Everything I said above is completely true. It is not an exaggeration or any manipulation of words. Those were their words, verbatim. I learned I can't let anyone not even doctors dictate what I can and can't do. This was a very hard time and I left out a few things from the words above...... I'm sure you can piece together what depression for that long will do to your mental psyche. Today, and for the last 7 years I have had a doctor who cared not just about what's on paper or what treatments didn't work... He Cares about the quality of life I'm living. How I'm managing both my mental and physical health and is encouraging not discouraging. All I can say is thank God for people like him because if they didn't exist I wouldn't be here today. Thank God for people like all of you as well because when things turn really dark there's no one there. Doesn't matter how much money you have at that point, what cars you own, or any of the material bullshit that you have in your life.... Everyone will slowly fade away because they're tired of hearing you saying the same thing over and over again. This is a very personal post to me because it's a very personal experience that I only told several people and I'm sharing it with all of you today, not to make you sad or feel bad for me but to uplift you. To show you that even if everything fails you can still hold on and push through. **Wishing everyone a managed pain Day ❤️❤️** #rsd #crps #rsdkills #crpshope.net #crpsstrong #reflexsympateticdystrophy #crpssuffering #crpswarrior #chronicpain #chronicexhaustion #fatigue #hypersensitivity #anxiety #ptsd #ptss #onehand #livingwithonehand #rsdhope #frustrated #burningpain #sharppain #rsdsawareness #crpsawareness #crpssucks #livingwithonehand #hope #suvivor #strength #fighter #fuckpity #fuckrsd https://www.instagram.com/p/CTcb5hIs2x2/?utm_medium=tumblr