk and moving towards aur dresser. “There’s a difference.”
“You know, you don’t have to have Logan confess to you first.” Patton pointed out, snuggling dais head against Andy’s shoulder. “Sometimes you just have to read the signs and make your move!”
Roman chuckled. “Patton, you asked Andy out within a day of knowing him. Your advice hardly applies here.”
Patton pouted. “I think it applies here!”
“You’re just refusing to read the signs, Roman.” Andy added, wrapping a hand around Patton’s back and kissing dais forehead. “It worked out pretty fucking well for Patton, after all.”
Roman didn’t respond immediately, waiting for Patton’s ‘language!’ exclamation, only to find it not coming, Patton much more distracted by curling against Andy’s chest. Roman smiled a bit at that. “Well, I am Jared, 19.”
“You’re embarrassing yourself, that’s what you are.” Andy replied. Roman bit back a ‘when do I not’ and focused on shifting through the clothes in aur dresser. Only a moment passed before Andy asked, “What’re you doing?”
“Picking my outfit for tonight.” Roman answered, pulling out a pair of aur black jeans, one of the pairs that hadn’t faded to grey yet. Au dropped it on top of aur dresser and moved on to finding a shirt.
Shuffling on the bed indicated to Roman that Andy and Patton must have sat up, likely to try and see what clothing pieces au was choosing. They didn’t say anything, however, until Roman pulled out two shirts and turned back towards them, displaying aur choices. “Which one do you think goes better with my eyes?”
Patton frowned. “From fancy dresses to jeans and t-shirts? That’s a pretty steep de-escalation, Ro.”
Roman shrugged. “Well, if you guys thought the fancy dresses were for a special date, I don’t want Logan and Remy to feel I’ve made any false assumptions as to our relationship and the purpose of tonight’s outing.” Au said, smirking at the look of shock and annoyance on Patton’s and Andy’s faces, respectively. “So. Which one goes better with my eyes?”
“You’re a moron.” Andy told aur before nodding his head at the shirt in Roman’s left hand. “That one.”
“Thank you!” Roman responded, turning back towards aur dresser and dropping the one Andy had indicated back into the drawer, putting the white tank top covered in sparkly golden dots of varying sizes with the jeans.
Andy groaned. “You know this is a date, no matter how hard you try to sabotage it, right?”
“Nope!” Roman replied, scooping up aur choice in outfit and snagging aur red hoodie off the floor before heading towards the hallway. “I’m going to get changed. If you two are still here when I get back, I’m going to raid Patton’s stash of hidden cookies and give them to Logan’s family.”
Patton squinted at aur. “You don’t know where my stash of cookies is. They’re hidden.”
Roman chuckled as au stepped out of the room, heading towards the bathroom. “If you say so, Pat.” Au called over aur shoulder, confident in aur belief that Andy and Patton would be gone before au had even changed aur shirt.
After all, there was only so much needling Roman could take, especially when it was in relation to aur squishes. Aur squishes who didn’t like aur back, Patton and Andy’s opinions aside and ignored. Roman might be aro, but au was still the expert on love, and au knew in-love people when au saw them. Logan and Remy loved Roman as a friend, and that was it.
And if Roman was wrong, well… it wasn’t like au was ever going to confess anyways.
~
Roman arrived at the Sanders household ten minutes early, having walked from aur house with the intent to hitch a ride with the family to the dinner. The driveway had a couple more cars in it than usual, and the out-of-state license plates some of them had confirmed Roman’s suspicions they were Logan’s visiting relatives’ vehicles.
Au didn’t bother with the door, cutting across the yard to the side of the house and slipping down and through the low-set basement window that had been left open for this exact purpose. Though the window was more commonly used as a way to escape the house, Roman and Remy often helping to pull Logan out so that they could go star-gazing when they all should’ve been sleeping, it served the purpose of avoiding strangers and prying questions equally well.
Roman landed well, rocking on aur feet slightly to keep aur balance as au glanced around, looking for aur friends. The basement was a small affair, with one side taken up with Logan’s bed, dresser and desk, and the other with a bathroom and an old washing machine that no longer washed clothes but did occasionally hold the elements of Logan’s various experiments. That made it easy to spot Logan, who was sitting on jav bed and reading, so absorbed in jav book that ja didn’t notice Roman’s entrance.
This gave Roman the perfect opportunity to be gay without java noticing.
Because Logan, of course, had already changed for the dinner; jav regular nerdy t-shirt and jeans had been replaced with a simple, knee-length dark blue dress, the top half layered with white lace that outlined constellations across Logan’s chest. Jav hair was held in a loose ponytail by a silver ribbon, and matching star clips held back jav bangs. Ja looked gorgeous, and in that moment Roman wanted nothing more than to kiss jav forehead.
But then Logan looked up from jav book and the moment was over.
Ja spotted Roman quickly, offering aur a smile as ja slipped jav bookmark into place and put jav book to the side. “Hello, Roman!”
Roman smiled back, trying to push aur thoughts away. “Heya, specs. How you doing?”
“I’m alright.” Logan answered. “My relatives still remember the elephant toothpaste incident from last year, so they’re wary of coming down here and bothering me.”
Roman chuckled at the memory of said incident. Despite requesting that ja be allowed to spend jav birthday as ja wanted, Logan’s parents had called jav relatives down for the day and planned a party around them being there. So Logan threw some water, soap, yeast, and hydrogen peroxide into a box and set the concoction up to make a mess of the stairs leading to jav room as soon as someone opened the door.
Ja had escaped out the window after that, where Roman and Remy had been waiting for java to join them. The three of them had spent the day wandering the town, avoiding Logan’s searching family and doing whatever caught their attention. They had ended the day with the greasiest food from the cheapest fast-food joint they could find, eating it on top of the long-closed arcade and admiring the view of their town at dusk.
