Distant/ cheating roman x reader
Cw: depression, manipulation, cheating, nostalgia , drugs and drinking
A/n : as promised a fic lets hope the knicks win tdy again( part time is my favorite band)
You and roman were in the most happiest relationship everyone thought to be every time he had an interview he smiled and blush about you saying “shes the best women i ever met shes my sunshine” ,he wrote song lyrics about you, and kept your jewelry on him at all times to show pride of you. But unfortunately that was just all show because behind close doors it was a different story, you sit in your share room with him asking yourself where have you guys gone bad?
When you first met him he was a bit rude but after a few hangouts he was the sweetest boy ever he taught you how to skate, listen to you vent about life, helped you out when you first greened out. He was your typical average boyfriend that was there for you and what felt true love at the moment .
You remember the day he asked you to be his it was during the fair a typical teenage romance place but you wouldn’t wanted it any other way. You both were on the ferris wheel at the top where he sats across from you to admire your beauty in awe and you could see the city lights and the wind blew through your hair and his making it messy causing you both to laugh and he then clears his throat making you raise a brow “ y/n will you be my girl?” He says looking at you with his eyes showing a glint of happiness and sincere making you fold at the sight of him “ yes i will” you shout with excitement. That night you felt the most luckiest girl ever to be and when you slept over you lost you virginity to him making it memorable you both were high and roman ate you so well with him being sloppy and hungry for you, then while fucking he look at you in the eyes telling you i love you’s while holding your hand tight making you smile.
Apparently all things must come to end in current times, while he rose to fame he was excited about his dream and all you could do was smile and be excited for him. Everything was well until he went on tour you couldn’t afford to go every single event but you rooted for him afar that was until social media shipped him with every women he interacted with making your heart break everyday you would cry about it on the phone “ babe don’t listen to them they are delusional teenage girls who are weird” he reassure you on the other line “ i just hate how they know you are with me but still do this “ you says shakily you knew what fans do you were lucky most of his fans had your back but some hated your guts for simply being his. Eventually he got distant he barley spoke to you most days some days you both didnt speak all his words became repetitive, he barley meant what he said anymore you were losing your mind but held your ground giving the benefit of the doubt thats he’s busy but your intuition said otherwise.
 When he went to lolapoloza thats where you had lost it something didn’t feel right he didn’t call you before he preformed or after , everything made sense when you were getting hey girlie texts and pictures of him with another women hugging her and looking at her with eyes of love.You gasp at the photo with tears running through your eyes as you zoom in the photo only to see it was roman. You cried your heart out “ how could he do this to me” you cried into your pillow while memories flushed down your mind, did him promising things not matter? Was you not being by his side enough? Were you just not enough? You thought back to the days where everything was fine the late night car drives, stupid FaceTimes where you joked around and gossip, the dates you guys did, the intimacy?? You cried till you couldn’t breathe. You texted your best friend to come over “ was i not enough” you cried on her chest as you hugged her tight. “ Don’t say that he’s asshole” she said comforting you but everything she said felt blank since it didn’t feel real, that night you were crossfaded trying to forget everything but no matter what the feeling of betrayal or the sight of the picture left.
You call roman as he answers he barley got a word in until you said “ who the fuck is that girl” you say with a tone fill with anger and sadness “ babe what the fuck your talking” he says thinking he’s slick with his words “ that girl roman don’t bullshit” you yelled in the phone holding back tears what you didn’t know on the other line him and the girl were quietly laughing in your face. “ you wasted 6 years of my life and now its down the drain for some groupie i hope your fucking happy we are done” you yell “ babe stop going fucking crazy thats ai you know how crazy my fans are” he says angry “ fuck you” you hang up on him. You waste no time to block on everything and after a few hours you seen on stan twitter he posted her with a heart, you scoff as you turn your phone off. You felt sadness for months as all you could see was them you isolated yourself, you felt sad all the time only leaving your house for work, most of all dwell on your relationship for how it use to be where he loved you more than anything.
You go to a old park you both you use to go skate at when he first taught you how to skate, your first kiss, better yet were you both met. You smoked and drank there till no tomorrow wondering what had went wrong still you hate how you felt horrible even if he did it to you. After a while you seen an interview clip of him where they asked about you “ i miss her i messed up bad but i love her” he said guilt hinted on his voice. Pathetic. You thought bitterly you sit there letting the wind play with your hair as once it had been it played with you and roman, you ponder about everything but you couldn’t do nothing but let it go and remember how he lied in the eyes of love
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