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If my mother tells me one more time that she thinks I'm not moving around enough post surgery I'm going to let my legs give out in front of her.

I'm moving as much as I'm physically able to with my CRPS. I'm not laying down all day AND SHE KNOWS THIS. Even my PT guy agreed to cancel today because of how much pain I'm in and he's scared of my legs going out and me re-injuring myself only 2 days post op.

And she wants me popping the oxy every 8 hours which I don't want to. I rather take it at night to help get comfortable enough to sleep. I'm not trying to live off of it.

Also; I left the fuckin house yesterday. Did my hair & makeup, got dressed, and ran some errands with my dad & hubs so I could not be stuck sitting on the couch.

I'm fucking angry and over doing it but she makes me feel like shit and that I'm doing it wrong. I'm already super depressed and wanting to off myself every other hour. I had a full blown panic attack yesterday. Why am I almost 32 and still not doing anything right by anyone's standards.

#personal #Stella rants #post op #CRPS #chronically ill #chronic pain

When I'm not poor I want to get stars tattooed On my main sites of CRPS, Which is both my elbows, both my wrists and both my knees. In the meantime I have made patches of the tattoos I've designed and I'm placing them on the elbows and wrists of my jacket. One day when I have the tattoos I will match my jacket.

The thought behind it is that CRPS was my 'Tower card' moment. The moment of complete and utter destruction. I had to rebuild my life and foundations in an entirely different way to survive. I lost everything i loved and had to reevaluate what truly mattered to me. The card that comes after The Tower in tarot is The Star. A symbol of hope and faith in a brighter future. I fought for that future and I obtained it. I turned my poison into nectar. Thus, to honor that journey i want to adorn the first sights of CRPS with these stars.