Logan had been grounded for two weeks afterwards, but ja always held that it was worth it for what had been the best birthday of jav life.
Roman was pulled out of aur recollections by the sound of a door opening. Looking up, however, Roman realized it wasn’t the door to the basement, but instead the bathroom door.
A second later and Remy emerged, dressed almost opposingly to Logan’s style and yet still looking just as stunning. Like Roman, he was wearing jeans, but hers were torn up and well-worn. He was also wearing a black crop top, a fishnet shirt doing a poor job of covering up the rest of her upper body, not that Remy seemed to care. His jacket was slung over her back, his sunglasses were resting in her messy brown-and-pink hair, and his easy confidence in her look were only adding to the rising blush Roman was trying to fight off.
“Finally decided to join us, babes?” Remy teased, seemingly oblivious to Roman’s gay panic.
Roman cleared aur throat and tried to be oblivious to it too. “Excuse you, I’m ten minutes early.”
“Yeah, but I’ve already been here for hours.” Remy complained, dropping down next to Logan on the bed dramatically. “And I’ve only had one cutie to gaze at the entire time! Not that ja isn’t certainly a very gorgeous cutie-”
“Remy’s been helping me ensure no one tries to bother me before I’m stuck at a table with them.” Logan explained, cutting Remy off and ignoring his pout. “She’s been here since my first relative showed up around one.”
“Over four hours of just you two chilling down here?” Roman confirmed, smirking as au did so. “Wonder how you spent that time.”
Logan frowned at Roman in disappointment. “I mostly spent it reading and ignoring the annoyance.”
“Mostly?” Roman repeated, smirk growing at the light blush that entered Logan’s cheeks.
“Well I couldn’t exactly be reading for every single second of those hours-”
“What Lolo means is that I’m not as annoying as ja pretends I am.” Remy cut in, throwing an arm over Logan’s shoulders and leaning against java. “And that I have very nice lips.”
Logan’s blush turned a deeper red as ja swatted at Remy, pushing her off of java. “You are as annoying as I say you are, and you’re a bitch.”
“But you still kissed meeeeee.”
“I will shove you.”
“Ah, come on, you know you love me-”
Roman didn’t bother trying to stifle aur laugh as Logan made good on jav claim.
Remy, for his part, didn’t seem put out, only looking up at Logan from her new position on the floor, slowly shaking his head as she said, “Cold, Lo, cold.”
“I do run a temperature lower than the average human, though I do not see how that could be relevant here.”
Remy pushed himself up, climbing back onto the bed and immediately slotting herself against Logan’s side, resting his head on jav shoulder and wrapping her arms around jav waist. “Because if you don’t have me warming you up, you could freeze! So you really can’t keep shoving me off of you.”
“That’s illogical.” Logan pointed out with a roll of jav eyes, but ja made no move to get Remy off of java.
Roman tried to find the best, least awkward way to stand, considering au was near the middle of the room and the only other people in it were cuddling. A small part of aur considered joining them on the bed, maybe even leaning against Logan aurself and joining the cuddles, but the possibility of it being weird or disruptive to the nice little thing Logan and Remy already had was too high to risk, so au remained rocking on aur heels, glancing at aur watch and wondering how close they were to go time.
The door at the top of the stairs opening and Logan’s mother yelling down about how they were about to leave and Logan needed to get upstairs answered Roman’s question for aur.
“Remy, please let go of me.”
Remy made an unhappy humming noise and didn’t move.
Logan sighed. “I can’t get up if you don’t let go of me.”
“Then don’t get up.” Remy murmured back, clearly content to skip out on the dinner and spend the evening with just Logan instead. It was a sentiment Roman seconded, if only in aur mind.
“I don’t want to be grounded again.” Logan replied.
Remy sighed, sounding greatly annoyed, but he finally did as Logan asked, letting java go and standing up. “Can I at least hold your hand?”
Logan stood up after her, only taking a second to think before ja nodded and offered Remy one of jav hands. Remy smiled brightly, taking the proffered hand and nearly pulling Logan towards the door.
He was stopped by Logan’s refusal to move too far, turning back towards Roman instead and holding out jav other hand.
“Coming?” Logan said simply, and after a moment that stretched longer than it probably should have, Roman nodded, hesitantly taking Logan’s hand. Logan’s fingers wrapped tightly around aur own, the gesture warm and sweet, even if Roman only had a moment to appreciate it before Remy was once more tugging on Logan, now dragging both java and Roman along with her up the stairs.
Roman allowed aurself to be pulled along, using that time to try and decide if au should ignore the warmth blooming in aur chest or savor it.
~
Dinner went just about exactly how Roman had expected it to go. Logan’s relatives tried to talk to java, aur and Remy deflected their questions away, the relatives asked them questions instead, Logan helped deflect those, jav relatives moved back to trying to question java, the cycle went on until they were halfway through dessert. Roman was just thankful most of the relatives allowed themselves to be deterred from their interrogation-style inquiries.
There were some positives as well. The three of them had secured one of the table’s corners, Logan seated between Remy and Roman to further block javaself off from jav family. In that arrangement, it was easy for them to duck over and talk to each other, keeping their conversation separate from the rest of the table’s.
And that was how they had spent most of the dinner, talking amongst themselves, trying to muffle their laughs as Logan made particularly scathing remarks about jav more despised relatives and they discussed where they’d all prefer to be. When their food arrived, they traded bites of their meals with each other, using the opportunity to mock each other’s taste with grins on their faces. That particular activity got some of Logan’s relatives looking at them funny, but Roman just shrugged it off as none of them knowing what having genuine fun with one’s friends looked like.
