time
group / member : sf9 / Rowoon
genre : i dont know anymore??? soft angst???
word count : 421
“we should end it.” rowoon says no louder than a whisper.
your tongue darted out quickly and licked your lips as they pursed, where was this coming from? You thought the two of you were happy, maybe you couldn’t read him as well as you thought, because you couldn’t tell what the hell he was thinking at that moment.
“why?” it was all that could come out, you didn’t know what else to say, actually you know what to say you just can’t figure out how to get the words out.
“it’s not you-” rowoon started, and you cut him off without thinking
“shut up rowoon, there’s nothing wrong with you. So tell me what i did wrong, please..” he quickly inhaled as he heard you talk, to him it really wasn’t like that, he loves you to death. But he didn’t have time, he wasn’t able to make time even though he tried his best, and you understood him not being able to make it, after all he was chasing his dream and if he was happy who were you to complain.
his already weak voice wavers and cracks as he says, “you’re perfect, everything i could ask for and more.”, he chokes out a sob and you can’t help but react by wrapping your arms around him, with your arms wrapped around his head and your chin resting on the top of his head you ask him,
“then why? if it hurts you so much, then why would you start this conversation?”
he sniffles and you hold your face as you backup to take a look, he was crying, he was breaking his own heart and that hurt more than his initial words. You wipe his tears with your thumb when he speaks his next sentence.
“you deserve all the time in the world and i-” he hiccups as he tried to finish the sentence, “-i can’t give it to you, even though i want to”
you don’t know why but you smile at his words, of course it wasn’t that he didn’t want to be with you, it was just him being dumb. did you miss him whenever he wasn’t there? Of course he was thinking about your interests.
“Rowoon, all the time in the world with someone else could never compare to one second with you” you see his features soften, and his eyes are already becoming a little puffy. You lay a kiss on his forehead hoping he understands that he means the world to you.