Apparently I'm my own worst enemy
Back in May, I started running with the Philadelphia Chapter of Achilles International. My first day I heard people planning 9 and 10 mile runs and felt totally intimidated. It wasn't that I couldn't run that distance, but I had never run that far with other people. So, when the woman who runs the group asked me how far I wanted to run, I just kind of stood there like a deer caught in headlights. Luckily, I then heard someone planning 3-4 miles and felt less panicked.
Since then, most Saturdays I look for the person looking to log the fewest miles under the theory that I won't be able to keep up with those doing longer runs. I've also run two dismal half marathons. Two years ago I ran the O'fest Half in Pennypack Park - a part trail, part path half - in 2.30 without stopping. I was logging sub-10 minute miles early on and just kept going. This year, I could barely break 2.45 and I was walking a lot. I'd get to five miles and think, "Oh, I can't keep running, I have to walk now." It's made me balk at even doing 10Ks lately, even though I PR'd by 4 minutes back in April.
Not sure where this fear came from. Maybe injuries? After that spectacular (for me) half two years ago, a stress fracture in my shin sidelined me for three months. After hitting my goal at the Steamtown Marathon last year, IT band issues kept me from running for four months.
Since the ODDyssey run in June, 2 or 3 miles has felt like my upper limit. Occasionally, I've handled 4 or 5 - those were usually Achilles runs.
I headed downtown yesterday. I met two of our newest athletes (walkers) at the train to walk up with them (both are visually impaired). I'm usually quick to walk since it feels less intimidating, but yesterday I really wanted to run, and there were lots of folks walking. One guy was going out and planning an 11-12 minute pace. But he was doing 10 miles (he's got two halves coming up in the next month). I could feel the deer in headlights thing coming on again. But I agreed to go out with him and his guide with the attitude, "I'll stick with you guys as long as I can."
Well, apparently "as long as I can" turns out to be 10 miles. I kept up, never fell behind, managed to talk the whole time, and took the lead for a little while. It was a glorious day for a run. Sunny, cool, not much wind. The Head of the Schuylkill Regatta was going on, so there were sculls all over the water. It also meant there were lots of people, strolling, so that slowed us down a little at a few points. We took quick breaks at the water fountains (because none of us had water with us), and a quick stretch break at the 5 mile turn around. We ran up the ramp from the trail to Market Street...I've always walked it. We got back to building with .13 miles to go, so we ran around the corner to finish the full 10. We came in at 2.01.
And I felt great. I still feel great today. My quads are a little sore, but not enough to make me walk funny.
This shouldn't be so shocking to me. But I don't think I'd have gotten here running on my own. I needed someone or a situation to challenge me with no room for excuses.
Feeling totally invigorated that I can do 4 or even 5 miles before work. That I can do four or five speed laps instead of just 3. That I can do better at the Love Half (March). No more excuses.