It was at the end of dinner, when Logan’s family was waiting on the bill and discussing what to do with the rest of the evening, when Logan excused javaself to go to the bathroom. Ja patted Roman’s and Remy’s shoulders as ja stood, clearly wanting to make sure they didn’t forget the plan.
Roman knew au certainly hadn’t, and a glance at Remy’s smirk proved she hadn’t either.
A couple of minutes after Logan’s departure from the table, Roman feigned interest in aur phone, acting as though au had gotten a text. Au then stood up, thanking the collective Sanders for inviting aur to dinner and explaining that aur ride was there and it was time for aur to head home. Au brushed off their confusion at thinking they were the ones taking aur home easily, and slipped away from the table before they could figure out something was amiss.
Au smiled when au found Logan in the lobby, looking only slightly worried over the idea that one of jav relatives might catch java trying to get out of any more family interaction time. Ja smiled when ja saw Roman, however. “Took you long enough.”
“I believe it was you who said if I left too soon after you they’d be suspicious.” Roman replied, matching jav smile. “Why, miss me?”
“Always.” Logan said almost immediately, and Roman fought off a blush at the single word. Au and Logan were close friends, and had been like that for a while. Cheesy lines like that were relatively common between the two of them; it didn’t mean anything else.
Roman cleared aur throat. “Do you want to step outside? Remy might take a bit, depending on whether or not he decides to make a scene, and I don’t want to be too close if that happens, do you?”
Logan chuckled. “Certainly not.” Ja replied, moving towards the double doors of the restaurant and holding one of them open for Roman.
Stepping outside, Roman took in a deep breath of the cool evening air, preferring it to the overwhelming smell of various foods that had wafted throughout the entire restaurant. Logan came to stand beside aur only a second later, and Roman directed them both to the side of the restaurant, where they could wait discreetly for Remy to join them.
“So,” Roman started, not wanting to spend the entire time waiting in silence, “scale of one to ten, how has your evening been so far?”
Logan considered the question for a moment before responding, “An eight, I’d say.”
Roman’s eyes widened a bit. “That’s pretty high, all things considered.”
Logan shrugged. “Being around my relatives is always an atrocious affair, but having you and Remy around helped a lot. It was much more manageable with you two.” Logan glanced at Roman for a moment, expression unreadable, before focusing jav gaze back out on the parking lot in front of them. “I always enjoy being around you.”
“We’re around each other a lot.” Roman pointed out quietly. Au wasn’t sure what point au was trying to prove, but au wasn’t quite sure what point Logan was going for either.
“I suppose so.” Logan murmured, though it sounded more like a filler phrase than anything else. Silence stretched between them after that, and Roman didn’t feel like au should break it.
It was eventually broken for aur by Remy sprinting out of the restaurant, spinning on his heel as she got outside, stopping when he saw Logan and Roman.
“Hey, darlings! We gotta go!” She called out, grabbing their attention as he gestured for them to come join her. “Unless you want this whole plan to go down the drain, anyways!”
“I knew he should’ve snuck out before me.” Logan said, shaking jav head even as ja smiled and started to run after Remy, Roman right behind java.
Remy didn’t start moving again until Logan and Roman were close, close enough that he could grab their hands. As soon as she had them, he took off again, weaving between the cars fast enough to hopefully throw off anyone who might be at the restaurant entrance now, trying to spot them.
Soon enough they were out of the restaurant’s parking lot and on the sidewalk, racing down it as fast as they could. Remy still held their hands, her grip tight and warm, while he constantly checked around them, looking for something or another. Suddenly, she skidded to a stop in front of an alleyway.
“You guys want to see something awesome?” Remy asked, glancing between the two of them as he asked.
Roman fought off the urge to respond ‘I already do’ as au looked at Remy, flushed from the running but grinning as well, looking a wild sort of beautiful. “I’d love to.”
“I certainly don’t have a better way to spend my time.” Logan said.
Remy’s grin only grew. “Great.” She said, right before starting to run again, pulling them into the alleyway. They allowed themselves to be led as he ducked between different alleys and slipped between spaces Roman felt they weren’t meant to slip through, only letting go of Remy’s hands when she released them, coming to a stop in a small, unusual clearing.
The spot Remy had finally stopped on was a ledge of cracked and jagged concrete, the broken concrete spreading out in a circle to fill the small area they were in, most of the space around them walled off by buildings built right next to each other and rusty chain link fences. Crumbling dirt sloped down against the concrete, making a small crater within the border of damaged rock.
In the center of it all was a pond. It wasn’t very large, the crater itself only being three or four yards wide across, but it was well-sized. The surface of the water was pretty with the sunset colours playing across it, but it was clear enough for the group to see down into it. The dirt in the pool was awkwardly packed, leaving it deep in some spots and shallow in others, but amongst the layers Roman could just make out little creatures swimming about.
“I stumbled into this place a couple of days ago when I was bored and wandering.” Remy explained while Roman and Logan leaned closer to the pond, both interested in the animals moving within it. “I think there was some construction mishap that made the crater, and they were too lazy to do anything to fix it, so they left it as was. Over time, it collected rainwater, and-”
“Are these tadpoles?” Logan interrupted, looking up from the pond to meet Remy’s eyes instead.
A broad smile broke across Remy’s face. “Far as I can tell, yep. Saw a few fully grown lads hopping around yesterday, too, though I don’t know if we’ll see them today.”
Logan smiled at that, jav grin somehow bigger than Remy’s as ja quickly turned back towards the pond, leaning even closer to look down at the tadpoles. “Wonderful.” Ja said, under jav breath, looking completely absorbed by the animals.
Roman forced aurself to stop admiring Logan and go back to watching the tadpoles before au was caught, but in aur opinion, the former view was much more incredible than the latter- and the tadpoles were pretty incredible.
