#rwby9 commentary

[amozon28]

i think the most heart breaking part in the entire episode is when Ruby breaks down  crying and says

“I’m sorry, I don’t want to be me anymore”

because its the first time shes actually voiced how shes feeling the entire season, the entire series. like she said in episode 7 shes always the one to say the right thing, and put on he brave face, and playing the part of the perfect leader.

and throughout this episode while fighting Neo she’s tried to defend herself without really being honest about her feelings, “its not my fault” or “i was just trying to save everyone” again and again shes focusing on how shes impacting others and not talking about how SHE FEELS

so when everything comes tumbling down, when she finally breaks and thinks shes save with the cat to finally actually have a moment to herself, she appologizes for not wanting to even be herself anymore, because the ideal she has been forced to live as is too much for her, and not wanting to be that perfect ruby is somehow a failing she needs to apologize for.

its so fucking sad

[amozon28]

Currently think about Ruby being in a really dark place and losing herself to her grief and self hatred, and the one person always by her side being Little, even in ascension

thinking about the line from episode 1

“But perhaps victory is in the simpler things that you’ve long forgotten. Things that require a smaller, more honest soul”

Thinking about how that line once applied to Ruby as her introduction to the story, but now she is the one needing to be saved by a smaller more honest soul

[amozon28]

gosh the fact that the first time in the entire season that Ruby is finally able to use Crescent Rose she not only cuts down one of her friends, but he youngeest member, Oscar, the CHILD, the one who, much like her, had a unfair role thrust upon him, and she killed him