✔️ No S Diet: 4 green days and one yellow (special day). I'm okay with that!
My S day treats this week: 2 chocolates, 3 cookies, 2 Reese's, a cup of ice cream.
✔️ Exercise. Yesss. Hit my goal. Ran 7,2 and rollerbladed 3,6. It was really nice. Did my body weight exercises 3x (push-ups, crunches & planking).
✔️ Daily Bible reading and meditation. So important. And the best start to a day.
I was feeling a bit distracted at the beginning of the week bc appointments were canceled and there was this social thing I had to go to but really wasn't feeling... But then with the coronavirus the meeting got canceled Thursday night until further notice. Also no service. I just couldn't sleep Thursday night! I'm not panicking but I am finding it really hard to concentrate on things.
Also, Y&Z graduate from the SKE tomorrow. After that they will be staying with is for 2 weeks. Which is super fun but also like a major sacrifice of privacy and rituals and basically a ton of things that give me a sense of control over my life right now. Which is good, I guess haha. We will be able to hear firsthand about what they learnt at the SKE, so that's super cool!
Lastly, I can tell a difference in my body shape (more specifically: the softness of my belly 😌) after having quit the antidepressants and regaining my appetite. It's interesting what a kilo can do. And it's also interesting how my brain reacts when I check my body out in the mirror every morning before I get dressed. I didn't want to admit it until yesterday what I'm thinking then: "I really liked it better before, when it was flatter!" But I have decided to tackle this thought because:
1) My appetite has normalized. I basically eat the same amount of food every meal / day. I'm glad I'm not taking any medication at the moment and I actually looked online for appetite suppressants but NO WE'RE NOT GOING THERE BECAUSE #ED RECOVERY REMEMBER?
2) I don't plan on eating less because I am truly grateful to have gotten to a point where I have a healthy relationship with food and am not binging anymore. That is worth so much more.
3) I don't need to lose weight. I don't. I don't.
So I try to joke with myself. "Yeah, your belly was flatter before but do you really want to suffer through dieting and forced exercise - soooo much hard work - to lose just that one kg?"
Plus, there's so much going on right now. In case all the food gets sold out, my body'll have some extra fat to live off of. 😆
✅ FOOD: Stick. To. No S! And not feel weird about it bc we're having guests over. No S is actually a NORMAL way of eating.
✅ EXERCISE: 7,5k @Runkeeper and 3x body weight exercises - they really help strengthen my back for work (cleaning).
✅ SPIRITUAL: stick to my spiritual routine of DBR+M, study and service the best I can amidst the chaos.