“Tonight just gets better and better, huh?” Roman said, the comment technically directed towards both Logan and Remy, but given that Remy seemed to have become distracted with one of the fences, only Logan really heard it.
“Indeed.” Logan agreed, glancing away from the pond to look at Roman. Ja was still smiling brightly, jav entire face lit up and expression excited and happy. Roman couldn’t help but smile back, though aurs was softer, a product of Logan’s excitement, not aur own.
“You look lovely.” Roman said, out of the blue, not entirely sure why au had spoken. It was true, yes, but Roman tried to mostly internalize those thoughts. “Your, uh, your dress, I mean. It’s very lovely- you wear it very… lovelily.”
Logan laughed softly, a beautiful sound that Roman was absolutely in love with (almost as much as au was in love with Logan). “Thank you.” Ja finally said, with a small smile that seemed even more meaningful than the grin ja had been wearing a moment ago. “You wear your outfit very nicely as well.”
If Roman hadn’t been blushing earlier, au certainly was now. “Thanks.” Au mumbled, glancing back out at the pond to avoid Logan’s gaze. Au had the distinct feeling that if au looked too long au might say things they would both inevitably regret.
“My entire family thinks we’re together, you know.” Logan commented idely, ignoring the way Roman jerked at jav words. “Or me and Remy are together. Or you and Remy are together and I’m just third-wheeling. They’re too uptight to accept polyamory’s existence or it being valid, but if I did I think they’d assume we’re all together.”
Roman forced a laugh. “Amatonormativity’s wild.”
“It is.” Logan said, but it was offhanded. “Though I admit, all their conversing on the subject around, and sometimes to, me has… confused me a bit.”
“Holy shit, Lo, don’t tell me you think you’re allo.”
“Wha- no, no Roman, I’m still aromantic.”
“Oh.” Roman said lamely before frowning. Au was looking at Logan now, but jav expression was once more unreadable to aur. “Then what’s up?”
Logan laughed nervously, taking jav turn as the one awkwardly watching the pond instead of the other. “Do you recall, a few months ago, when I told you I would be amicable to the idea of us entering into a queerplatonic relationship?”
“Would I forget?”
“You have the figurative memory of a goldfish so, yes, you would.”
Roman chuckled. “Alright, you got me there. But, yes, Lo, I remember.” Au answered directly, hoping au just imagined the shake in aur voice.
“When I told you that, it was because I felt I was- so to speak- in possession of equal platonic and queerplatonic feelings towards you. I did not mind being your friend, nor would I have minded being your partner, because both made me perfectly happy.”
Roman hummed when Logan paused, trying to show au was paying attention without risking something as embarrassing as a voice break.
“Now, I feel as though I still hold equal platonic and queerplatonic feelings towards you. But I’m… uncertain as to which I should be having. I have always been content with considering us to simply be friends, but the words of my family have forced me to take a closer look at what our relationship is, and I feel as if I must reconsider that view.”
“I’m… not sure I completely follow, Lo.” Roman said hesitantly, trying to crush the unsteady flutter of hope in aur chest. Logan was talking about confusion, not making a confession.
Logan took a deep breath before ja turned from the pond to look directly at Roman. “I believe if our relationship continues as it has, sooner rather than later, I will no longer fully feel content to be your friend alone, and instead wish to also be your… your partner.” Jav gaze dropped down to the ground between the two of them. “That is, if that has not happened already.”
Oh. So it was a confession.
Roman didn’t say anything, feeling speechless and breathless all at once. Logan took the unmoving stare and lack of response poorly. “I apologize if you do not feel the same, I truly do not completely expect you too, I do not want to hurt our friendship with my assumptions-”
“No! Logan, no, I-” Roman paused to take a breath, trying not to focus on Logan’s wide-eyes from aur sudden yell. “Oh, gosh, you’re going to hate me.”
“I find that doubtful.” Logan replied evenly, now tilting jav head on its side in curious bewilderment. “Why do you think I would hate you?”
Roman ran a hand through aur hair, looking away from Logan as au did but turning back towards java when au spoke. “Your feelings are completely requited.”
Logan’s eyes widened again, this time in surprise. “You mean-”
“-And they have been for several months.” Roman added, interrupting Logan.
“Since I told you I would be alright being in a QPR with you?”
“Since, uh, since a couple of weeks before that.”
“Oh. Oh!” Logan said, moving from processing to what Roman could only describe as delight. Ja was smiling again, almost giddily, pressing one hand over jav mouth to try and stifle jav laughter.
“Well, now, that’s just rude.” Roman teased lightly, feeling rather giddy aurself. They had both just admitted they wanted to be the other’s partner, after all, so surely that meant-
“I assure you, I’m not laughing at you, just-” Logan laughed again despite jav words, and when ja leaned forward Roman realized ja had scooted closer to aur, jav forehead landing against Roman’s shoulder as ja laughed in a way that suggested less humor and more joy. Roman’s heart soared. “You’re very cute, Roman.”
Roman grinned like that was the best thing au had ever heard even as aur cheeks flushed crimson. “You’re cuter, angel.”
“Ah, petnames.” Logan said, tone warm and content and happy. “Love, dear, darling…”
“Your love, your dear, your darling.” Roman corrected softly, feeling bold. It immediately paid off as Logan tried to press jav face further into Roman’s shoulder, trying to hide the blush Roman knew was covering jav face. “My cutie.”
“Your cutie.” Logan echoed, sounding lovestruck even in just those two words.
Roman pressed a kiss to the top of Logan’s head, smiling growing as Logan giggled. “My cutie, my angel, my beloved, my Logan.”
Logan only giggled more, and Roman beamed, entranced by the sound and more than willing to listen to it for the rest of aur life. “My Roman.” Logan managed to say between jav giggles, oblivious to the bright red flush that had taken over Roman’s face. Au pressed aur head against the top of Logan’s, not necessarily to hide aur blush so much as to be even closer to Logan.
“Please tell me this is what it looks like, because babes, if I have to go one more day watching your sorry asses pine over each other like you’re the only people in the world I’m going to lose it.”
At the sound of Remy’s voice, Roman turned aur head to face her, refusing to remove aur head from on top of Logan’s. “I don’t know what you’re talking about, Rem, we’re just two bros pressed up against each other like bros do.”
“Ha ha.” Remy dropped down beside the two of them, flicking some rust off of his nails. “I still can’t believe it took you two five months, a frog pond, and me looking away to finally admit you’re queer as hell for each other.”
“The best things take time.” Logan murmured. “Though, I admit, I would have liked to have been doing this five months ago.”
“Well, maybe if you had admitted you wanted to be my partner earlier, we could’ve gotten here sooner.”
Logan lifted jav face from Roman’s shoulder to level a sweet but disappointed expression at aur. “That is exactly what I did.”
“Yeah, but you said you could go either way.” Roman pointed out, tone light and joking. “You should’ve known that wouldn’t be enough confirmation for me.”
Logan let out a small laugh, shaking jav head, but the look in jav eyes was only fond. “You’re an idiot, love.”
Roman just grinned. “Only because you keep hogging our shared braincell.”
“You can’t be trusted with it.” Logan replied, returning jav head to Roman’s shoulder, seemingly content to leave it there for as long as ja could. “But that is alright, my dear. I will keep it safe for you.”
“Thank you, my angel.” Roman responded, trying and failing to ignore how hot aur cheeks were. There was a simplicity and ease in calling Logan aurs that only confirmed to Roman that this- that them- was always meant to be, but that didn’t make aur immune to blushing about it.
“You two are cute.” Remy commented idly, leaning forward to rest her chin on Logan’s shoulder. Logan didn’t react, clearly used to the motion. “Does this make me a house-wrecker, now?”
“I don’t think you can wreck a house that has only just existed with past actions.” Logan stated thoughtfully.
Roman grinned over Logan’s head at Remy, the solid thrum of adrenaline from one successful squish-turned-partner making aur bold. “Can’t wreck a house you’re a part of, either.”
Though Roman knew Remy would never admit it, his cheeks dusted pink at Roman’s suggestion. “Funny, sugar, very funny.”
“I would not necessarily assume that Roman’s suggestion is meant to be humorous.” Logan said, which Roman could tell made Remy only blush more. “I cannot speak for aur, but I will say that I certainly wouldn’t be opposed to being in a partnership with you as well, Remy.”
“Three is my favorite number.” Roman added, wrapping an arm around Logan’s back to grab one of Remy’s hands.
“You two are going to get me confused.” Remy complained, though she squeezed Roman’s hand, using the grip as an excuse to wrap his arm around Logan’s back as well. “I hope you’re ready to deal with the consequences of that.”
“I’d be more than happy to.” Roman assured her, not bothering to stave off a giddy smile at the thought of having two wonderful partners.
“Indeed.” Logan added, shuffling a bit and forcing Remy to lean closer against java. Remy laughed at the action, but didn’t say anything, only leaning forward to kiss Logan’s cheek before settling down against jav side.
“Well, now, that’s just rude.” Roman teased, getting Remy’s attention. “Don’t I get a kiss too?”
Remy grinned. “Anything for you, hun.” He responded, careful to not crush Logan as she leaned over java and kissed Roman’s cheek. He laughed when Roman’s flush immediately renewed itself, even darker this time. “You knew that was coming.”
“That doesn’t make me prepared!” Roman replied, trying to sound indignant and knowing au was failing horribly. It didn’t help when au impulse shifted over so that au could kiss Remy’s forehead before she could get fully out of range, making it Remy’s turn to blush.
“Oh, that was mean.” Remy mumbled, but given the colour of his face and the slightly strangled way she spoke, Roman got the feeling he didn’t actually mind it much at all.
“Mhmm.” Roman hummed disbelievingly before moving to kiss Logan’s forehead as well, giddy with the knowledge that this was just a thing au could do now.
Logan reacted to Roman’s kiss faster than Roman had expected, leaning up to kiss the tip of aur nose before au could pull away, smiling at Roman. Roman smiled back without a thought. A glance up revealed Remy was smiling softly at the two of them as well, becoming even softer when she caught Roman’s gaze and smiled directly at aur.
Roman reveled in the moment, feeling as though au had never been warmer despite the chill the evening brought with it. With both aur squishes- with both aur partners- held close, Roman felt as if nothing could ever top this moment.
Now all au had to do was make sure Andy and Patton never found out about it.
Summary: Roman’s got a crush- his partner, Logan, has a plan.
Content: Kissing. Not super described but they still kiss and neither of the kisses are very chaste so reader-beware. also nb!logan + (implied) genderfluid!remy
Pairing: Pre-established logince, rolosleep
“Why don’t you just kiss him?”
Roman broke out of his rant to stare at Logan, blinking rapidly, waiting to see the bookworm’s expression change into a smirk, giving away the joke. But it didn’t, Logan meeting his gaze without so much as a flinch, their book now resting in their lap.
“Why don’t I- you can’t just do that!” Roman said, incredulous, still waiting for Logan to break, to chuckle and shake their head and call Roman silly for falling for such a thing.
But Logan’s expression remained set and serious. “Roman, you have been vibrantly and passionately speaking of and describing Remy for two hours, fourteen minutes, and three seconds.” Logan told him, raising their watch to show they had been keeping track. “It is clear you harbor affections for him, and given that he is now in the same room as us, the issue of your obvious pining can be resolved. Kissing him is simply the quickest and therefore best way to go about it.”
Roman spared a quick glance away from Logan to look at the person in question. Remy was too occupied to notice his gaze or any of his and Logan’s conversation, busy scouring the cabinets, likely looking for crackers. He was wearing his blue pronoun bracelet and, despite the fact that he was inside, his leather jacket as well, which Roman had always been of the opinion made him look much too dashing to be legal.
“Yeah, no, I’m not going to do that.” Roman said as he turned back towards Logan, who had tilted their head and was looking disappointedly at Roman. “Because people don’t! Do that! Especially people who are already dating other people-”
“You know that doesn’t count when the dating people are polyamorous and the other partner has already given permission and encouraged you to get over yourself already.” Logan cut him off again, giving up on their book and placing it to the side. “I cherish you, my dear, but I can only listen to you pine for so long.”
Roman scoffed, rolling his eyes. “Oh, says you. You so much as see a star and you’re off ranting about his eyes- not to mention the poetry.”
Logan’s cheeks flushed the slightest shade of red. “I don’t know what you mean.”
“I mean really, Lo, under your pillow? I was bound to find them eventually, even if I do despise laundry duty.” Roman told them, smiling a bit as Logan’s flush darkened. “And you call me a romantic sap.”
“My own feelings aside,” Logan said, tone clearly hurried even though they tried to maintain their earlier composure, “my earlier point stands. I see no reason for you to not simply kiss him and resolve the matter.”
“Because, polyamorous or not, people don’t just suddenly and randomly kiss other people.” Roman said, once more glancing over at Remy before quickly refocusing on his partner. “That’s something you do after you get to know each other.”
“The three of us have been roommates for several months- is that not enough time to have ‘gotten to know each other’?”
“Not if you want to kiss someone!” Roman exclaimed. “You need to go on dates for that sort of thing.”
“Why does it matter what the purpose of the time spent together was?” Logan asked, frowning.
“It just- it just does!”
Logan’s frown deepened. “This is tedious and pointless. If you will not take care of this yourself, I will.”
“What does that-”
“Remy!”
Roman’s eyes widened as he suddenly realized what Logan meant. Across the room, Remy looked away from the cupboards. “Yeah, sugar?”
“Do you mind coming over here for a moment?”
“No problem!” Remy returned, closing the cabinets before turning and heading for the living room. Roman gestured the cut-throat motion at Logan as many times as he could before Remy was actually there, but Logan paid him no mind.
Remy came to stand next to Logan’s chair, smiling at them. “Heya, good looking, something I can help yo- hmph!”
Before Remy had a chance to finish his sentence, Logan had Remy’s jacket collar bunched up in their hands, using it to pull him down and right into a fierce kiss.
Roman didn’t know what to do. Should he look away? Should he save Remy? Remy seemed even more confused than he was- but he also seemed to be adjusting to it much quicker, wide eyes and flailing arms quickly morphing into closed eyes and arms wrapping around the back of Logan’s neck, pulling them closer and leaning into the kiss.
Roman wasn’t sure if the kiss went on for a second or a minute, but it ended eventually, Remy pulling away to take a breath, leaning his forehead against Logan’s.
“I don’t know what prompted that, babe, but I think I’m alright with it.” Remy said breathlessly.
“I was resolving an issue.” Logan said, also sounding breathless. “Though I admit I- I don’t recall what it was.”
“Pining.” Roman said, voice strained, immediately getting both Logan and Remy’s attention. “We were- I- Logan- uh-”
Remy laughed, seeming to have picked up on what Roman was failing to say. “Y’know, sweethearts, most people would just ask me for a date.”
“This was the most efficient method of- of achieving our purpose in minimal time.” Logan said, still holding onto Remy’s jacket.
“If you say so, darling.” Remy said, laughing again, seemingly completely recovered from the ‘incident’ (the same of which could not be said for Logan, who was blushing hard and looking slightly lost). “And as much as I know we really need to, you know, actually talk about this…” Remy gently wrapped his hands around Logan’s, convincing them to release his jacket, “I think I can guess Roman’s not going to be doing any talking until I kiss him too, huh?”
“What- no- I-” Roman shut his mouth, well aware he was just proving Remy’s point. Remy laughed.
“Yeah, so I thought.” Remy said, dropping Logan’s hands into their lap before moving over to Roman, sitting down on the arm of his chair and smirking when he saw just how wide Roman’s eyes were. “May I, lovely?”
No longer trusting his voice even a little, Roman just nodded. Smirk growing, Remy ran his hands over Roman’s shoulders, looping them behind his neck and tugging him forwards into a kiss that Roman could only assume felt just as the one Remy and Logan had shared had looked.
Once more, Remy was the one to pull away, leaving Roman gasping for breath as Remy pressed their foreheads together. As soon as he had the air to speak, Roman said, “Hey, Logan?”
“Yes?” Logan asked, once more sounding put together, though the dark flush across their cheeks and neck said they weren’t quite there yet.
“You were right.”
“About what?”
“Kissing.” Roman said, somehow managing to sound flushed, something that was not being helped by Remy laughing and kissing his cheek. “Kissing was definitely the best way to go about this.”
hello lia! just here to remind you how much i adore you and your content. i was wondering, since you seem to be very much aboard the logince train right now but seeing as you're still captaining the losleep ship - has brain been offering up anymore rolosleep? thought i'd give you an opportunity to ramble about them, if you wanted :) have a nice weekend! - ✨🌟
ROLOSLEEP YOU SAY
well if i’ve been given an opportunity it really would be rude to pass it up-
this ship is best summed up as ‘two chaotic fools + a braincell who is coincidentally the only reason they’re still alive’
logan loves remy and roman dearly but that doesn’t make them any smarter
not that they’re dumb, of course, they’re both very smart, they just... don’t like to apply their smartness often
aka
they also lack common sense
logan helps keep them alive and they are both very grateful for this
they all have different things in common
for logan and roman it’s poetry + classic literature (especially plays)
it leads to a lot of good-natured debates between the two of them
it also leads to them killing remy a lot
if they use poetry on each other, the other will simply respond with more poetry and it will become a battle
if they use poetry on Remy, they become a gay mess and die
for logan and remy it’s video games
roman likes them too but logan and remy get DEEP in lore for them
remy likes them a lot bc they burn their energy so they can sleep and logan likes learning the strategies of them
and ofc, as said, they both like getting deep into the lore of the games and learning every thing they can about them
they have many inside jokes bc of this that roman doesn’t understand but it’s okay bc he thinks it’s cute nonetheless
for remy and roman it’s chaos fashion
all the types of fashion- make-up, hair, clothing, shoes, everything!
why yes this does include the beautiful fashion of sweats and oversized shirts
they like to do each other’s make-up and paint each other’s nails and do stupid things to their hair and if they’re allowed to go to the mall they will be there for hours just to try on e v e r y t h i n g in the store
sometimes logan will tease them about this and they’ll say ‘but lo we have to be pretty :(’
and logan will kiss their cheeks and tell them they’re already pretty and no matter how many times he says it remy and roman never flush any less
ofc... for all the good things they share... they share less than good ones too
roman and logan share overworking
roman mostly does it on accident- caught up in an idea, he loses track of time and doesn’t remember to stop to rest or eat or anything
he does it on purpose a few times too, tho, normally when he feels like he isn’t creating enough and pushes himself even when he knows he needs to rest
logan almost always does it on purpose, sadly- he’s aware of his limits, but in his attempts to keep up with work (even when he’s plenty caught up) he’ll often ignore those limits and keep working
remy has become skilled in both figuratively and literally dragging the two of them away from their work as a result
logan and remy share sleep deprivation
logan normally ends up with it as a result of overworking, but there have been nights where he’ll just... stay up. no clear reason aside from that he just doesn’t want to/can’t go to bed
remy does it more regularly
it’s normally due to drinking too much coffee or insomnia, but too much energy + too many thoughts can also be causes
they normally play video games through the night when this happens- a problem for when logan’s also up, since more often than not remy will let him join the game and then neither of them’s going to sleep that night
luckily, roman is very warm and a very good hugger/cuddler, so if he can catch either of them staying up he can normally get them to sleep or at least rest by cuddling them
remy and roman share insecurity
roman easily gets insecure over his work- is it good enough? is it good at all? has he created enough? will he ever create enough?
he also gets insecure over his personality- is he too much? is he too loud, too dramatic, too out there? does he annoy everyone?
remy gets insecure more over lack of their own work- logan’s so smart and roman’s so talented, after all, and they’re... just them. they don’t contribute anything to the world or to their relationship
a majority of their confidence + flirty attitude + etc is to cover the fact that they really don’t think they’re worth anything
logan loves both of them very much, however, and if they’re feeling too insecure he can and will Kill their insecurities with love and facts
angst aside
these bois like to CUDDLE
roman’s naturally cuddly, and both logan and remy are lowkey touch starved
they can’t be left together for longer than five seconds without ending up wrapped around each other
their friends think this is ‘weird’ and ‘kinda clingy’ but they know their friends are just jealous
they also like kisses!!
roman’s a sucker for back of hand/palm kisses but he’s happy to pepper his partner’s faces in kisses too
logan likes to kiss his partner’s heads + foreheads but will kiss the tips of their noses to Kill Them on occasion
remy just does all the kisses. face, head, neck, hands- if they can smooch they will smooch
there is a difference for lip kisses tho
logan’s normally okay for brief little ones but never more, remy’s always good for lip kisses but only sometimes down for making-out, and roman is ALWAYS down for lip kisses and making-out but he RESPECTS HIS PARTNERS’ BOUNDARIES
this does, however, mean that when remy’s in the mood to make-out logan will not be getting either of his partners’ attention for at least half an hour
for the sake of my heart i must also note it never goes further than making out- they’re all ace, remy + roman being sex-repulsed and logan being sex-neutral. they like to cuddle kiss and sometimes make out- that’s all
slightly random but important tangent: they can all break into their house and every room in their house
remy can open any window- locked or not-, logan can lockpick any door, and roman can and will break down any door/window
this is mostly so none of them can isolate themselves but also bc remy and roman often forget their keys and logan can’t always save them
that tangent aside, a new one: how they got together
roman and remy were dating first, and logan was their friend who kept them from doing every thing they wanted to do, aka, kept them alive
and then somewhere along the way... he accidentally fell in love with them
whoops
he kept the lid on it pretty well at first
but then remy one day was reallllly tired and they kissed logan’s cheek while the three of them were hanging out
roman pulled remy away and rushed to apologize about how remy gets extra affectionate when tired and they also have a tendency to mix up who their dating and who they’re not
except logan just blushed and mumbled something about how he didn’t mind and... well... that’s Gay
for a while, logan and roman were metamours of remy, but logan already loved roman and roman’s gay and dramatic and logan knows poetry so, really, it was only a matter of time before they started dating as well
i could probably say more but my wrist’s starting to hurt something fierce so i’m cutting it off there
What about rolosleep date night were lo plans a quiet dinner and star gazing with his loves?~💙
also: remy suggested ‘flirtin’‘ (a very helpful and insight prompt indeed /t)
note on pronouns: roman’s set is em/ember/embers/emberself and remy’s is ty/tym/tyr/tymself
~
“-Without the atmosphere of earth, water and oxygen and such, there’s nothing separating the atoms of different metal objects.” Logan explained, having paused in eating dinner to gesture as they spoke instead. They had their hands pressed together, fingers splayed. “Because of this, cold welding can happen, and objects composed of the same metal bond together to become a single object at just a touch!” They followed their exclamation with twisting their hands just a bit, making it so that they were holding their hands together, as if they had ‘bonded.’
“It poses quite exciting possibilities for the construction and repairing of rockets in the vacuum of space, along with the possibilities of construction on earth in any vacuum.” They continued excitedly, resting their hands on their lap as they grinned. Their grin dropped into a curious smile as they realized Roman was staring at them. “Is everything alright, Roman? Did I go too quickly?”
Roman’s own smile grew when Logan addressed ember. “Not at all, my angel. I’m just…” Em let out a soft, awestruck sigh. “Fuck, I’m in love.”
Logan blushed a dark red, but they cleared their throat and tried to act collected as they stated, “What correlation does that have to cold welding…?”
“It’s correlated to how beautiful you look when you’re excited.” Roman answered, reaching out and brushing some of Logan’s hair behind their ear as they blushed even harder. “Though you always look beautiful, love.”
“I- uh-” Logan faltered, quickly giving up on trying to respond, instead looking down and resuming their eating as if it would hide how red their cheeks were.
Roman laughed. “Aw, come now, darling, don’t stop your rambling on my behalf. You know how I love to listen, especially when you sound so lovely.”
Logan only ducked their head down more.
“Good going, babes.” Remy teased from tyr side of the table, smirking as Roman looked over at tym. “You flustered them into silence before they could start talking about stars.”
“I don’t need to hear about the stars when I’m having dinner with the two brightest ones.” Roman replied, smirking emberself when Remy flushed (not that Remy’d admit to being flustered that easily). “Besides, I was just trying to tell them the truth.”
“I think we all know the dangers of the truth.” Remy said faux innocently.
Roman squinted at tym. “I don’t think I’m going to like where this is going.”
“I don’t know, hun, it just feels to me like you’d be a little bit flustered if I told you that you’re an absolute darling of a partner who’s as wonderful as you are cute.” Remy commented, grinning when Roman flushed and pressed a hand against ember mouth, clearly trying to hide a giddy smile. “See? The truth is dangerous.”
“Exactly right, Remy.” Logan spoke up, grabbing both of their partners’ attention. “Though, you needn’t use that many words. In fact, there is danger in even the simplest of truths- such as the fact that you are my dear.”
“Our dear.” Roman corrected, dropping ember hand just so em could smile at Remy. “Our dear Remy.”
In response, Remy fell over.
Or at least started to fall over- Logan, who had been expecting the move, shifted so that Remy fell against their shoulder instead, stopping tym from falling to the floor.
“Get outta the way, babes.” Remy complained. “I’m trying to fall onto the floor.”
“No, you’re trying to be overly dramatic because you’re easily flustered by sincerity, my dear.” Logan corrected, kissing the top of Remy’s head even as ty flushed crimson. “It’s alright, however, both because you are cute, and because we will all be on the ground soon enough.”
Roman grinned. “Star-gazing?”
“Do my date nights ever differ?” Logan replied.
“Not often.” Roman acknowledged as em stood up, quickly stacking the plates on the table so that em could easily carry them all over to the sink. Em pressed a kiss to the top of both Logan’s and Remy’s heads as em passed by them. “But I still love them all.” Em promised.
After all, what was there not to love about lounging on the roof, snuggled against ember partners as they all quietly watched the stars?
Okay so originally I was going to go more into detail about the idea I had for this, but then I kept getting distracted and... everything happened, so I think it’s safe to say that’s not happening anytime soon sdhbcfhsd
I can, however, give you the highlights-
Three kingdoms are at war with each other; kingdoms one and two are weak so they ally together via an arranged marriage of their princes and defeat kingdom the third. huzzah huzzah the day is one. the arranged marriage sticks tho, ofc, bc these things don’t just undo themselves. the marriage is also considered both a sign of peace between kingdoms one and two and what brought about peace instead of eternal war, so like,,,,, we have the first part of that title
princes are logan and roman- logan’s being logan about the fact he’s married for the kingdoms and nothing more but damn roman is a pretty boi and and a nice boi and a very respectful boi and oops logan’s in love
but then he gets kidnapped
because peace,,,, stolen
I’m so clever.
he guesses pretty quickly it’s the third kingdom bitter after a lost war and this thought is confirmed when Remington (prefers to just go by Remy), prince of the third kingdom, starts visiting him in his makeshift cell
Remy proves to not be a fan of his kingdom or its tactics, and after a couple of weeks protecting logan (aka faking torturing him for info so he wouldn’t actually get tortured for info) he breaks him out and they flee back to logan’s kingdom
remy’s imprisoned, logan vouches for him to roman, says they should send him back alive to his kingdom, remy tells him it’d be better if they just executed him (his parents? big bad. very big bad. they run a ruthless kingdom, and a traitor- family or no- would only face a slow and painful fate at their hands), more deliberation, roman agrees to keep and protect remy from his kingdom as an acknowledgement of what he did to save logan and moves him into one of the castle’s guestrooms
the rest of the fic would be gratuitous gays- logan’s still in love with roman, but as he gets the chance to spend more time with remy in a non-kidnapped situation he’s realizing ro’s not the only person he loves; remy very much likes logan but he decides that flirting with the arranged-marriage-taken man is a bad idea so he tries to hold himself back (only kinda working), and though he doesn’t see roman as much the same is quickly becoming true for him as well; roman’s having a fucking CRISIS because he loves logan but one time remy winked at him and he’s pretty sure that should be made illegal for being too damn gay
it’s a fcking mess and a half before one of them spills, leading to the follow-up: ‘but wait fuck i love both of you too’s and eventual kissys
